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:bulletpurple: I AM A BULLYING SURVIVOR :bulletpurple:

Today is spirit day. Can you hear me a bit?

How was/is your school time? Well, I'm 25 years old today, it shouldn't care, 'cause I don't even meet those ppl anymore. But I will never forget.
8 years in my life I was under bullying. I joined a new school, a better one, I had to make an exam to enter. My mom was so happy, and I was too, cause I was going to a better school. But the other children just didn't like me. Until today, I don't know why. They started playing tricks and asking awful questions. After a few months, nobody got even close to me. Talk to me or being kind to me meant you were like me and should be avoided too. I never was invited to anythig. Nobody wanted to make homeworks with me, or even sit near me. Only talk to me to play a trick.
I got alone. No friends, nothing even close to it. I could only talk to teachers. My mother said "don't pay attention, you're there for study, not for friends. Just forget it and they will go away" . But they never went away.
They said things like "you are dead", "why do you still come here?" and all. If I walked in some direction, everybody just walked away.

Do you think it doesn't hurt? Well, when a lot of ppl always say you that you're pretty... you believe it, don't you? And when a lot of ppl is always saying that you're garbage...?

After 8 years, I changed. For High school, I went to another place. At my firsta day there, I thought it would be just the same, so I did as I used to: dressed myself in a way not to stand out, in jeans and black, stood away from everybody. When 3 girls invited me for lunch... I thought it was a trick. I refused. They thought I was weird.
Day by day, my paranoia against ppl slowly fell... because they were not like in the other school. It was SO weird for me that I just didn't no how to deal. I was so afraid of contacting ppl and suffer that I used to act lika a wild animal.

And when they planned to watch a movie and have a party... they invited me. I didn't want to refuse, but I didn't know how to answer. And I cried.

I'm cool now. I'm free of it, finally. I can deal with my past, thanks for the changes at my High School, I'm a better and stronger person.

But how about those ones that aren't lucky or strong? The ones who died... kill themselves... the ones who still suffer with it. It's serious, not a child joke. It leaves scars, the worse kind of scars: you can't see it.
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:iconrensknight:
RensKnight Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2018  Hobbyist Writer
:huggle:
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:iconnicthewerecatqueen:
NictheWerecatqueen Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
I've been bullied for
-Liking vore
-having an android instead of an iPhone
-not jumping off the playground like a fool

and on top of that...I was sexually harassed in Middle school
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tultsi93 Featured By Owner Edited Aug 3, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
Me, too. I've been bullied for my Autism and my body type, and I'm alive and I have everything in a good condiction. I'm happy I didn't do suicide. Then I would've missed the possiblity to get friends and taste adulty.
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Belarus-natasha Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2015
Good luck! Rember, the victim is often better off.
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:iconmechanictress:
Mechanictress Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2015  Professional General Artist
thank you so much, sweetie! Sorry for taking too long to answer
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Yokai-no-Red Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2015   General Artist
Excellent stamp Nod 
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:iconmechanictress:
Mechanictress Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2015  Professional General Artist
thank you, dear :smooch:
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Yokai-no-Red Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2015   General Artist
I want to recommand this stamp to "the october project" group, can i?
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:iconmechanictress:
Mechanictress Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2015  Professional General Artist
Of course, honey. :D as you wish
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Yokai-no-Red Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2015   General Artist
Thanks :hug:
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Paige-Milo Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Can i use this? I need it for something :T 
Ill give you created :D
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:iconmechanictress:
Mechanictress Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2015  Professional General Artist
of course you can! Feel free to use it :hug:
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Paige-Milo Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
^^ thank you :D
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Andoria-san Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2014
Some years ago I was bullied by a girl. She had the "superpower" to make people go to her "side", so I was alone. What's sadder? She was younger than me! She even insulted my mom. My parents talked to my school teacher and she talked to the girl's teacher. She does not bully me anymore. We even stopped hating each other (of course we're not friends or anything but at least it's not hate). It should be a happy ending...
But the scars are still there...
And now some boys tease me with my guy friends saying they're my "boyfriends" or "lovers" or even my "friends w/ benefits" I know those kind of jokes are common at my age and they're suposed to be annoying, yet not hurtful. But the bullying scars make any kind of people making fun of me feel HORIBLE. But I think that I could pass trough that in the past, I can pass trough this now :)
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Mechanictress Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2015  Professional General Artist
Sorry for taking too long to answer you, honey
The worse scars are the invisible - and people still thinks it's nothing, because we're not physically hurt
I'm glad you're better now. If you ever need to talk, I'll be here (even if I'm late to answer)
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TotallyDeviantLisa Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I was bullied on YouTube and Go!Animate because I was mistaken for a cyber-bully. :(
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:iconstalagmitestar:
Stalagmitestar Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I am too. I used to want to die, because my "friends" slap me. It's still happening, but it's getting better. :)
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:iconmechanictress:
Mechanictress Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2014  Professional General Artist
If they slap you, they are not your friends. You're not alone, dear.
Glad it's getting better. Be strong! :heart:
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Stalagmitestar Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks ^^
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lightbleueyes Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2014  Student General Artist
I am a bullying survivor! :)
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:iconmechanictress:
Mechanictress Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2014  Professional General Artist
Good! :highfive: You seem to be good today, so keep the strenght and go on! :w00t:
Life is amazing :heart:
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lightbleueyes Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2014  Student General Artist
Thank you so much for your encouragement! :) :hug: 

Indeed~:heart:
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:iconmechanictress:
Mechanictress Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2014  Professional General Artist
welcome :highfive: 
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Ravian2 Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2014
I too was treat like scum in 5th and 6th grade in elementary school in Korea
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:iconmechanictress:
Mechanictress Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2014  Professional General Artist
Sad. And how are you now? Are you ok?
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Ravian2 Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2014
Fine but they treated me like I was sort of a scum because They thought I had an uglier face than others, but when I look in the mirror I look no difference than others. At 5th grade I warned my best friend if she be friendly with me, she too will be betrayed. She said That she would still be my friend. But at 6th grade when she had new friends,she betrayed me. When I mentioned about her promise, she said "why should I be worried about your problems? I'm too busy with my problems"I wanted to kill everyone of them but I moved to America and back to Korea but my new middle school friends still use my face as an insult. Like saying ' hey Jeiyee is your girlfriend!!' I want to kill them KILL THEM ALL
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Mechanictress Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2014  Professional General Artist
I know exactly how you feel. People may be terribly awful. And it's hard to handle when you have to deal it every day...
But, please, be strong. Be patient. You know, school time will end and your life keep on going. You'll grow up a stronger person because you have experiences that they don't have. 
I'll be here if you need to talk, ok? :highfive: 
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Luftnagle Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2016
Easy to talk but is not easy to deal with it you still get scarred and trying to heal from it
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:iconravian2:
Ravian2 Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2014
Kay
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Arurikuuuuuuu Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
When you reach a specific level of intellect you start to stop giving a shit about bullying. You either make the people around you fall in love with you or make them scared to death of you, or if you're like me, nobody knows what offends you so they don't even try it. As for cyberbullying, don't be pathetic and press the god damn block button.
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Mechanictress Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2014  Professional General Artist
I totally believe in the block button; As long as it's there, it's an option, so why not? 
Thanx for commenting :hug:
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0SkyLight0 Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2014
well I didn't get bullied but I got teased because I am shorter then others. I'm not dwarfed just a little short. Now I am a little bit taller but still small and yeah. I got friends but it still pissesme off sometimes. I'm so glad you made it ceep strong ^^
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Mechanictress Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2014  Professional General Artist
Thanx, honey. I'm sure you're adorable. I'm tall, and I just love small people.
I sometimes beat my head on low stuff, pending stuff and low doors... :giggle: Being short isn't reason for shame.
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0SkyLight0 Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2014
:,)
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RainbowRedPony123 Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2013
I still bully myself XC (CURSE YOU VOICES IN MY HEAD!)
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:iconmechanictress:
Mechanictress Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2014  Professional General Artist
why?
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RainbowRedPony123 Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2014
Because I don't think I am that pretty or smart and trust me, if you saw me you'd probably say the same things
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griffinlady Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Many people had similar stories. I'm a survivor as well. Stay strong. Pat pat
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Mechanictress Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2014  Professional General Artist
Thanx for sharing with me! For you too - please stay strong! :highfive:
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griffinlady Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Back atcha :) Jumping High-Five - NaNoEmo Day 11 
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H1R0H1T0 Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
ugh, bullying. I got bullied just because I'm quiet. 

Most of the people I know are extremely loud, and if I'm around them for too long, I get a headache, which is why I prefer to be around people who are just like me: Quiet.

These bullies force me to speak up all the time, but I refuse. Why talk trash, when you can THINK first, and then speak? :iconshrugplz:
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They don't bother me anymore, but still. I can't accept their fake kindness that they have been throwing at me lately.

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Mechanictress Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2014  Professional General Artist
If it bothers you, don't feel obligated to talk to them. You're quiet, and that's how you are, and it should be respected.
Stay strong, dear.
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jorjalinotype Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
I suffered bullying while at school and also outside, I was excluded by my ex boyfriend's friends and I was also attacked many times in my last job until they had fired me
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:iconmechanictress:
Mechanictress Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2013  Professional General Artist
that's cruel... but have you got a new job already? 
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jorjalinotype Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
No, I'm still unemployed :(
I've been looking since the day I was fired, but I couldn't find anything yet. Here in Argentina is hard to find a job, and people can be cruel :(
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:iconmechanictress:
Mechanictress Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2013  Professional General Artist
Oh, you're from Argentina! We are neighbors!
No te quedes mal. :hug: Things will get better, keep strong!
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jorjalinotype Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Gracias! Thanks :)
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jorjalinotype Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Sorry, when I was at scholl
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jorjalinotype Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
School*
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PinkyBunnyChu Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
The reason why I joined deviantart, the truth:
People didnt look at me. They simpily thought I was invisible. One girl even said, "OMG THAT GIRL IS INVISIBLE! YO ARE YOU FROM THE GHOST WORLD?" 
That didnt stop me from being happy
When they did they bullied my and hurt me.
That didn't stop me from being happy.
They never noticed my art skill, ever. When they did they were like "Meh......"
That hurt me.
And now I have friends on deviantart. 
Im not sad anymore.
Thank you, deviantartist for getting me to go on deviantart :icondeviantartloveplz:
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