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(Chibi) Lord Haurchefant Wants You by Matdredalia (Chibi) Lord Haurchefant Wants You :iconmatdredalia:Matdredalia 4 3 My Moogley Return! by Matdredalia My Moogley Return! :iconmatdredalia:Matdredalia 3 5 Fella In Action by Matdredalia Fella In Action :iconmatdredalia:Matdredalia 0 2 Cherishball Jirachi Pokewalker by Matdredalia Cherishball Jirachi Pokewalker :iconmatdredalia:Matdredalia 14 12
Literature
As Ophelia
And tell me
If I lay in my watery grave
like Ophelia
gone over to madness
in the breaking cold
of her lover's scorn,
would you love me then
like you loved me once?
Would you be my Hamlet?
Would you swear your love
after denying it so?
Would the truth come out
that it had never been hatred,
but pained love coursing
through your broken vein.
Would you damn me to hell
only to then sing my praises
as you once had,
as the angel
that once saved your soul?
Tell me now, and tell me true
because as it stands,
there is very little
clinging me to this tainted life.
In my final hour,
could I change your cruelty
and make amends with my life?
If I laid down my life in despair
in my regret, in my anguish
in my sorrow at hurting you so,
would you love me then?
As you loved me once,
would you love me,
once more?
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Literature
Spun
I drag my aching body from the sofa
And listen to the chiming of fifteen empties
The sun is rising, but there has been no rest for the wicked
And even when my head hits the pillow
My dreams will deny my peace
The cellophane crinkles in my pocket with each step
A reminder of my sweet fixation
As I take stock of my surroundings and thoughts
I inhale deeply and close my eyes
As I realize how tightly spun I've let myself become
The ache behind my eyes, and in my bones
The face in the mirror that I don't recognize
I start drawing parallels and I see the lines
Between myself and the chemically challenged
Growing more and more thin every day
The "empties" are simply Coca-Cola cans, nothing more
The cellophane, all that remains of a butterscotch candy
My only indulgence is the over priced but beautiful paper
That I scrawl my nightmares upon
I am thoughtless in the consumption of all of the above
My exhaustion is the product of my only true demon
The ache in my chest that haunts my dreams and t
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Lappy Desktop by Matdredalia Lappy Desktop :iconmatdredalia:Matdredalia 2 1 Peace on Earth by Matdredalia Peace on Earth :iconmatdredalia:Matdredalia 2 9 Face Your Manga by Matdredalia Face Your Manga :iconmatdredalia:Matdredalia 1 3
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Dakota Rain :iconmatdredalia:Matdredalia 0 1
The iMonster by Matdredalia The iMonster :iconmatdredalia:Matdredalia 1 6 Grapey Garter Scarf by Matdredalia Grapey Garter Scarf :iconmatdredalia:Matdredalia 0 14 Deviant Bomberman by Matdredalia Deviant Bomberman :iconmatdredalia:Matdredalia 20 5
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Nenriki no Kage - Chapter 6 :iconmatdredalia:Matdredalia 1 4
Literature
Only For Today
I just want to be with you
I just want to hold you tight
I'm not asking for for forever
No, just for tonight
I'll go when the dawn
Breaks through the window
Until then
Please don't ask me to go
'Cause I need to be with you
If only once in my life
I need to know
What it could be like
I know I'll never have your heart
And I accepted that long the way
But I just want to know what it's like
To love you
If only for, today
So turn down the lights
Close your eyes
Take the leap
Because it feels so right
I know that you're scared
I know it feels so strange
But sometimes that's the way it is
You've gotta' take things on faith
So don't say a word
Just take my hand
I won't let you hurt
Don't you understand?
I need you so badly
I want to hold you close
If it were up to me
I'd never, ever let go..
But it's not...
So I'll take what I...can have...
And we'll just let, be that...
'Cause I need to be with you
If only once in my life
I need to know
What it could be like
I know I'll never have your heart
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  • Listening to: My Chemical Romance - The Light Behind Your Eyes
  • Playing: Samurai Love Ballad Party (iOS)
  • Eating: Burnt Peanut Butter Cookies, Chicken Tenders
  • Drinking: Milk, Doctor Pepper
Holy shit. Okay, something just needs to change and I think it basically just boils down to I need to get a FUCKING GRIP. 

Life is REALLY SHORT. Wanna' know how I know this? 

My Grama died a month and 3 days ago. I'm still basically in shock and losing my shit that the woman who was the closest thing to a real, unconditionally loving Mom I ever had is gone, and well, I'm a wreck. 

So, I'm beating my own ass on working on writing (Lord knows I've got a few hundred pages stashed on my XIV stories, plus I've got about 30,000 words on a Samurai Love Ballad Party (F2P Otome game by Voltage that takes place in Sengoku period Japan, totally badass) story I'm working on, plus I'm planning on busting out the Wacom. And I always say this. And I always fuck it up.

But I've got more than a little motivation right now.

I'm tired of this. I'm tired of being stuck in bed exhausted, in pain, and feeling useless. Sure, there's going to be days I suck and I get nothing done, but you knwo what? Those days when I feel a little better? Yeah I'm gonna' kick it out. Because I want better.

Oh, also, I somehow managed to obtain a Yorkie this year. So that happened. Pictures will be posted because uh, duh, CUTE.

Oh, also, going to add a link to my tumblr I actually work on. I don't really have a blog-blog anymore 'cause I just don't like dumping my gutts to random people with no real purpose behind it. So I basically just work on Otakugeddon anymore, and I do spot work over on the Anime amino. When my Gram got sick I dropped off but I'm getting back into that and planning on working on fixing up the Yaoi Manga section over there and stuff. So yaye? Also, Zingbox is the greatest shit ever if you're a Manga junkie. 

Godamn I am randoming all over the floor tonight. But hey, I'm drugged as shit and my brain is everywhere. Yaye. 

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Izunichi Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Hi, thanks a lot for the watch, I appreciate it <3
Please take care and have a nice day ^^
Also, consider checking my other accounts: Instagram | Tumblr | Paigeeworld if you like my art, thank you! ; u ; :hug:
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Jian-Li Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the fave~:iconiloveitmoreplz:
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LadyChamomile Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
3 Thx for watching by lady-chamomile  
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RobotCatArt Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
2015-1024-ChibiNekoSticker by RobotCatArt  
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DreamAngel-Ren Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch! :iconhi--plz:
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