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:bulletpurple: I AM A BULLYING SURVIVOR :bulletpurple:

Today is spirit day. Can you hear me a bit?

How was/is your school time? Well, I'm 25 years old today, it shouldn't care, 'cause I don't even meet those ppl anymore. But I will never forget.
8 years in my life I was under bullying. I joined a new school, a better one, I had to make an exam to enter. My mom was so happy, and I was too, cause I was going to a better school. But the other children just didn't like me. Until today, I don't know why. They started playing tricks and asking awful questions. After a few months, nobody got even close to me. Talk to me or being kind to me meant you were like me and should be avoided too. I never was invited to anythig. Nobody wanted to make homeworks with me, or even sit near me. Only talk to me to play a trick.
I got alone. No friends, nothing even close to it. I could only talk to teachers. My mother said "don't pay attention, you're there for study, not for friends. Just forget it and they will go away" . But they never went away.
They said things like "you are dead", "why do you still come here?" and all. If I walked in some direction, everybody just walked away.

Do you think it doesn't hurt? Well, when a lot of ppl always say you that you're pretty... you believe it, don't you? And when a lot of ppl is always saying that you're garbage...?

After 8 years, I changed. For High school, I went to another place. At my firsta day there, I thought it would be just the same, so I did as I used to: dressed myself in a way not to stand out, in jeans and black, stood away from everybody. When 3 girls invited me for lunch... I thought it was a trick. I refused. They thought I was weird.
Day by day, my paranoia against ppl slowly fell... because they were not like in the other school. It was SO weird for me that I just didn't no how to deal. I was so afraid of contacting ppl and suffer that I used to act lika a wild animal.

And when they planned to watch a movie and have a party... they invited me. I didn't want to refuse, but I didn't know how to answer. And I cried.

I'm cool now. I'm free of it, finally. I can deal with my past, thanks for the changes at my High School, I'm a better and stronger person.

But how about those ones that aren't lucky or strong? The ones who died... kill themselves... the ones who still suffer with it. It's serious, not a child joke. It leaves scars, the worse kind of scars: you can't see it.
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RensKnight's avatar
RensKnight|Hobbyist Writer
:huggle:
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NictheWerecatqueen's avatar
I've been bullied for
-Liking vore
-having an android instead of an iPhone
-not jumping off the playground like a fool

and on top of that...I was sexually harassed in Middle school
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Me, too. I've been bullied for my Autism and my body type, and I'm alive and I have everything in a good condiction. I'm happy I didn't do suicide. Then I would've missed the possiblity to get friends and taste adulty.
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Belarus-natasha's avatar
Good luck! Rember, the victim is often better off.
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Mechanictress|Professional General Artist
thank you so much, sweetie! Sorry for taking too long to answer
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Yokai-no-Red| General Artist
Excellent stamp Nod 
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Mechanictress|Professional General Artist
thank you, dear :smooch:
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Yokai-no-Red| General Artist
I want to recommand this stamp to "the october project" group, can i?
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Mechanictress|Professional General Artist
Of course, honey. :D as you wish
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Paige-Milo|Hobbyist General Artist
Can i use this? I need it for something :T 
Ill give you created :D
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Mechanictress|Professional General Artist
of course you can! Feel free to use it :hug:
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Paige-Milo|Hobbyist General Artist
^^ thank you :D
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Andoria-san's avatar
Some years ago I was bullied by a girl. She had the "superpower" to make people go to her "side", so I was alone. What's sadder? She was younger than me! She even insulted my mom. My parents talked to my school teacher and she talked to the girl's teacher. She does not bully me anymore. We even stopped hating each other (of course we're not friends or anything but at least it's not hate). It should be a happy ending...
But the scars are still there...
And now some boys tease me with my guy friends saying they're my "boyfriends" or "lovers" or even my "friends w/ benefits" I know those kind of jokes are common at my age and they're suposed to be annoying, yet not hurtful. But the bullying scars make any kind of people making fun of me feel HORIBLE. But I think that I could pass trough that in the past, I can pass trough this now :)
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Mechanictress|Professional General Artist
Sorry for taking too long to answer you, honey
The worse scars are the invisible - and people still thinks it's nothing, because we're not physically hurt
I'm glad you're better now. If you ever need to talk, I'll be here (even if I'm late to answer)
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TotallyDeviantLisa|Hobbyist General Artist
I was bullied on YouTube and Go!Animate because I was mistaken for a cyber-bully. :(
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Stalagmitestar|Hobbyist Digital Artist
I am too. I used to want to die, because my "friends" slap me. It's still happening, but it's getting better. :)
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Mechanictress's avatar
Mechanictress|Professional General Artist
If they slap you, they are not your friends. You're not alone, dear.
Glad it's getting better. Be strong! :heart:
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Stalagmitestar|Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks ^^
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lightbleueyes|Student General Artist
I am a bullying survivor! :)
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Mechanictress|Professional General Artist
Good! :highfive: You seem to be good today, so keep the strenght and go on! :w00t:
Life is amazing :heart:
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lightbleueyes|Student General Artist
Thank you so much for your encouragement! :) :hug: 

Indeed~:heart:
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Mechanictress|Professional General Artist
welcome :highfive: 
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Ravian2's avatar
I too was treat like scum in 5th and 6th grade in elementary school in Korea
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Mechanictress|Professional General Artist
Sad. And how are you now? Are you ok?
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