Hi dA, and hi to all the great people here,
we love you.
I know we didn't show any of our love or even hint at a passing interest in literally YEARS... The reason is: We share the 24 hours in a day with so many headmates we can't even begin to count, so time is very short. And also we do almost everything s l o w l y and in phases, apparently. Like, there's almost nothing that we do regularly, almost everything we do, we do lots once and then not at all for stretches of times... and if we're lucky, we'll pick it up again one day... but not always.
We did open a tumblr. recently, if you want to go see what we're doing there: meeresbande.tumblr.com/
No idea how long that will last, though. We do plan on putting up some art there and we'll possibly create a sub-blog for our science-fiction novel-in-progress about a multiple system of three partly queer and genderqueer kids of colour IN SPACE!! They're accountants. And reluctantly help overthrow the governement. (in space)
It feels really weird being here for the first time in ages just to announce that we'll probably never use this site again DDD;
It is sad and we remember how much we liked it here and still do and the few but very dear friends we found here, who are AMAZING! I really, really hope you know who you are! If you're in doubt, you're on of them, we mean you, yes, YOU!
If you are sad that we're leaving dA, contact us and we'll probably find a way to stay connected if you want.
Ooh, we feel like we need to say something else and more, too, but we don't know what...
Ah, yes, reasons. We mentioned time, but that doesn't really explain it, since we also mentioned the tumblr. It's just that 1) the most important person in our live is very active on tumblr. but not here. 2) tumblr. is for everything, personal journals and rants, social justice activism, reblogs of cool stuff AND art. We feel more comfortable there due to this, because we feel sort of guilty using dA for non-artsy stuff. 3) We also have two mostly german wordpress blogs (almost never updated, see the phases thing above), one for our Meeresbande Zines (meeresbandezine.wordpress.com/
) and one for building with cob (mud) (meeresbandehaus.wordpress.com/
), that we want to keep for those specific topics. So we decided to try and focus our energy and spoons on those and use tumblr. for EVERYTHING else we want on the internet (as much as possible), including art. So that's how dA fell off... somewhere... is there a saying for this in english... brain too tired right now. Yes, anyways. Please don't feel too bad, dA friends, you're not alone in your suffering: We abandoned several forums even though they are highly relevant to us and we'd like to be able to be part of them and contribute. But we also want to spend more time off the computer. And even if we didn't it would still be like this.
But in case you were wondering: Our live is really well right now and has been improving steadily over the past several years! We still struggle a lot with PTSD and related issues, but we have amazing help whith that and we get much better handling it and it also doesn't feel like a sysiphus task anymore, we feel that we're getting somewhere. One day we'll be mostly OK
Depression is not so much of an issue anymore, or at least not the way it used to be.
We are out as multiples to most of our close friends and that has been wonderful for us, we're so incredibly lucky and our friends are amazing! Seriously, it is strange that we haven't gotten any shit about this from any friends, ever, not on the internet, not off. Not even from random people or strangers. Only ever from therapists at that one psychiatry we're not going to go to anymore. Actually it's really unlikely that we'll need stationary therapy again, unless something unexpectedly bad happens externally.
We're getting better at lowering the mask that we always wear and allowing headmates who are not part of this mask to front sometimes. It is such an incredibly liberating, but also still difficult thing to do for us!