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Cloud's Word to Tifa
I know I've been distant toward you and for that, I'm terribly sorry.
So many painful thoughts were going through my head and I didn't know how to handle them.
Zack, Aerith, you, and so many others I've failed.
It was hard looking at Denzel and Marlene knowing that a world of happiness was taken from them.
They don't ask for much but at times, I wish they did.
I feel as if it would push me to try harder for not only them but my friends as well.
Tifa, we grew up together and we weren't always the closest but I knew that you always believed in me.
Sometimes I wondered if you're an idiot or if you're that good of a person.
Your personality is astonishing to me. Your need to never give up on me is also astonishing.
How do you do it?
How do you managed to stay so strong?
I'm almost envious.
You remind me of Zack, though he was more laid back than you.
So carefree, so happy, so strong...Everything I wasn't.
I can see why Aerith loved him so much.
I loved her too.
She was a friend I failed to
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Mother...
A mother? Is that what you honestly think you are?
Birthing nine times doesn't make a person a mother.
A mother support a child, works with them, helps them through their trauma.
They do not bully their child in depression.
They do not sit there as their child suffers.
A mother, does not test if their abuse was real or not.
A mother doesn't laugh at a child's pain.
Protector? No. You're a defeater.
Provider? You fed me, yes. There was no love though.
Happiness? We had our moments but you forget them and go straight back to acting like I'm your problem.
I suppose I am a problem.
It only makes sense.
I'm the youngest. Therefor, I'm the weakest, the most disgusting, the worst.
I tried for you though.
Did you try? I don't think so.
So, what is a mother?
I suppose I'm still searching for that answer...
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Aerith's Words To Zack
Oh, Zack...
I've done so much damage.
I was so rude, so selfish.
You worried for me constantly when I should have been worrying for you.
Everyday, you risked your life for others.
You sacrificed for friends.
And was I there? Not in the way you needed.
Back then, I was just an ignorant little girl.
I judged you too quickly and you proved me wrong.
I use to think all men of Shinra were terrible, but you Zack...you were amazing.
You aspired to be like him though...the one who took my life.
He was a hero then...
He wasn't my here though.
My hero was the one who protected me and spent time with me as much as he could, even if he could barely make time for it.
That hero, was you, Zack.
I wished you lived a little longer.
I wish you had a family, stayed with your parents, and been happy.
You were so full of joy, even for a flirt.
I wish...I didn't send you down this path.
I'm sorry, Zack...
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Tifa's Words to Cloud
"Cloud, for the longest of time I had a hard time understanding you.
You were distant, quiet, and sometimes even cold.
Even after you rescued me, you were the same.
I always thought it was because of me. Because I was such a burden to you.
But, now I understand.
You're afraid to let someone too close to you. You fear losing them.
Just like you lost Aerith...
We all miss her as much as you.
I was jealous of her. I really was. She seemed to get all of your attention.
I now know why she had your attention.
She reminded you of your mother, didn't she?
She was kind, protective, always made sure to fix a boo-boo when you had one.
She was a mother to you.
It's funny...
Aerith always seemed motherly. I wonder why though.
She worried so much for everyone, even you.
I'm sorry I barely gave her a chance.
I'm sorry I misunderstood your relationship with her.
If I wasn't buried in my own jealous, she could still be alive.
I'm so sorry...
I loved her...I love you..."
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Hojo's Returned Words to Sephiroth
"You will prove me wrong? Hah! You? A failed subject? A terrible mistake?"
I did fail at one thing. That was not being stricter with you.
I should have beat you senselessly. If I did, you more than likely wouldn't disobey my orders anymore.
You're not great general or fallen hero. You're a mistake!
It's a shame Lucrecia didn't stay to see you grow. I know she would have agreed that you were a disaster.
She never loved you anyways.
Lucrecia abandoned you and left you with me.
She knew I was the better parent. I should have been better though.
Look at you now? Dead and pathetic, just like her.
It only makes sense. You seem to have taken more after your failing mother more than you did me.
If you took after me, you would have been a marvelous success. The greatest thing the world would have seen.
How can you prove me wrong?
You've already proved me right.
I thought of you as a failure after Nibelheim. Failing against a weak, little man.
You have no way of proving me wrong.
You will never
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Sephiroth's Words to Lucrecia
"You're my...mother?
But how? You look so human...
I can't believe it...My mother, a human? There must be something wrong here.
Jenova is mother...
I look more like her than I do you...
I...
I cannot believe it.
We do share some similarities but..A human mother?
This cannot be true.
Hojo! He told me...
He told me Jenova was the name of my mother, but you're name is...not the same...
If you are my mother, where were you when I needed you most? You were gone!
Why? Why did you leave me with HIM? Of all the people on our planet, I get left with...Hojo...
Did you not want me?
I don't understand.
And if you truly are my mother, why do you look so similar to the girl I...
Why is it you...?
Why did you leave me?
Why?"
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Sesshomaru's Returned Words to Rin
"Rin...You are a special one.
I use to hate humans until I met you.
You were like me. You pushed yourself away from your own kind. Your reasons different from mine.
When I met you, you barely hesitated in taking care of me.
I didn't need your help but you insisted on caring for me.
Why? I do not understand you.
Of course when I got back up on my feet, I left, not expecting to see you again.
When I found your bloody corpse, you were nothing but a test subject to me.
I tested the greatest weapon I could have on you.
When it brought you life, you followed me.
To this day, you still followed me.
Now, it's my turn.
I need to follow my desires...My dreams...
...I need to follow you, Rin...
I need to see my precious human."
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Sephiroth's Words to Aerith
"Dear flower girl,
You are quite the unusual being, forgiving someone so easily and giving them sympathy.
Some might say that is a sign of weakness. I don't disagree. It does make you weak.
That doesn't mean that is not a good thing.
Before, I would have found it as a great flaw you carry, but now...I find it unique and beautiful.
It suits you.
Not many can talk so warmly to a man that murdered them in cold blood.
You make me feel regret.
I regret ever bringing harm to you.
Not because I cared for you. I really didn't. But because you would have proven to be useful.
I could have used a girl like you.
You are psychically weak, but I did not need something such as that.
I needed someone to give me strength.
Weakness was something I carried back then.
I was weak because I clung to my past.
You're strange because you grew away from it.
You were mentally powerful despite all your troubling past.
That is why I needed you.
In a way, I need you now. To bring light to my soul.
Would you give me
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Sephiroth's words to Hojo
"Father? Is that what they call men like you these days?
That's shameful.
You're far from it.
You're a monster.
I spent my an entire life thinking about the flaws that made a monster...
That wasn't me though.
It was you.
You're a thief.
You stole my life from me. My freedom! My INNOCENCE!
You took so much from me.
I could have had a different upbringing.
You couldn't let that happen, could you?
It only makes sense.
Mother died because of you. At least that's what I believe. Nothing has shown me different.
I believe she died because you brought her stress.
I'm surprised I lasted as long as I did before I snapped.
If you had told me the truth, that probably wouldn't have happened.
But you know better...right?
Wrong!
You know nothing.
I will show this to you...I promise that!
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Marzanna's words to Amatsu (OCs words)
Big brother, I do not understand you...
To our, you're the tragic brother who is confused.
The boy who was never given a choice of who he could love...
What those people don't understand is, you have a choice. You have always had a choice.
I was the one who didn't get a choice.
After rejecting your love for me, mother beat me.
At first, dad didn't agree with it, but something changed in him, and he harmed me.
I still have a scar on my back after what he did.
Out of fear of being killed or beaten, I lied and said I accepted your love.
I was forced to share a room with you, and every night, you did what I feared.
I was to afraid to tell anyone, even aunt Karuli.
Before things got worse, I ran away.
That didn't stop you, did it?
You searched for me, not out of love, out of obsession.
Too bad you can't ever find me.
I'm in a place where no one can find me...
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Aerith's returned words to Tifa
"Tifa, I never thought you hated me...
Just like you, I was jealous.
I didn't grow up around people like Cloud. I didn't have a childhood friend. I was jealous that you had someone to go to when you were crying. Of course I had my adoptive more, but she couldn't understand how I felt about the things I was upset about. She was a good woman, a loving woman. I owe her my life, and that's what I gave her.
I didn't just give her my life. I gave my life to you, Cloud, Marlene, and all the others, including Sephiroth....
The point is, Tifa...I don't want you to have any regrets in life. I don't want your past feelings of me to get in the way of you moving on to a greater future. That's exactly where you are headed, an amazing life. It'll be difficult to get there, but it will be worth it. You'll have everyone you love by your side...even me...You're a strong woman, and everyone knows that. You have the ones you love to help you strong, and I hope I help you with that.
I love you Tifa, and I
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Lucrecia's words to Sephiroth
"Despite the path you have taken, you are still my son...Nothing could change my love for you.
It's not your fault, but it is mine. I caused your pain and sorrow. I left you when you needed a mother.
You are no monster, but a child, lost without his mother. You had much taken from you, and I was the one who took it.
If only I was stronger, you would have the happiness you deserved. You would have had a mother, to tell you she loves you.
You are not a fallen Angel, you are an angel. An angel who has lost his way.
My spirit has suffered, but only at my own doing...I took away the life my son never had. A life of happiness.
Because of me, you had a life of tears and anger...regret...loneliness.
Because of me, your father alienated you.
I am sorry, my son.
All you needed...was me.
You are my son. I love you, my silver Angel."
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Aerith's words to Sephiroth
"A Fallen Angel? No, I'd say you are a hero, a hero who lost his ways through lies and manipulation.
I may not have known you well, at all. But, I can forgive you for taking my life. It wasn't you.
Jenova made you do it. Well, that's what I believe. You're a hero.
You cared for my father, you saw him as your father. I only wish I knew him like you did. Maybe we could have played together as kids.
I think that would have been amazing. I could have shown you many different flowers. You could have shown me some of your fighting moves.
I could picture my father reading us bedtime stories. I could picture you trying to scare me in silly little costumes.
But....that didn't happen. I wish it did.
Sephiroth, you have lost so much. I wish you hadn't. You're a great man. No wonder people admired you.
I wish I knew you before all of this. I could have helped you. Zack would have too!
I would have loved being your friend.
But, we didn't get that chance, did we?
I'm sorry, Sephiroth."
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Rin's words to Sesshomaru
"Lord Sesshomaru, it's been so long. You left me in the Village with Kaede. You visited a lot, but overtime, your visits rarely happened, to the point to where you stopped showing up.
It's been years, since I last saw. I'm now nineteen, I'm a grown girl...If only you could see me.
I miss you. I want my Lord Sesshomaru back, the one who protected me, fed me, gave me shelter.
My mother, father, and brothers were murdered by bandits when I was just a child.
I was bullied by the villagers, so I refused to speak.
When I finally met you, I was happy. Even though you refused to have me around, you still questioned the markings on my body.
I was beat up by the villagers. I was trying to get you food.
I was attacked by dogs, and it was you smelled my scent.
You followed it and brought my soulless body back to life.
That was the first time you held me. I felt so safe in your arms. You were my hero.
When I died again, you wanted to cry. You held my lifeless body in your arms, begging for me to co
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Ubel's words to Keres
"Keres, my love...Why have you been so cruel?
I miss my loving wife. The woman who was happy to have two children.
After our daughter was born, everything changed with you.
Our daughter is a loving young girl. She will do great things. Why is it you deny her?
You barely spoke to her as she grew. She doesn't even know her mother.
She wants a mother. She deserves a mother! Yet, you hurt her with your silence.
Are you so arrogant to think she'd be the next golden witch?
Before, I thought you were capable of loving your daughter and being the best Golden Witch there was.
You have changed my mind. You made me think you were cruel, and disgusting.
You convinced our son it was okay to love his little sister. He still believes he will be with her one day.
I denied his love for her, knowing how sick it was.
But, that night, everything changed.
You used your Black Magic to manipulate me.
I hurt my daughter. She was crying, and bleeding. She no longer looked at me as if I were her father. She loo
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Tifa's Words to Aerith
"I know we never got off on the right foot. I thought you were some girl who just wanted to steal my childhood friend from me.
You weren't like that at all...You were just a flower girl, being protected by a hero.
I was jealous. I wanted him to protect me as well, like how he protected you. He didn't do that, because I was stronger.
I wasn't stronger emotionally though...That was you, Aerith.
You protected all of us, even though you knew you were weak. You cared for us. I wish I had that quality.
When you died, it took a big part out of me. I regretted all of the bad things I thought of you.
They weren't true! I was just stupid and jealous.
Aerith, you are my friend and I love you."
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I know I've been distant toward you and for that, I'm terribly sorry.
So many painful thoughts were going through my head and I didn't know how to handle them.
Zack, Aerith, you, and so many others I've failed.
It was hard looking at Denzel and Marlene knowing that a world of happiness was taken from them.
They don't ask for much but at times, I wish they did.
I feel as if it would push me to try harder for not only them but my friends as well.
Tifa, we grew up together and we weren't always the closest but I knew that you always believed in me.
Sometimes I wondered if you're an idiot or if you're that good of a person.
Your personality is astonishing to me. Your need to never give up on me is also astonishing.
How do you do it?
How do you managed to stay so strong?
I'm almost envious.
You remind me of Zack, though he was more laid back than you.
So carefree, so happy, so strong...Everything I wasn't.
I can see why Aerith loved him so much.
I loved her too.
She was a friend I failed to protect from someone I once idolized.
Everyone says Aerith's death isn't my fault but...I can't see where they're coming from.
Stopping Sephiroth has always been my job and I managed to fail at that all those years ago.
But now Sephiroth is gone as well as Zack, Aerith, and many others.
Knowing Zack and Aerith are in a better place and Sephiroth can't come back...I feel a weight lifted off my shoulders.
I feel like we can start rebuilding.
And that's what will do, Tifa.
We'll make this world what it was meant to be.
Cloud's Word to Tifa
I know it's been a while since I've posted or done anything, but I've been on devianart looking at other cooler things. 

I'm not the biggest fan of Cloud but I don't think he should be excluded from these Words To things I do. 

I might do more but don't expect them immediately. I'm very lazy and these are just a simple hobby. 

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I am not good at drawing, painting, etc. I am good at writing random forms of poetry, but not the best. If you suggest it, I will try my best to do a 'Words to' for a set of characters for you.
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