mentaldstruction

Not that anyone cares, or that anyone reads this, but this is me saying I'm going inactive again. My creative-artsy streak has come and gone once again. I need to focus on the upcoming high school semester, and afterwards, getting a car and going to college. I also need to get my license sometime in January...

I was working on a bdsm painting as well as a Ralph Nader painting, but they will be put on hold until life becomes less hectic, probably around Christmas (bullshit) or next summer (more likely).

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Living the life of a manic is interesting to say the least. Finding peace for no reason after so much anger confused me a bit. I find myself in euphoric or zen-like moods every now and then, with some slight drowsiness. But who wants to read about my life? Obviously you came here to see my plethora of deviants.

I went through a phase like this earlier in my life, about 3 years ago. It led to me completely changing; lifestyle, personality, etc. No worries though, everything is calm and peaceful right now, and that's all I care about.

I haven't been too active the past few days. I've been uber busy working with a client for a website renovation project; 3D Studio Max can be a bitch if you don't know how to use it, or what filter you want.

Moving on, I've also been really angry lately. My anger is at an explosive level. Thank god I'm antisocial or else I'd really piss people off. Even things that make me happy (playing computer games) end up making me mad in the end...which brings me to my next point - I found a new band called Hatesphere (Swedish metal). They're pretty good on the first listen, better than most of the shit I've been hearing lately.

I've been working on a Ralph Nader painting (I don't want your sermon on who to choose or why whoever sucks, it was for a friend and I needed the digital painting practice). As compared to others' work on deviantArt, it's barely up to par, but I'm still learning. Plus I'm using a standard intellimouse, no tablets. It blows my mind how people accomplish certain things when they paint. It really gives you a new respect for those people; you got there, tried that, saw how shitty it came out, and are amazed at how people got it to look so good. Hats off to you, artists. You're just another unsung hero in a world full of ungrateful fucks. But like I was saying earlier before I got off topic, I'll try and finish that sometime soon and get it uploaded.

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Ich bin zurücksein.

Hopefully this time I won't be around for a month and vanish for a year or so. I'll be uploading some things to expand my deviant gallery. I removed the "1st Degree" poem I wrote on account of it being stupid as fuck. Not that anyone knew it existed or anything, though.