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A Demonic Affair
Gnarled around 
Your rotten core
Flesh and blood
Disintegrating gore



Shambling along 

A decaying corpse

Eyes closed tight

Now they no longer work


Each tread endured 

Drains your dirty soul

Never once worthy

Never once whole


Your thoughts run so filthy

For th
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Literature
The Yawn
I'm not even tired
Yet a yawn I see in my sights
Dammit I'm hooked 
Now I'm gonna pay the price


A yawn escapes my lips 
That I try so hard to keep closed
Tears fall from my eyes 
Squeezed as tight as they'll go


Why are yawns so contagious
Worse than the cold or the flu
Even just reading the word 
As I write has me yawning too


Give it a try 
Put it to the test
You know you want to
So give it your best


I doubt you can read these words 
Without a yawn or two
I cant even stop yawning 
What have I gotten myself into


A yawn will catch you 
Every damn time you see...
And on this statement 
I place my word and my guarantee.
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Blame
Drugs never gave me a distraction 
From my painful past
Just made it seem clearer 
More difficult to get past


The more I took 
The angrier I felt
There's no way with the pain 
I could have dealt


Drinking was worse
In feelings I drowned
Wallowing in self pity
Bringing myself further down


None of these things 
Ever numbed the way I felt
Just heightened the pain 
And bought my anger out


I made my mistakes
Way more than a few
But they were mine to make
Something I had to go through


And I made my decisions 
Because they were my own
Not something my past pain made me own


I am the only one responsible 
For my idiotic decisions
Not the ghosts from my past
They didn't put me in this position


Stop telling
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Mirrored Past
Take my hand as I descend
And together we will bleed
Cleanse ourselves of violence
And cut away the pain
Crawl on our knees 
Till the voices go away



Listen to the screaming

The torment of our souls

As it breaks our will and binds us

We'll fit what's left to make a whole

Our hearts will beat together

To fix our broken tormented screams

This I hold onto

It was never just a dream


We fell with arms wide open

Our darkness shared without thought

Fused in a mirrored past

The walls fell as the pain was fought


Nothing can take what we gave to each other

My pain yours and yours mine

Forever given and perfectly entwined.
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Indifference
It's Summer now 
But the ice still grows
My heartbeat weak 
And the blood barely flows



Stuck in place 

As I turn to stone

My future muted 

While I sit alone


Picking away at the wounds 

I've been given

The cuts bleeding out

This can never be forgiven


I have the heart 

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My Anger
My anger is eating me alive 
And just the smallest thing 
Can set me alight



This glass in my hand 

I wanna smash on the floor

Satisfactions what I'll get 

When it shatters 

In a million pieces or more


When i'm being spoken to

The thoughts that rage in this head

Would be so much better off 

Being left unsaid

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Literature
Rhythm Of The Rhyme
I didn't sleep again last night
Been 29 hours now but I feel alright



It's so much easier for me to write

When lack of sleep is gripping me tight


My head likes the rhythm of the rhyme 

Gotta keep the beat to get the line


The frustration that I feel

When the words in my head aren't ideal


Makes me tense and angry too

I want my words to speak my truth


I scream them from deep down inside

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Final Plea
I feel empty and alone
I've lost myself
My heart turned to stone

So much is spinning inside my head

Fear, anger, loathing and dread
I've kept it inside
Kept it to myself
When all I need 
Is to scream it out

But no one cares

I never get a second thought
So I just keep it to myself
With these emotions
I've always fought


Sick to my stomach everyday 

Thinking of all 
That is coming my way

Your anger, my pain 

Feeling so insignificant 
And small every time
I'm not a criminal
You can't blame me for any crime
I've served my sentence 
And it was the hardest hill 
I've ever had to climb

Even though I've let it go

My stomach lurches 
And the pain still shows

The scars inside of me betray

The hold you have on me 
To this very day

Why ca
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My Head
I've been awake for hours
All my thoughts are screwed
Time stood still
Broken pieces shatter 
And I'm torn in two


To myself I'm always so cruel
Cause words mean nothing 
When such painful emotions rule


Reality is lost
I'm floating lifeless 
In a disaster zone
A sense of confusion fills me 
And I feel so alone
At times like these 
I wish I could call my mind home
But it rages and storms 
And in darkness roams


Till it's so disjointed 
It feels like the thoughts don't belong
Nothing makes sense
Everything just feels so wrong


I need to relax
before i lose my mind
Take all my feelings 
Leave them far behind


Pacing in circles
I rewind all that has passed
Shaking free from the memories
The die has been cast
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No Sleep Tonight
Jaw clenched 
I'm wired 



There'll be no sleep tonight

With my eyes closed 

My senses take flight

Fading in and out on invisible waves 

Of sound and light


And even though I'm tired 

My body won't stop and rest

This unnatural high 

Has my mind totally stressed


If I'm awake much longer

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Literature
If
If I gave you my smile
Would you give me yours
Run your finger along it
Touch your forehead to mine


If I gave you my hands 
Would you give me yours
Hold them gently
Our fingers entwined


If I gave you my body
Would you give me yours
Wrap yourself around me 
Till we can no longer be defined


If I gave you my heart
Would you give me yours
Love me with a passion 
Of our own design


If I gave you my soul 
Would you give me yours
Merge the light and dark of them 
So we can't be confined


If I gave you my demons
Would you give me yours
Let them play together 
In our strange minds


These are the Ifs that I ask of you...
I only hope you will answer me true.
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Betrayal
I can't say sorry 
Or take back the anger I gave you
It's a burden deep in my soul 
That needs to depart
You broke me down
Ripped out my heart 
And tore it apart



I hope she was worth it

Cause I know 

I never deserved it


She was my best friend 

You should have known 

It would bring about the end

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Gnarled around 
Your rotten core
Flesh and blood
Disintegrating gore

Shambling along 
A decaying corpse
Eyes closed tight
Now they no longer work

Each tread endured 
Drains your dirty soul
Never once worthy
Never once whole

Your thoughts run so filthy
For that you've always been guilty

So chant along 
To the darkness that is night
The darkness that permeates 
This stagnant life

Your on a desolate road 
To your own destruction
Never able to exist 
Without deaths seduction

Stripped of flesh 
With every person you encounter
No sense of self worth
So your soul they devour
Your surrender to their torture
Gives them all of your power

Hang your head and take what's due
You know you deserve it
And know it's for you

Savouring the pain 
That's stripping you bare
It's all you understand
A demonic affair
Demons possess you 
In this unholy lair
Always together 
As your life they snared.
I'm not even tired
Yet a yawn I see in my sights
Dammit I'm hooked 
Now I'm gonna pay the price

A yawn escapes my lips 
That I try so hard to keep closed
Tears fall from my eyes 
Squeezed as tight as they'll go

Why are yawns so contagious
Worse than the cold or the flu
Even just reading the word 
As I write has me yawning too

Give it a try 
Put it to the test
You know you want to
So give it your best

I doubt you can read these words 
Without a yawn or two
I cant even stop yawning 
What have I gotten myself into

A yawn will catch you 
Every damn time you see...
And on this statement 
I place my word and my guarantee.
Going Back To Hospital on the 10th....the blood test i did last week showed my adrenal level as very low and i also need to have my iron levels checked to see if i need another iron transfusion...Gleeeeeeeeeeeee Happy New Year To Me! :P

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TomKellyART Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Professional Digital Artist
cool cool thanks for watching me!!!!!
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Thanks for the fave!
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Melodiezmelz Featured By Owner 6 days ago
Very Welcome :)
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jd84 Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2018  Professional General Artist
Thank you for faving lady of the lane!
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Melodiezmelz Featured By Owner 6 days ago
Very welcome :P
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Thank you very much for the favourite!
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thank you man
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Melodiezmelz Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2018
Very welcome :)
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Thanks for the fave!
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You're welcome!
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