This is basically the same post I made in my personal blog (http://mduo13.com/) but procrastination knows no bounds. I'm supposed to be writing a story for my creative writing class (something I actually want to do) but I have a sort of writer's block, so I'm doing things like vacuuming my room and coloring 2-year-old images instead. (As such, I've added to my gallery for the first time in... a while.)
You color a couple pictures of girls with cat ears, and pretty soon everyone who's favoriting your artwork has a favorite gallery full of images of that girl from Starfox Adventures. I guess it figures.
EVO 2008 was pretty fun. I mean, I was almost certainly the worst Melty Blood player there, but who cares? Championship matches were hype and it was a fun weekend out.
Back to being unproductive at work now, though. Funny, last year I wasn't looking forward to school because my job was so much more fulfilling and less stressful... this year I'm looking forward to going back because I need a change.
I've started to think there's such a thing
It always baffles me how, in a few hours, my mood can go from mopey and depressed to ecstatic, without any of the circumstances that were causing me to feel depressed to change in the meantime. Not too long ago, I was bemoaning what a loser I am... yet soon, without changing any of the things that were making me disappointed in myself, I felt fine.
So, recently, I've been feeling down about things big and small; most of all, that I'm a lonely loser otaku who's going to be single forever, and that I'm also a lazy unproductive bum (lately, at least) - I feel like I've forgotten the ability to DO WORK. (Yet, somehow, nobody at the office seems
Trite and true. Got something like 13 spare hours before badge pickup, and I need to make it through another 22 episodes of Gurren Lagann plus I was supposed to finish Xenogears, but there's still like a third of the game left and I keep dying. And then I want to sort out mp3s and draw with my tablet and read all the books I have lying around... It's times like this that having a full-time job is not so awesome.
It doesn't help that I spend an hour taking the light rail to work ('cause I don't like driving through bumper-to-bumper rush hour traffic - can you blame me?) and an hour biking home afterwards, plus my lunch hour isn't paid so I sp
Man, this is the only thing I ever blog about on DA: the fact that I freaking suck at doing schoolwork, especially final projects. Sometimes I really wish I'd done a major that involved exams instead of essays.
So guess how bad it is this time. 20 pages, due in about 13 hours. Current progress, after two days: approximately 1 page.
Well. I finally have time to catch my breath (and some sleep). After writing more essays and other things than I know what to do with, I've run out of stuff that's immediately due.
But, of course, this is really just the calm before the storm - because next week I have a revision of a 10-page paper due on the same day as the first draft of a 15-page final paper, both the day following a final presentation in another class. I'm also expected to read a 500-page book so that I can present on it and write a 7-page essay on it the following week, along with a 10-page report on the final I'm presenting. In addition to revising the aforementioned 1
...which is why I'm updating my DeviantArt instead of writing my essay. I hardly know what text I'm going to write about, let alone what I'm gonna say. So, procrastination reigns.
Looking back on my old journals is amusing. Oh, the days when I was looking forward to high school graduation. Some of the things I said are kind of amusing in retrospect, but what's truly striking is that I don't feel like I've gotten more perspective. Quoth three-years-ago me:
"I just hope that I meet a bunch of really cool people [at college], so I don't end up being really lonely and bored."
Guess what? Freshman year, I kind of thought that happened, only it
It is, for the first time in a while, cloudy here in Claremont. And, as I was sitting in Marsten quad admiring the huge trees (as opposed to doing that reading I'm supposed to get done for class) I realized just how much nicer it looks thanks to the clouds. It's not painfully bright out, which lets the muted tones of the trees really bring out the soft and delicate shapes of the various leaves... I almost wanted to grab an easel and go out to the quad to start painting the landscape. Of course, I don't have any painting supplies, nor do I have the time to be painting a landscape, but it was a nice thought.
I have been more involved lately in
SCHOOL IS OUT. I don't have to attend high school ever again. My formal graduation isn't until Monday, though. -_- But it's kinda sad. There are a lot of people I'm going to really miss talking to, but I don't really know them well enough to make it unawkward to hang out with them out of school. Plus, most everybody is going to be splitting up and going do different colleges. D:
Senior Luau was yesterday, and it seems totally surreal to me now. It just doesn't feel like that was it -- that it's over now. I guess I'm going on to college now, and I'll meet cool people there and all, but suddenly I'm not really looking forward to it. I already
I am very annoyed right now, because I have project after project due. Every single one of my classes has assigned a project, all of which except Latin and Digital Photography include presentations. It's not that I have a fear of public speaking or anything, but the preparations are such a bother that I despise those sorts of projects wholeheartedly. I've already taken care of my Electronic Music and Physics presentations (yesterday and today, respectively), but I still have to deal with government, due tomorrow -- that's a four page paper and a PowerPoint presentation, of which I did two pages during class this morning, with nothing else fin
I must have been sent a hundred papers asking me to fill out my name and address and write down one or two things about my financial state by now. It's really starting to grate on my nerves.
Graduation is also very bothersome. I have all kinds of crazy work to do preparing invitations, parties, and all that kind of stuff -- THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE A GOOD TIME FOR ME! WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE SO MUCH WORK?!
Meanwhile, I've been working on a new picture I drew myself (see my scraps for "neck"). For some reason, though, the harder I try to make it look better than my usual stuff, the more ugly it ends up being. I don't know why. I want
I've noticed lately that it's really, really easy to create abstract art from filtering the bejeezus out of anything, especially Clouds filters. Sometimes it's hard to get a good color scheme, but even that is hardly a trouble for me. Not everything turns out as good as Gush or Zen, but eh, I don't care.
My biggest complaint about abstract art though (especially mine) is that it lacks a focus. There's nothing in the foreground to draw your attention, so it just kinda sits there. Unfortunately, I haven't figured out what sorts of things to put in the foreground of most of my pictures. Maybe if I ever draw something worth coloring, I can do th