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Heya, my name is slade.
I'm a digital artists and current Environmental Consultant.
I'm big on animals and the environment generally so enjoy drawing things related to that.
Furfag & Degenerate.
I draw mainly to destress and for fun. I do however take commissions so please note me and I'll get back to you promptly.
I don't post my NSFW stuff here. It's on my furaffinity and my tumblr - I will eventually get around to posting those links here.
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I have a problem and I've finally admitted it to myself after about 3 years. So I'm wanting to write and leave this here to mark the occaison, so hopefully I can look back and feel like I've made progress.

Anyway, I've been dealing with anxiety and depression now since I was about 17/18. I've had several lots of counselling over the years and all the cognitive behaviour shit is now a regular part of my life. However, more recently since finishing university I have actually been getting worse to the point where I can't work anymore and have been told to take some time off and been put on medication.

I really don't enjoy this medication. So far I just feel exhausted all the time and I can't stop yawning. Apparently yawning is a major side effect of these pills. I've yawned 138 times today and my jaw hurts. I hope they kick in properly soon. The doctor did say it would take 3-4 weeks for them to kick in. I'm kind of kicking myself for leaving it so long, but honestly I kept telling myself that I'm okay and that 'I'm Fine if everyone else can do it, I can too.' and the truth is it's just been spiralling out of control. My two main coping mechanisms are work and food. I will work myself to death to distract myself from the constant existential dread that I feel every single day in doing so I've not really dealt with the problem but only made it worse. I worry about any thing and everything. From my health to possible events that may or may not happen in the future. I think everyone I meet hates me or doesn't want me to be around or doesn't want to listen to what I have to say or want to hang out with me. It's like I have this person in my head who is just constantly degrading me. My other coping mechanism is food and I just eat my feelings and then I just outright hate myself. 

Anyway, here's to hopefully getting better. I've finished uni now and am currently not working so I have plenty of time to try and get better. 

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:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

It's February 11th which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

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Zmaj-dragon Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2019  Hobbyist Writer
Happy birthday! :D :cake: :iconballooonplz: :party: :hug:
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Nothofagus-obliqua Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hi there! Thanks alot for the watch :hug:
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thank you for the watch :)
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