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betrayed by myself Lied to myself hater of tears lover of pain I once held you in my arms it was like a dream come true somehow I let go of it and saw you go it is not that I'm important Not like I am proud I just keep thinking of you I can't stop wanting you back I feel and I scream forever Where are you today I miss the time we had I betrayed myself I have pictures of us on my dresser You left me long behind I wonder today Maybe if I did something better maybe I would be walking along your side Lied to myself Hater of my own tears Lover of pain I forgot what I am holding on to today I remember us I remember your name I betrayed myself MarquisAmon@2025

NO ONE WILL WANT THE TRUTH ACCEPT THE PERSON WHO IS DYING FOR IT

I walked in the street late it was damp and cold knock knock bones cold eyes wet with fear damp and afraid knock knock came to your door called your names hunger in life knock knock you told me to come one day but only echo in my hands when we were young you told me to come if I needed to knock knock when we were kids I was your friend you hugged me knock knock I came to your door broken and afraid I was your friend Knock Knock No one answered the door.

I am Trying I am afraid to live I go outside at night in my bare feet to my garden watering my flowers that are dying I am trying to feel life in the darkness of my heart wanting to some how live again afraid of people approaching me I am trying to undersand this void in me hiding in my house curtains are always pulled closed I am trying to need people but it is obvious I am failing my front door is always locked I am trying to call some one on the phone but I just cant seem to say anything my ears are burning for life to happen again I am trying I am failing I am withering away I am alone MarquisAmon@2025

I'm Not Alone I'm not alone The radio plays some music I'm not alone The television has the late movie on I'm not alone I can hear the neighbors talking through my window I'm not alone the delivery man dropped off my package I'm not alone I hear a knock on my door that is locked I'm not alone I have books to read to dream I'm not alone I have the photographs of a time that was kind I'm not alone I'm not alone for I watch the children play as I peak through the curtain I'm not alone I'm not alone I'm not alone because I have me. Marquisamon 2025

Dreamer I dreamed last night but the fog came into my window and I was afraid again so I stayed silent, and hid under my bed I dreamed last night but the rain fell on my house and I was afraid again so I stayed quiet, hiding so father could not find me I dreamed last night but the noise from the streets took me away and I was afraid again trying to let the world know, that I understood that I was not important I dreamed last night food on my plate, a voice of kindness to my ear and some one to hold me and still I was afraid So I ran to my place back under my bed silent, waiting, hiding, knowing the storm was coming I dreamed it away again MarquisAmon 2025

HE CALLED MY NAME I woke up and did not see the sunlight There were no stars But I woke I looked at the horizon and I saw The Suffering My father was there waiting as he called my name I woke up and did not see your life There were no signs of forgiveness inside of me But I woke I saw the tablet of mans evil I read the lies of human law My father was there waiting As He Called My name I woke up and saw the vast void of emptiness There were no signs of Prayer Inside But I woke Black and cold in my birthing of death I looked into the eyes of mankinds blaspheming My father was there waiting As he called my name MarquisAmon@2025

THE DARKNESS I was there with me in the darkness no one talking no one calling just me the darkness the shame my failures I looked out the window kept the light off didn't need it for I knew I was alone in the darkness the wind had its menacing torment on my front tree the rain falling laughed at me in my sorrow I could not find anyone who spoke my name for it was late and the stars mocked my life I was there with me in the darkness with my gun my shame my empty echo so I pulled the trigger in the darkness the empy space fell into the abyss like my name and my purpose creation became silent as the sun rose once more for everyone above my darkness @MarquisAmon

Nothing I said nothing Just watched through the window a horror a break in the soul I said nothing Just walked away from the window of suffering a shattered crack in my soul I said nothing As I watched her with him a broken promise A dirty secret A suffering to last me for eternity Nothing left for me to say

The sun is coming up in 2 hours and that frightens me today for I know I'm on a losing streak whiskey not working any longer moonlight reminding me of my failures like a woman bent on revenge a crow wont leave my porch just sits there watching me like a ghost, that knows my soul The sun is coming up in 2 hours and that hurts me inside where I hide For I know I'm on a broken boat sinking Rum isn't making me feel any stronger stars betraying my prayer to be left alone a crow wont leave my porch just sits there watching me like a memory of my youth before I lost myself The sun is coming up in 2 hours and that follows me into a depression havocking destruction in my heart for I know I'm on the end of a rope getting high doesn't want to be my friend any more moonlight sending me a song about suicide a crow wont leave my porch just sits there watching me like an executioner who is committed to my mortality MarquisAmon 2023