I have officially left Fruit Cider Cosplay, and shortly after my leaving it was disbanded. Although our last 2 videos that we filmed prior are supposedly being "worked on" and will be "uploaded in due time".
I've decided to give my reasoning behind leaving as well as announce my future plans. As I'm sure someone out there might care, maybe. I'm not sure! : D
FCC is by no accounts perfect. This group, ever since my arrival was suffering from immense amounts of drama. Usually from our two "co-leaders/founders". However, these two were relatively good at keeping their drama out of the group and was able to keep up with performances and allow us to continue making CMVs and other things of that sort. This though, didn't last long. The group was always walking around to keep appearances, but almost never got out to make things for your viewing pleasure. In fact there was a point in time where I was the only one making skits/scripts for the group to perform, and even was acting numerous roles only to hear that we wouldn't be releasing said skit anyways.
Eventually our two head leaders moved in, and then their friendship started to end. With that we lost one of our main heads, a dear friend to me, and even now continues to help me remain optimistic. This brought a huge hammer on the group as the members deemed that we needed to take sides. Despite the one who left stated she didn't care, and she was leaving for her own reasons.
Now the group is split up, and me personally choosing to remain in the group, and maintain friendships, felt immense pressure. Primarily from the group to state that I wasn't hanging out with the lost member and that it was just "for work". I felt like it was wrong for me to be with my friend, and that I just no longer was free to be myself.
Not to mention around this time, there was a lot of drama going around with one of the group member's boyfriend who wanted to be apart of the group. I know I'm not the only one saying this when the whole group felt pressured to accept him only because he was "her boyfriend". Again, I was left to lie and act like I was fine with all of this because I would be 'punished' if I didn't. This boyfriend was immensely rude to not only his own family members but to anybody who didn't "agree" to his ideals and morals. If you weren't what he wanted he would publicly shame you, make fun of you on facebook, take screenshots of your words and dissect them so everyone could make fun of you with him. It was disgusting, and something I couldn't stand with, nor could I longer see my friend/fellow group member continue to make up excuse after excuse for this behavior.
I won't explain what happened after that since it is more personal than relating to the group.
To put it shortly, I eventually left due to pressure to maintain lies. This group used to be full of life and fun. It used to be a group actively reaching towards a common goal to make something great out of nothing. Instead it was ruined by petty drama and misunderstandings. Not to mention the stress it took just to make one CMV! ONE. Fruit Cider Cosplay ended on a sour note, and perhaps one day I will return, but I doubt this.
Either way. This doesn't mean I have to end it on a sour note myself~!
I have my own plans to finally say "screw it" and create my own cosplay group. I have been debating this for years. I didn't feel like I had the experience or strength to do it, but after my time with FCC and practically running it at times when necessary, I've found that I do have what it takes and that I plan to be asking for members shortly!
I hope you'll stick with me then, and follow me along this winding story I call my life~
Listening to: CL: Hello Bitches