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Guilt

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© 2011 - 2020 mare-of-night
22 February 2011
Photoshop

(I'm entering this in a couple contests. If you're a contest judge and don't have time to read my babbling, just scroll down to the contest info header and read that part.)

A few weeks ago in an art appreciation class I finally learned what the point of painting a single geometric shape in the center of the canvas is. It's part of an art style called supremetism. The idea is to visually convey things that cannot be seen in a literal sense, such as emotion and the divine, without relying on cultural symbols and depictions of objects. Pure supremetism tends to be just plain confusing, though. If you don't use symbols that people already know, they won't get it. Yellow circle behind someone's head = divinity makes sense because we've already learned the meaning of that symbol. Black square on white canvas = spiritual energy does not because there is no physical object shaped like a black square that's associated with spiritual things or energy, and the symbol isn't part of our culture.

Pure supremetism usually fails to get across the intended meaning. However, learning about it did get me to think more about the way I depict emotion. I made a few sketches related to it during class - horizontal line = calm because it makes you feel calm, coiling shapes = love because it kinda suggests what a hug feels like. The idea for this picture came from the same way of thinking. Guilt = black slime coming out of your stomach because that's what it feels like - something black and gross inside you that's trying to break out and consume you. I stuck pretty closely to the original idea, but there's also something I added that I didn't originally plan. Digital cookies if you can find it.

I think this is the most hardcore anatomy I've ever done. I used a ton of reference, and even bothered to smooth it out and everything! I had to guess at the shoulder, though, because the model was clothed in the reference picture I used for the upper body. I hadn't expected getting so detailed with anatomy to actually be fun, but for some parts it was, and I never really disliked doing it. I also kinda understand now a quote that my friend ~msafs used to like - something about art is never finished, you just give up on improving it more after a while. I guess it takes really high standards for that sort of thinking to make sense.

==========Contest Info==========

I am entering this in two contests - :icontajii-chan:'s Emotions Contest and :iconwallofdestiny:'s Feelings Contest [link]

The emotion being portrayed is guilt. Specifically, this is about a certain feeling I had a lot when I was depressed. If you want more explanation, the rest of the description is about how I decided to show it in the way I did.

Stock: [link] [link] [link]

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Thank you to everyone who gave me critique on this! The feedback really helped.

Work in progress shots (from oldest to newest):
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If you want to see work in progress for my future pictures, watch my scraps - I upload WIPs there so I don't spam the people who only want to see finished work.

EDIT: There was an art exhibition for people who live in the dorms, so I had this printed out on nice paper and submitted it. It won 3rd place for student choice. I'm a bit surprised, since I didn't realize the art show included a contest, but I'm not complaining =)
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Software
Adobe Photoshop Elements 5.0 Windows
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pprimussHobbyist Digital Artist
Nice work
mark45xxx's avatar
great job love the mood here
alittlefearless's avatar
I absolutely *love* this, I was drawn to your art immediately. I've shared it on my website - thank you for your creativity!

www.alittlefearless.com/overco…
mare-of-night's avatar
Thanks! And thanks for letting me know. The article you put it with was very good too!
GracelyNess's avatar
This is just brilliant. 
mare-of-night's avatar
Thanks! (And thanks for the fav!)
Jas1995's avatar
Hey this is a really interesting depiction of guilt. The phrase "guilt-stricken" comes to mind. Is it okay if I use it in some slides I want to use? Thanks :)
mare-of-night's avatar
Sure, go for it.
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IdiosyzygicHobbyist Digital Artist
Congrats, your work is in my feature:

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IdiosyzygicHobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome.
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MayalayaHobbyist Digital Artist
This is AWESOME!
The mix of blurry painting (like the face) and the detailed hand is very interresting. The picture in it self is very dramatic and makes one wonder what caused this feeling..
It's great reading about your process - and how you used new knowledge to create something. Thumbs up for you.
I've featured your work HERE
mare-of-night's avatar
Thanks! The difference in levels of detail was partly accidental, though the face blurriness was on purpose to keep it from looking like any specific person.
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MayalayaHobbyist Digital Artist
Great idea with the face.
And by the way - that hand is REALLY amazing. I think hands are SO difficault to draw realistic, but you just nailed it :D
:hug:
mare-of-night's avatar
aww, thanks! :blushes:
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Grumpy-Old-SnakeStudent General Artist
Very nice. :D You did a very good job with the anatomy... What did you use as references?
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Grumpy-Old-SnakeStudent General Artist
Gah, nevermind. Silly snake, text is for reading. :XD:
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BreathingIsOptionalHobbyist General Artist
God, this draws me in... Especially considering some of the things I've done recently that had me doubled over in that exact position...
mare-of-night's avatar
=( I hope things get better for you :hug:
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BreathingIsOptionalHobbyist General Artist
It's alright; it's slowly working out. Everything just takes more time than I really want it to. -:hug:s you back-
mare-of-night's avatar
This is good =)
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BreathingIsOptionalHobbyist General Artist
:nod:
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