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MelodyofaHeart
Mia Aim Eileen Ogden
Canada
Hi, I'm Mia! I'm a person trying to learn how to not roleplay so much, and maybe enjoy real things more! It's really scary, so I'm definitely going to trip and get cut up on rocks a lot! It's gotta be worth it, though- you only live once!

I love people, though I'm terrified of you too! You're humans, just like me. It's so overwhelming to me!


My goal in this life is to learn how to conquer my hurdles! How to organize, how to be present in the physical world, how to be trusthworthy and enjoyable not only to others, but to myself, too! Which is really hard for me...

I have a hard time being myself, being actually interested or committed to any single interest! I am aware of so many cool things and stuff that I get overwhelmed, haha!

One day I want to care about something enough to dedicate myself to it!

One day I want a hobby, or something I love enough to do it without thinking about it!

I'm working so hard to get my brain to work proper, I know I'll win one day, because when you become determined, nothing can stop you, I hope!

I hope I can learn to be a good friend!

I'm afraid of everything, and I apologize if I don't speak to you for awhile! It's not your fault, my behavior is irrational, though the explanation in no way pardons the behavior, I at least want you to know it has nothing to do with you and that you're worthy! Don't limit anything you do to my opinions or presence, ever, please! I don't think anyone would, just in case, though.

You're all worth so much love and each and everyone of you is special! Please dedicate your lives as you wish and I hope you'll find amazing experiences!
Interests
Ummm! I want to draw and color and to do stuff from ref!! I want to do color studies!

Ahh but I also want to make stories and create characters and have fun!!


I want to make settings! I want I want I want! 


I want to learn design because I'm REALLY NOT SKILLED IN IT. I also want to create things I'm proud of and ahhh

I feel so lost  I feel so afraid and frustrated

I wish I could draw from reference

I'm so frightened 

It's like  everything I want feels so unobtainable before my death

It overwhelms me 

So many huge things I desire to learn

I'm so scared 


I want to create art I want to create art I want to create art  

I can't keep up with my desires!

To learn, it is best if I approach one thing at a time!!! UGhguGHguGHUHGHGHGHH 

HOW CAN I WHEN EVERYTHING IS SO FUCKING PRECIOUS!!!! 

LET ALONE ANIMATION AHHH

I'd go to school but- it seems I flunked out of main stream school for a reason.

When I went to art college, it was hell. I was able to 'enjoy' myself, but I was really lonely and I didn't learn ANYTHING Because it went so FAST!! I can't think that way! I only think I managed to get high grades at all because I did dedicate myself to my art! But I didn't... improve.

And when I went to regular college, even though it was easy.. I failed. Over and over. And I kept trying. It took me until last year, far after I left the college, to realize.

I left mainstream school for a reason. Those days when I grew so dissapointed that I believed I should give up on education.

My brain does work differently. So of course what works for some doesn't work for me -embarassed-. 

 College isn't that different from mainstream school. It's more hands on- but it's still fast. Not in depth enough, not thorough enough, not evenly paced enough. I don't know.. .it wasn't what I needed.

Otherwise, I'd dive back in. I'd go to fine arts. I'd do something.

But I remember how awful it felt. 

And I remember that I didn't learn a thing, other than the fact my design skills are really... low. 


huff. 

So many things I yearn to do, long to do

I've got this under control. I don't need help or advice. I've gotten tons. I just need to.. .keep moving. 
  • Listening to: Youtube
  • Reading: This.
  • Watching: Words get typed.
  • Playing: Nothing at this second
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: oh yeah water

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joshine96 Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2018  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch :meow:
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BurgundyKisses Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2018  Student Digital Artist
your art is so good aaaaa <3 i love your style!
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MelodyofaHeart Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2018
fasdf Screech yours are so sweet and cute!/// jfslkdfj Thank you so much!
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Juh-Juh Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2018
Aye a very (and I mean VERY) belated thank you for the watch! I really appreciate it! :'D
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MelodyofaHeart Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2018
Hello!!!  My deepest pleasure!!

A very very very belated thank you!
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AmalaAzula Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2018  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch!
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MelodyofaHeart Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2018
My greatest pleasure!
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Serenity-Sama Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2018  Professional Artisan Crafter
Thank you for the :+devwatch:~! :aww:
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MelodyofaHeart Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2018
An absolute pleasure!! <3333
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