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Depression by mclelun Depression by mclelun
Inside the mind of someone who is suffering depression. This sequence was also original part of longer comic, just like the "cat meme save us all" comic I did earlier.
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Daily Deviation

Given 2018-08-06
Depression by mclelun take a look into the heart of depression. ( Suggested by RAMWOC87 and Featured by DrZime )
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KenLit Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Awesomely uplifting, and ... YES! ...a DD into your basket as well. Well deserved, BIG congrats! :) :hug:
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jupapam Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2018  Student Digital Artist
Gg c'est tellement touchent ;-; !
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LostGryphin Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2018  Hobbyist Photographer
Amazing work! Powerful message.
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BowlOfDumplings Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
Aw that’s so sweet I feel like this could really help repressed people
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NiosDark Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2018
<3<3
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JuliaSvetlo Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I can not really say, I just have Niagara Falls coming out of my eyesT_T 
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lilacdaisy Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is so powerful, I never saw something like this. Thank you so much. .:Bunny love:. 
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taemart Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2018  Professional Digital Artist
depression is a bad thing, never tryd it even though i should, i have all the reasones to have it, but i decided not to have it, 
i was the talles and the oldes among my class, i had to go to school to late, and people would make funn out of me, but i was , so what , but not every one have the power to do this, so we get to help thouse who we think might have it 
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psycocat Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
This is gorgeous.  Thank you
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Moon-Mushroom Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2018  Student Digital Artist
I live by this :)
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grezar Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
BatMed this is beautiful...
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BatMed Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It is <3
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NlkOp0L Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Not exactly my case, but i chose to be pour in a psycgological clinic, I probably would le Dead otherwise by now.. I won't go into the details, but nice description. Hope i ready the end soon 😊
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Refugnic Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2018  Hobbyist Writer
Y'know, that's exactly what I've been telling someone for weeks now. (The lower part that is).

However telling this to someone who's blocking out everything but their own negativity is...difficult to say the least.
But this describes just about the way I see it myself quite splendidly.

So yeah, a job well done.
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KenLit Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:heart: :hug:
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submicron Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018  Professional Interface Designer
BTW, Thank you for this.
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submicron Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018  Professional Interface Designer
It's funny how people tell you everything will be alright. Ignorance is bliss, I been leaving with depression and anxiety for more than 13 years now. It doesn't go away you just simply live with it and learn to manage it to a point where you think is somewhat satisfactory. I have my ups and downs like everyone. Try my hardest to think that everything is normal but in the back of my head I know is simply not the case.

I've accepted what I have and is neurological in its purest form. This is a psychological condition that manifest itself in odd ways each day. To be honest it hits me differently every single time. Imagine being in a boxing match but you don't know where the punches are coming from. Is like a presence but you can't make what it is.

You can take all the medication in the world and sadly the emptiness remains. So where do you find true comfort as far as your state of mind goes? The doctor keeps telling you there are people far worse than you. Perhaps. Does it make it any better? No. My mind was wired a certain way and now for lack of better words is rewired. Do I make fun of what I have...? All the time.

When your mind is fracture everything becomes honest but at the same time it corrupts the way you view the world around you. I see things for what they are and not the other way around. I don't see it as bleak as before. I'd much rather picked door number 2 but it wasn't available. xD

Am I in a constant struggle with myself...? Of course. Is isn't everyone on this planet? Then again telling yourself there's nothing wrong is at best wishful thinking. To suffer from the depression is like the most honest to you'll ever be towards your emotions. Nothing comes close at least at a chemical level. xD

For those of who are constantly reminded of their ailment... STOP and rewind a bit for this is the moment you are truly alive. You will reconsider the malady that takes whole of you when you are most vulnerable. Is okay to scream or sob. If there's anything I've learned since I have depression is knowing that is here to stay. Does it bring any closure realizing am permanently scar? The truth is, yes. It may seem far fetched for some but nothing is more clear in my mind.

Anyways, I care little for what others have to say really. If you can't walk in my shoes don't bother with your petty sentiment. I know what I have and deal with it everyday of my life. Taking six pills a day reminds me of who I was once. I like the new me. Call me crazy. xD I've turn something awful ugly into my greatest advantage.


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Sagittarianism Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
I’m totally with you on this.
I was diagnosed with Depression and Anxiety about 19 years ago.
My social life was always difficult. I’ve always been scared of people (even friends) because I don’t want my ailments to bring them down. I take meds too. And for the most part they keep me stable. But every once in a while I have a horrible episode. Granted not as horrible as my lowest point ever, but still enough to make me hate my life sometimes.
It’s difficult to live with. And people who tell you that others have it worse makes the hurt more painful. People tell you to stop crying or to snap out it or that bring your age into question... it hurts like hell. The problem with these people is that they think we’re broken even though we don’t need to be fixed. Nothing can “fix” this. It’s not all in our heads, it’s not something we cling to unnecessarily. It’s something that’s energy-consuming, and takes a while to go back up to relatively normal.
People in many countries decline to talk about mental health when it’s just as important as physical health. In fact since mental health is in some way physical either due to chemical imbalances or a weirdly wired brain, and manifests itself physically, it should be considered physical health too.
I’m preaching to the choir here I realize, but I hope others see my response to your comment in relation to the artist’s depiction of trying to fight what you got.
You can’t really fight something that is a part of you. All you can do is live with it as you say and cope with it the best you can.
My Depression and Anxiety take a lot out of me, but I try my best to grow toward the light again instead of remain buried in my own soil plot.

Hope everyone understands what I mean here.
Have a nice day, submicron. :hug:

:peace:
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submicron Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2018  Professional Interface Designer
I feel your honesty. Seldomly someone has the guts to say anything in this regard. To me its always an uphill battle and you only know when is downhill when you have lost. So you give yourself in sort of speak.

I do admire you coming forward to let everyone aware of this issue. Do people need to know...? Yes. Will they care? Well, that's the hard part. How can you know if you haven't been there. Is like someone with cancer... you will never comprehend what that person is going through. Plain and simple.

And yes... I do understand. Not sure about the rest though. Sadly.

Take care of yourself.
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Zidneya Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018
This reminds me of talking with my parents. Thank heaven I moved on beyond those two blood sucking leeches.
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KIRISAMEIIX Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
All I have to say is Thank You
Thank You very much
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Kikan-Kitsune Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018
This is lovely and powerful and thoughtful. This piece illustrates depression very well. Thank you for creating this and congratulations on the DD
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werehog235 Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thx for this, I needed it....T〰T
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numbersixxeno Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018  Student General Artist
I wrote something on this a while ago and I just really wish people would bring more attention to the matter.

This is what I wrote.

Some say that life is just an illusion while others say it's perfect, well I say it's a thing of nightmares waiting in shadows, waiting for it's chance to strike and bring reality down crushing you and your dreams. There is no escape from this nightmare, not even death can faze the beast. It'll always come back to haunt you, no matter what you do. I've been running for 10-11 years, and things won't change. It's always going to find me. You know, it's funny, because people blame others for the nightmares the follow them when it's them themselves who caused the beast to emerge. People say in just looking for attention or that I'm just over reacting. Well I'm not, every day I'm haunted by my nightmares and my past. It's really overwhelming and it's very hard to deal with. I may have a loving and caring girlfriend, friends and family but, they only dull the pain of the nightmare’s bite. Soon this small pain with turn into agony. It will be my ruin, I'm on the verge of falling into its clutches and becoming the monster people say I am. The say that I'm nothing but a monster, they say that a monster like me has no place on Earth. Well if I fall, then I guess they'll be right. Once I fall, there may be no way back, and soon enough the nightmares will consume everyone.


    Don't get me wrong, I love my family and I love my friends and girlfriend, but sometimes they just feel distant, like I'm slowly fading out of existence. Sometimes it just makes me want to go hide in a corner and cry until I can't cry anymore. I don't know what it is. Like is it me or is it them or is it my mind playing tricks on me, I may never know. On another note, people say that those who have lost their sanity aren't people anymore, so what if they see things or hear things, they're still people. Like for all I know, I've probably lost my mind and I'm just typing what the voices tell me to. I've been asked before “What's it like to have depression?” Well here's the short story- depression isn't just sadness or being upset, it's more about losing interest in things and really just losing all reason to do anything with anyone. I know, from a personal point of view. People think others with depression are just faking it and only looking for attention, well we're not, we need help and well frankly- a lot of us don't know how to speak up. I personally have trouble talking about my depression, there only a few people who can actually get me to speak about it freely and they try to find solutions for me, they know what I'm going through, they understand me the just want to see me happy and enjoying life at its fullest. 


    I want everyone out there in the world to be aware of how big of a problem depression really is. I know quite a few people whose depression got so bad that they've tried to take their own lives….and I wasn't there to stop them. Some of them never told me they suffered, they always just smiled and laughed, I thought they were actually happy, but I was wrong. A few years back, I met the person, they were transgender and the went from she to he and I accepted them, to me it doesn't matter what you are, you could be an alien for all I know and I'd still care about you. My girlfriend is Pan for God's sake, and I love her more than anything. Her being pan doesn't change how I feel for her and it never will. But that's besides the point- my point is is that so many people worldwide suffer from depression and feel alone, well this is to all of those people, you are not alone, I'm in this with you, and will always be by your side to help, I don't care of I don't know you, you still need help and I'm willing to do what most just ignore. So please, for the sake of everyone who loves you, keep going. You have a life worth living, just know that, ok? Life will get better, I promise. My name is Cale Audet and I know what it's like to suffer but I know that I'm not alone and that things will get better, for me, for everyone.
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Drakohahn Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018
A start... A very important first step. Quite possibly, the most important part of the road to recovery.
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AsianArtsyGirl Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
yeah, I feel like dying sometimes . . .
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Drakohahn Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2018
I had intended that as a generic comment. Freaking mobile posting. ^^;
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AsianArtsyGirl Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
O, sorry XD
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Drakohahn Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2018
No worries.
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AsianArtsyGirl Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
hmm
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AkaiAgeha Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I like the intention behind this piece, yet I feel like this is incomplete. Maybe sheer force of will can give you the spark to start fighting depression, but that alone isn't enough. Maybe for transient depression sheer force of will might be just what we need, but I feel like this piece is kinda naive-like in its view. Nonetheless, I hope this hope others with their depression. (have been living with depression with more than a decade now)
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AnEnchilada Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018
This comic helps me out a lot. I'm not saying I've had the worst past but I can't remember a day when I didn't feel agonizing pain, went a night without nightmares or wishing that I could give in and die. I have been through Hell and I'm not the only one. If you have depression you can overcome it, you can climb your way out of the void, because you are stronger than you realize. You have made it this far right? What doesn't kill you makes you stronger and now what doesn't kill you should start running. Believe in yourself.
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Horticulous Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
For some people it is not something you can overcome. At best you can beat it back to the point where you are functional. But it is still there. For some of us it is always still there.
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carlosgoldberg Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018
Very, very nice
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Phoenix-Prime-3000 Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018
I did a dub! Here's the link! :D
www.youtube.com/watch?v=AcLur1…
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mclelun Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
good! I am thinking to make this into an animation too.
Here's my youtube channel  www.youtube.com/c/mclelun
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Phoenix-Prime-3000 Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2018
Awesome! I just subscribed! :D
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JosephSinger Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018  Student General Artist
Very very beautiful work! Love it! This is so true! Also congrats for the DD! :-)
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Luminaara Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Yep. So calling my art depression a depression was no overstatement. Thanks for this comic!
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PennedinWhite Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018  Hobbyist Writer
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Wonderful! Congrats on the DD!
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catsamurai16 Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018
I'm so moved I'm almost drying. :') Amazing work and so true. Thank you so much for sharing it.
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1ballorafan Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for making this.... but i still don't see how my life matters.... or how it can be worth anything....
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catsamurai16 Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018
Keep your head up. It's easier to see the sun that way.
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1ballorafan Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
But it's no use
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catsamurai16 Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018
I know it can seem like that so much of the time, but there is a use. No one is put on this Earth to be sad. I don't know why you are depressed, but like all storms and blackest nights it will pass. Fight and keep fighting so you always have the strength to weather whatever life throws at you.
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1ballorafan Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks...
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catsamurai16 Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018
No problem. Hug 
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MEP4Photography Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018  Hobbyist Photographer
Wow. Powerful. Congratulations on your DD!
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