Hey guys, so it's been around 2 years since I was last active on dA, and I've got to say quite a bit has happened since then. Do you guys remember the journal entry I wrote in around 2015 (it's been removed since, because I was afraid people irl would find it), about wanting to go to the States for university? It'd always been my dream to move away from home and go to a large university and meet all sorts of amazing people, but after my brother had just moved there, my mom told me that we wouldn't have the funds to send me away. I decided I would work hard to apply to schools that give good financial aid to international students-- despite my parents wanting me to stay here-- and, well, next fall, I'm attending Cornell University.
But it felt a bit wrong, because along the way I realized I want to do art for a career. And the more I had to put off drawing in favor of prepping for the SATs (US university application requirement) and APs, the more I realized how much I hate not having art in my life. I never prepped a portfolio because I was clueless, to be honest, about art school application (bit of a long story there), but basically I ended up having to choose between US schools and an entry level art program here in Canada.
It's been a long time thinking about my career and why I even wanted to go to the States for the first place, but I think I'm happy with my decision. There's no courses in art practice in my college at the university, so I'll have to take courses in the art college, but because of requirements I won't be able to take many. My major will have to be an academic one (which I do not choose until second year). I honestly do not want to major in anything but art... I'm tired of feeling like I'm just grinding through academic work for some measly ounce of time I can squish in for art at midnight or on a weekend. But, I don't know. I know I don't have to go to art school to draw or learn to draw better. Perhaps I will be able to balance my academic interests with a study in art anyways. I intend to, at least.
All in all though, after months of feeling confused, lost, and fearful of the choice I will eventually make, I'm excited. I'm excited to be moving away, and I'm excited to get a restart on how I choose to spend my time. I'm excited for university. And I'm excited to be here.
Yeet now who's ready for a SumMEr BreAK. a month more to go for me, and then some fresh fresh time to just draw.