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Mandie L. J.
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graduation
It was three years ago FuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuck FuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuck FuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuck FuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuck I wonder how much more of my time will slip away in regretful monotony as you all move on and have lives and loves and friends and experiences I see eager minds with eyes for the future with tangible accomplishments and refined skills shining like the sun an image in my head of an awkward child I can't believe it's been three years already
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And he plays the accordion
Our worlds are separate so my attempts to infiltrate yours are met with open arms and fervor but fail and I feel the pull back to mine You see, you kind of saved me you kind of made me new again and you're kind of always there when I think about the good parts of me But you were whole before I came around and I wonder who you see when you think of your life beginning but I assume it isn't me And you're kind of super significant to my life and who I am but I wonder if you hear me when I speak or disregard the screw-up whom you had to fix Our worlds are separate so my attempts to infiltrate yours are brief and lovely and
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I drew a smile on your paper, do you remember?
Romanticism. No one's mere existence is quixotic, you see.
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I never got to enjoy the oceans
When the car creeps into the empty intersection on a red light, then slowly reverses at a sharp angle I say, "What the hell was that?" He says, "Turning...?" I laugh like a fool Apparently my laughter is contagious If I wanted to go for a drink, I could do it now I can make my own decisions, drive and fuck and open a bank account I can walk from here to Europe if I really want because Every ocean has been replaced by rigid concrete I no longer have an excuse to drown 200 days of being a juvenile later Whose feet are these, on which I must stabilize my weight? The advantage of seizing strong legs to hold me up is the certainty
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Marbled Tea Eggs
You ripped your stomach wide open You take yourself down, and others run free Each girl, like chalk dust, through your fingers If you could ever hold anyone to begin with I made you a card, I made it quickly And I hope you get better, so you can see past this monolith My words will run off my tongue and I'll speak to you with strength And I hope you'll stand momentarily uninhibited, and maybe you'll just be, for a while You invite me to live, love But I feel you only do so because you said you would Not because you want to, anymore I think you'll leave soon - I feel how you look away and wish you could We're too quiet - they over
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haunt a life that's happening
{Opening Credits.} i think to myself, God. I adore you. You make my heart sing. You set my soul aloft. Life with you brings me everything I've always wanted. God. I love you. i think back four years and there is no more truthful thought to have had because you were everything (you were the only thing) {Fast Forward.} [There's a way to rebuild my bones. A way to revitalize my tissues. A way to add colour to my face and pump me back up, full of more blood than I'll ever need.] i used to have so many words for them all so many nights when i'd writhe because i am a despicable girl for what i didn't say but thsoe wdors bcoeme jumbled.
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It Doesn't Even
I'm totally okay with having to leave early again. We had fun. It doesn't even matter. Just like how it doesn't matter that you don't love me anymore. Just like how it doesn't matter that it will be so much harder when you do have a girlfriend. Just like how it doesn't matter that you've convinced me to abandon my beliefs because I love you too much to say no. It doesn't matter.
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Stupid Boy
Stupid boy,          Stupid boy. And a stupid girl. We got along so well. You say nothing changes,            dreams are gone. Stupid boy. How is it I'm always wrong? We were candles in the darkness. Now, I'm the sun And you're burning out. Twenty years Walk with a limp                I'm so much older. Stupid boy. You want to be stuck. I tried to smile,            it didn't work. Such drama. Such bullshit. Stupid boy. I've outgrown feeling sorry. Its time you outgrow arguing for your broken bones. You broke them yourself. Can you be called stupid                        when he is at fault            
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Why Having Friends Is Useful
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Why do lights always seem brighter from the corner of my eye With a putrid false security that makes ambitions fly But to look into the light and witness slowly as it dims Always breaks me from this foolish false security I'm in
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graduation
It was three years ago FuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuck FuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuck FuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuck FuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuck I wonder how much more of my time will slip away in regretful monotony as you all move on and have lives and loves and friends and experiences I see eager minds with eyes for the future with tangible accomplishments and refined skills shining like the sun an image in my head of an awkward child I can't believe it's been three years already
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And he plays the accordion
Our worlds are separate so my attempts to infiltrate yours are met with open arms and fervor but fail and I feel the pull back to mine You see, you kind of saved me you kind of made me new again and you're kind of always there when I think about the good parts of me But you were whole before I came around and I wonder who you see when you think of your life beginning but I assume it isn't me And you're kind of super significant to my life and who I am but I wonder if you hear me when I speak or disregard the screw-up whom you had to fix Our worlds are separate so my attempts to infiltrate yours are brief and lovely and
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I drew a smile on your paper, do you remember?
Romanticism. No one's mere existence is quixotic, you see.
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I never got to enjoy the oceans
When the car creeps into the empty intersection on a red light, then slowly reverses at a sharp angle I say, "What the hell was that?" He says, "Turning...?" I laugh like a fool Apparently my laughter is contagious If I wanted to go for a drink, I could do it now I can make my own decisions, drive and fuck and open a bank account I can walk from here to Europe if I really want because Every ocean has been replaced by rigid concrete I no longer have an excuse to drown 200 days of being a juvenile later Whose feet are these, on which I must stabilize my weight? The advantage of seizing strong legs to hold me up is the certainty
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Marbled Tea Eggs
You ripped your stomach wide open You take yourself down, and others run free Each girl, like chalk dust, through your fingers If you could ever hold anyone to begin with I made you a card, I made it quickly And I hope you get better, so you can see past this monolith My words will run off my tongue and I'll speak to you with strength And I hope you'll stand momentarily uninhibited, and maybe you'll just be, for a while You invite me to live, love But I feel you only do so because you said you would Not because you want to, anymore I think you'll leave soon - I feel how you look away and wish you could We're too quiet - they over
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haunt a life that's happening
{Opening Credits.} i think to myself, God. I adore you. You make my heart sing. You set my soul aloft. Life with you brings me everything I've always wanted. God. I love you. i think back four years and there is no more truthful thought to have had because you were everything (you were the only thing) {Fast Forward.} [There's a way to rebuild my bones. A way to revitalize my tissues. A way to add colour to my face and pump me back up, full of more blood than I'll ever need.] i used to have so many words for them all so many nights when i'd writhe because i am a despicable girl for what i didn't say but thsoe wdors bcoeme jumbled.
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It Doesn't Even
I'm totally okay with having to leave early again. We had fun. It doesn't even matter. Just like how it doesn't matter that you don't love me anymore. Just like how it doesn't matter that it will be so much harder when you do have a girlfriend. Just like how it doesn't matter that you've convinced me to abandon my beliefs because I love you too much to say no. It doesn't matter.
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Stupid Boy
Stupid boy,          Stupid boy. And a stupid girl. We got along so well. You say nothing changes,            dreams are gone. Stupid boy. How is it I'm always wrong? We were candles in the darkness. Now, I'm the sun And you're burning out. Twenty years Walk with a limp                I'm so much older. Stupid boy. You want to be stuck. I tried to smile,            it didn't work. Such drama. Such bullshit. Stupid boy. I've outgrown feeling sorry. Its time you outgrow arguing for your broken bones. You broke them yourself. Can you be called stupid                        when he is at fault            
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Why Having Friends Is Useful
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Why do lights always seem brighter from the corner of my eye With a putrid false security that makes ambitions fly But to look into the light and witness slowly as it dims Always breaks me from this foolish false security I'm in
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Mar 2
Canada
Deviant for 11 years
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I'm replacing what was here with this blurb about my face! Um, well, it has a nose, and eyes and stuff. Okay, not really my literal face. I'm Mandie, a young-adult-thing from Canada. I'm a lady. That's all I have to say. Also, I love you. Even if I don't know you. Spread the love and junk. Okay!
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Buh?
I still come on Deviant Art, every day. Some things on here remind me of sad times. I was on here a lot when I was sad, so there you go. I stopped coming on for a very long time. When I came back, I deleted everyone I was watching, because clicking on their arts in my subscription box would remind me of how I clicked on their arts before, and how sad I was back then. I stayed watching a few people; the lovely ladies who knitted my favorite fingerless gloves and doll (whom I accidentally removed and had to re-watch), my real life friends, one person from my anime phase who I keep up with because I love her hilarious journals. Maybe more.
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!@) piktur CHALLENGEETH!
The epic 120 picture challenge... YOU ARE MY EVEREST! In an effort to remind myself to actually submit stuff, I am undertaking the epic epic-ness of epic epic-tude. Yeah. Epic. THE LIST: 1. In Between Worlds 2. Love 3. Sunset 4. Deep 5. Seeking Solace 6. Break Away 7. Eden 8. Innocence 9. Drive 10. Breathe Again 11. Memory Complete 12. Insanity 13. Abuse 14. Smile Complete 15. Emotionless 16. Caged 17. Blood 18. Candy 19. Snow 20. Fortitude 21. Anomaly 22. Forest 23. Cat 24. Me Time 25. Trouble Lurking 26. Never Cry 27. Poison Complete 28. Anguish 29. Curious 30. Rain 31. Defile 32. Never Look Back 33. P
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SketchphaseProfessional Digital Artist
thx for the fav!
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Animus-PantheraHobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thanks so much for the fav on my backpack tutorial! If you use it, I'd love to see what you make. ^_^
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emu-strutsiStudent Interface Designer
thanks : ) :sun:
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Thank you for the watch : )
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hollsHobbyist Artisan Crafter
Wheeeee!