I waited to hear a voice I'd never known
like snow falling at the equator
like loving you with dry eyes
I waited to see the eyes I'd never seen
scanning empty spaces
like jokes echoing in the night.
I waited long enough to know
That your eyes water when you hear this
That your smile fades from your shadowed face
Waiting never seemed so right
Never seemed so natural to two able bodies
Waiting for broken bones and chipped teeth.
I waited an eternity and saw myself
Decomposing on this autumn ground
The wind carrying me like ashes from a fire
But do you burn for me?
Surely not the way I've burned for you.
Combustion never tasted so much
Like dead leaves and damp moss.
I waited long enough to see our bones
Interred in clay walls
Banging to the tune of a distant percussion
Measuring the tune for life to come.
Such a confused and awkward dance
Of marrow and calcium
Beautifully brusing blackened flesh
In the name of red partitions
And an ignorant heart.