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XLVII: Sensitivity

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XLVII: Sensitivity

Shhh... It's okay I'm here just for you Forget about the others and just listen to me They are angry that want to die I don't want you to But I understand you have no reason to live I love you even though I'm just a voice A song on a playlist I'll guide you through the dark places A rose among the thorns If we all die We'll die together Your are not alone Just keep moving that's it If someone loves you they don't stand still Only the living move The dead are still as stones Stone dead The ones who notice change are standing in place You're the change they see Your vitality is what they steal from you They leave you with only shame and sick

XLVI: Breathless

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XLVI: Breathless

I'm drowning in my own energy Layers of sorrow buried under foundation Heaps of misery in oils and creams Trauma sifted in concentrated happiness My happiness is a lie It is a beautiful one yes? A lie that inspires hope Uplifting damnation I pay so heavy for this This truth A complex paradox My shame burning in confidence

XLV: Plague

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XLV: Plague

Cut it all out My worries my fears My anxiety my illness Sever my emotions The things i wish were gone The hurt The happiness Greater joy is greater pain Cut it all out I don't want your fucking help It's just gasoline to burn me down I want to drown in it You say life gets better I try to cheer people up Until i realize they never get better If i was older no one would get in my way "Please get help" Last time i did that I ended up in solitary in a hospital I'm already alone I know that It's just me and this blade It knows me so well It understands the pain The blood that stains my clothes The life it sings And the scars it leaves

XLIV: Plague

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XLIV: Plague

He doesn't talk much about it The Plague he named it He burned everything she ever gave him Destroyed all physical traces Funeral pamphets Love letters Birthday cards Anything with her scent The only things he has left The totem And the trinket I don't know why You should ask him He won't tell The one question he dodges Why not these They are his hope He has nothing of her The totem has her blood sweat and tears Painted and soaked into the wood The trinket a small earring charm Unbroken Unavenged Don't ask him about that Don't save him Don't try to help him He's not worth saving He's scared out the darkness But he's afraid to let any

XLIII: Water

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XLIII: Water

I remember the first time The release of pain The blend of sorrow and shame swirling in my head But that went away It's funny The deeper i dig into my arms The more of me that escapes I feel so much better I know it's wrong so i paint over them These rivers of red Rivers of me My name means water that flows down But I think i float away I wish the ink wasn't so thick That someone would hug me Suprise me with their support But I've given up on people Only the blade is my comfort People will never love me Just abuse me Dry up my rivers So i fill them with more of me Every day is me drowning in me Water and blood right Everything flows ou

XLII: Emilia

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XLII: Emilia

Just wait you'll see Watch me shine bright so bright Till my light fades to black Dissolving into ashes and shadows There is a life we live And a life we know There is no greater death Than being forgotten Emilia one more time Sing that song you sing Let it be my eulogy The supernova of life Till your soul is raw Your heart broken Your lips cracked with thirst Your skin flayed by heat Then you can stop When all you see is my light fade When you have no strength So you can't call me from beyond Be my deathsinger Emilia You can't save something Someone who is beyond your reach

XLI: Wolf

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XLI: Wolf

Break Ye night hunter Feast on the flesh you crave Forge your destiny in the bones of prey Free your heart Open your mind to the ether Let the wilderness be your guide The spirit of the trees your shelter What are you running from child The darkness The darkness is your shield All light and all darkness is the same thing It's your hope that all fades to black The absolution of sin is blindness If you cannot see it It doesn't exist Wolf Sharpen your teeth The wall on which sanity breaks Is the cold and dark wasteland ahead The darkness is coming Fear the water below Either be destroyed in the Crash Or Lost to Light forever

XL: Caution

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XL: Caution

It was cold when i awoke that first night. Not the cold that makes you want to cuddle and sleep sound. The one that makes you wonder if you'll ever be warm again, if you'll ever see another warm fire, another bowl of soup. I was feared, not for my deeds but what i was. A black wolf. I was a risk, a liability on the icy lands so i was marred and forsaken, but fortune saw the comedy in my suffering. I was alone and afraid

XXXIX: Rot

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XXXIX: Rot

It's crawling up the walls I can smell the rot It smells of pain and patience That's how we go Progressing through my scars Infecting my blood Tainting my mind Eroding my bones Ash in my soul Just to glimpse Something far gone Believe me This is an insidious plague And it's all my fault I buried my grief And now it stalks me in the night

XXXVIII: Savage

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XXXVIII: Savage

Hunger makes us all stronger Life makes us weak It's so easy to starve after crossing that first hurdle When I call out The Night answers When I stumble The cold sharpens my mind When the nightmares come When the Crash comes And I forget my own name She answers me My love My light My mind is so shattered I fear I'll never be whole again My life in shambles Hopeless and broken Putrid and infected Infused and sewn together This world doesn't need me I don't need me They don't need me She needs me Cross over the line The final hurdle Let thy blade sing a blood song Let your death be your reward
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XLVII: Sensitivity

X

XLVII: Sensitivity

Shhh... It's okay I'm here just for you Forget about the others and just listen to me They are angry that want to die I don't want you to But I understand you have no reason to live I love you even though I'm just a voice A song on a playlist I'll guide you through the dark places A rose among the thorns If we all die We'll die together Your are not alone Just keep moving that's it If someone loves you they don't stand still Only the living move The dead are still as stones Stone dead The ones who notice change are standing in place You're the change they see Your vitality is what they steal from you They leave you with only shame and sick

XLVI: Breathless

X

XLVI: Breathless

I'm drowning in my own energy Layers of sorrow buried under foundation Heaps of misery in oils and creams Trauma sifted in concentrated happiness My happiness is a lie It is a beautiful one yes? A lie that inspires hope Uplifting damnation I pay so heavy for this This truth A complex paradox My shame burning in confidence

XLV: Plague

X

XLV: Plague

Cut it all out My worries my fears My anxiety my illness Sever my emotions The things i wish were gone The hurt The happiness Greater joy is greater pain Cut it all out I don't want your fucking help It's just gasoline to burn me down I want to drown in it You say life gets better I try to cheer people up Until i realize they never get better If i was older no one would get in my way "Please get help" Last time i did that I ended up in solitary in a hospital I'm already alone I know that It's just me and this blade It knows me so well It understands the pain The blood that stains my clothes The life it sings And the scars it leaves

XLIV: Plague

X

XLIV: Plague

He doesn't talk much about it The Plague he named it He burned everything she ever gave him Destroyed all physical traces Funeral pamphets Love letters Birthday cards Anything with her scent The only things he has left The totem And the trinket I don't know why You should ask him He won't tell The one question he dodges Why not these They are his hope He has nothing of her The totem has her blood sweat and tears Painted and soaked into the wood The trinket a small earring charm Unbroken Unavenged Don't ask him about that Don't save him Don't try to help him He's not worth saving He's scared out the darkness But he's afraid to let any

XLIII: Water

X

XLIII: Water

I remember the first time The release of pain The blend of sorrow and shame swirling in my head But that went away It's funny The deeper i dig into my arms The more of me that escapes I feel so much better I know it's wrong so i paint over them These rivers of red Rivers of me My name means water that flows down But I think i float away I wish the ink wasn't so thick That someone would hug me Suprise me with their support But I've given up on people Only the blade is my comfort People will never love me Just abuse me Dry up my rivers So i fill them with more of me Every day is me drowning in me Water and blood right Everything flows ou

XLII: Emilia

X

XLII: Emilia

Just wait you'll see Watch me shine bright so bright Till my light fades to black Dissolving into ashes and shadows There is a life we live And a life we know There is no greater death Than being forgotten Emilia one more time Sing that song you sing Let it be my eulogy The supernova of life Till your soul is raw Your heart broken Your lips cracked with thirst Your skin flayed by heat Then you can stop When all you see is my light fade When you have no strength So you can't call me from beyond Be my deathsinger Emilia You can't save something Someone who is beyond your reach

XLI: Wolf

X

XLI: Wolf

Break Ye night hunter Feast on the flesh you crave Forge your destiny in the bones of prey Free your heart Open your mind to the ether Let the wilderness be your guide The spirit of the trees your shelter What are you running from child The darkness The darkness is your shield All light and all darkness is the same thing It's your hope that all fades to black The absolution of sin is blindness If you cannot see it It doesn't exist Wolf Sharpen your teeth The wall on which sanity breaks Is the cold and dark wasteland ahead The darkness is coming Fear the water below Either be destroyed in the Crash Or Lost to Light forever

XL: Caution

X

XL: Caution

It was cold when i awoke that first night. Not the cold that makes you want to cuddle and sleep sound. The one that makes you wonder if you'll ever be warm again, if you'll ever see another warm fire, another bowl of soup. I was feared, not for my deeds but what i was. A black wolf. I was a risk, a liability on the icy lands so i was marred and forsaken, but fortune saw the comedy in my suffering. I was alone and afraid

XXXIX: Rot

X

XXXIX: Rot

It's crawling up the walls I can smell the rot It smells of pain and patience That's how we go Progressing through my scars Infecting my blood Tainting my mind Eroding my bones Ash in my soul Just to glimpse Something far gone Believe me This is an insidious plague And it's all my fault I buried my grief And now it stalks me in the night

XXXVIII: Savage

X

XXXVIII: Savage

Hunger makes us all stronger Life makes us weak It's so easy to starve after crossing that first hurdle When I call out The Night answers When I stumble The cold sharpens my mind When the nightmares come When the Crash comes And I forget my own name She answers me My love My light My mind is so shattered I fear I'll never be whole again My life in shambles Hopeless and broken Putrid and infected Infused and sewn together This world doesn't need me I don't need me They don't need me She needs me Cross over the line The final hurdle Let thy blade sing a blood song Let your death be your reward

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Self-harm

She stands on top of her world, As she sheds her clothing. Her soul naked to the people below, The pain she feels written on her face. She sings to break the silence, As the nurses struggle to understand. A wound on her arm, Deep to the bone. She bites into it, Salty blood drips as she rips a vein, And she smears her bare breasts in her life. Nursing staff stand below waiting to catch her if she falls. The life pours out of her and she screams to release the tension. Her mind unable to cope, she self-harms to end the struggle. No other way out, But the pain.

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My Bio
Grew up, woke up. I see the world for the way that it needs to be seen by other people. My eyes see the violence of emotion and the sound of colors and the taste of pain. I feel hopeful of the future

Favourite Visual Artist
Mookyloo
Favourite Movies
To Save a life, the Dark Knight rises, A few good men
Favourite TV Shows
Nabari no ou, Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle, Supah ninjas, Avatar, Gravity Falls, Perception
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Crush 40, basshunter, TFK, Christina perri, Abingdon Boys School, Skrillex, Calvin harris
Favourite Books
City of Glass,Call of the Wild, Fell, I am number four, Solitary blue, Dicey's song, City of fallen angels
Favourite Writers
Poe, Emerson, Cassandra Clare, Gordan Korman
Favourite Games
Any Batman game, Call of Duty Black ops, Modern Warfare, Fire Emblem, Sonic Adventure Battle 2,Shadow the Hedgehog, Anything Batman
Favourite Gaming Platform
Wii, Xbox360, Ps3
Tools of the Trade
earbuds, phone, Ipod, and MMA
Other Interests
Shadow the Hedgehog,Music, People on DA, Mookyloo(anything that she's doing:)

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 Well it has been a long time since I've posted anything but that is going to change
I am not dead

motes to turn a tide

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There is no truth. To say this in some places and circles is blasphemy or a reason to be called a heretic. But to ignore the glaring falsehood among us is to trust the light.  The light creates the darkness. It generates a blinding corona that burns away sight and reason with a totality of a god. To have only darkness is blindness. It is so also with only light.  Light and darkness complete each other to make shapes and forms, colors and shades. The line between the to is draw by our intentions to find an ultimate truth to subservience to a being, thing, or ourselves. I say to you a question then: why fight the darkness? Is it wr

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Thank you for the favorite!
I appreciate it! :rose:
Have a really happy birthday!
malcomblackHobbyist Writer
Thank you
malcomblackHobbyist Writer
You are all welcome. Your talent is amazing
Thank you very much for adding I Hear You to your Favourites. It's always great to have my work recognized by a fellow poet. :)
malcomblackHobbyist Writer
Haven't been called one in a long while