Merry Christmas to all of my friends and readers on D.A!
Many of you have been wondering where I've been the past couple of months, because I went from regularly updating my Quest story each week to complete silence. I was already under a heavy load of stress at work. Add to that trying to keep up with my writing, my painting and having to contend with birdbrained trolls on here and I was stressed to the breaking point. Near the end of October, I started experiencing chest pains. I ignored them at first, like the typical guy, but one day at work I felt a sudden sharp stabbing pain in my chest that radiated down my arm and took my breath away. I went pale and felt my energy plummet. My heartbeat felt so strange. Thankfully I was in a room with coworkers who quickly noticed that something was wrong. They called for an ambulance, and I was taken to the emergency room.
After a stay for a couple of days, I returned home with a heart monitor and a strong caution to cut out as much stress as possible from my life. Experiences like this put so much of our lives in proper perspective. So I chose to cut out D.A., facebook twitter, painting and writing for a few of months to regroup and evaluate where I need spend my time. I'm bitterly torn about my Quest story. I have the rest of it outlined and sections written as well as Quest-related artwork that hasn't been seen, music recorded for it that hasn't been heard, and I still have the Quest "radio" special in mid-completion. To just walk away from it all unfinished is so tragicly sad to me, yet in the past two months of being away from all of those projects, I have felt room to breathe. When I come home from work, I can just relax instead of having to work additional hours ..... yet, I'm a creative personality and must create to feel fulfilled. Oh, Balance, where art thou?! Lol.
So how do I feel now?
I feel very well. After more blood work, stress tests, EKGs, ultrasounds, CAT scans, etc., I thank God that I can report no arterial blockages, a return of full cardiac function and no apparent damage to heart muscle (Praise God!).
Do I know what happened to me?
The doctors say that it's inconclusive. It may have been a heart attack; it may have been an extreme irregularity in my heart beat; it may have been any number of other issues that affect heart function; but it was most certainly worsened and possibly triggered by extreme stress.
Will I be permanently leaving D.A.?
No, I will leave my account up and will check in every now and then. (This seems to happen to just about everyone who has been on D.A. for a few years.) Just like I've counseled some of you, the real world should always take precedence over the virtual world, so I'm taking my own advice! But, hopefully, once I can find a better balance of time management/stress management, I can begin posting some of my writing, art and music down the road.
I want all of you to know that I have not forgotten about you. I think about our many conversations and experiences on D.A. and cherish them! And I hope to see you again on D.A. within a few months.
P.S. I DID still do my cookie project for my neighbors this year. I scaled it back, but it was still just as rewarding!
P.S.S. :"How come I didn't get any cookies?!"