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I want to apologize for the journal a couple days ago; I deleted it, not wanting it to take up space.

I'm not going anywhere, even though I can't post art right now... I'll keep trying. I really don't know what's going on, especially since I can login via Chrome just fine. I even tried downloading the app on my tablet, and nope... same thing. I actually can't even message Help Desk with this problem, since I need a desktop to do so :/

But yeah, the journal was... melodramatic and whiny. Tbh I'm frustrated, and it's not just with DA. I didn't realize how much posting and sharing my artwork really meant to me, as silly as that sounds, and it just seems like nothing is going right lately.

So yeah. Just wanted to sort of apologize for that journal.
***IMPORTANT***

I have pics to post, but the app automatically logged me out. I've tried logging in several times, but it fails every time, even though I know I'm using the correct password. I even changed my password (I was still logged in on Chrome and was able to change it) and tried logging in again, but it fails every time.

Stressed because I have a minimum goal to upload 5 deviations a month, and I actually HAVE 5 pics to upload, but I can't just because the app is being stupid. I even uninstalled it, then re downloaded it. No dice.

Is it because I failed to log in a few times, thus it's locked me out temporarily? Shouldn't it say so if that is that case? That doesn't make sense anyway, because I used the correct password (I mean, I've had it for ELEVEN YEARS*, I think I know it by now... feels weird using a new one).

Yeah, this is just super annoying. Just know that I AM working on art (I actually completed the seasons series and am now working on another series), but I can't upload until I figure this out.

*I'VE BEEN ON THIS SITE FOR ELEVEN YEARS WTF?! WHERE DID THE TIME GO?! Also, if it's still around and I'm still around when I'm 34 (and I don't plan on leaving), I'll have been on this site half my life. Weird to think about.
I haven't done a personal journal in a very long time. Tbh, I don't like how they're considered deviations now.

Anyway... I'm at a weird place. I'm not sure I can do art professionally. If I was somehow paid to draw things I want for a set amount of time (and it wasn't commission-based), I could do it. But I'm just... I can draw. I know I have that skill. Everything else? Selling, photography, framing, shipping (oh god I HATE working out shipping and packaging the drawing/print. Idk why), all the more sales-oriented stuff, marketing, talking to people... ugh. I dread it. Makes me sick to my stomach. Thing is, though, I have no idea how I'm going to make ends meet in the future. I should not have gone to school for art. That was a mistake. Yes, I learned a LOT and apply what I learned every time I draw, but financially... It was a mistake. A mistake I cannot take back, ever.

I'm 28 years old. I'm not married (don't even have a girlfriend and have never had one), have no idea what my career is going to be (and have never held a full-time job. I plan on trying to get full-time status at my current job after I've been there for awhile), kinda want to move out of the States but have no plan in mind, don't want to work retail forever... ugh. I feel like my time is running out. Everyone else is working so hard, hustling, making huge moves, and I... I am just here trying to figure things out. I've been left behind. I'm old. I don't want to go back to school, either. Not only will it be extremely expensive, but I am not the kind of person that can balance school and work (I couldn't even balance school and job-hunting).

I know this is whiny... but it's been on my mind for awhile, and as trivial as it may sound, it terrifies me. Completely. To the point where I can't get anything done at all.

I might take a step back from my art... AGAIN. That's another thing. I take way too many breaks from my art. Sometimes I wonder if I really enjoy it at all. I know I'll always make it a part of my life, though.
As of now, commissions are closed indefinitely. I'm not good enough yet. That is all.
I haven't been drawing every day like I said I would. I'm just unable to produce quality work right now. I'm going to submit new stuff this month though, no matter what.

I'm pretty bummed that my productivity is so low. I was doing at least 28 hours of drawing a week for a couple of months. I wonder what I could have accomplished if I had continued that throughout the summer.

Basically... I am sorry for my failure.
1. What is one of your "guilty pleasure" go to snacks or foods, that you refuse to give up, no matter what?
Chocolate... whether it's cookies, cake, or candy. I can't let it go.

2.  Favourite canned food?
Black beans

3.  Do you like baked beans on toast?  With cheese on top?
I've never tried it...

4.  If yes to the above question, with brown or white toast?
See above.

5.  Do you butter toast before spreading on jam/peanut butter/nutella?
Nah... I feel like the spread is enough.

6.  Again with toast; Margerine, butter or nothing?
Almond butter, nothing, hummus, or guacamole. I sometimes put fresh herbs on top if it's one of the former two. I feel like a trashy hipster o.O

7.  Favourite ready meal?
Raviolis. Specifically cheese/tomato/basil or mushroom. NOT canned raviolis, but frozen/ otherwise pre-made.

8.  Best takeaway food?
Pizza, Thai, Mexican, SOUPS

9.  Can you bake?  If so, what are you favourite things to bake?
I'm not very good at it. I can bake brownies or cake, though, and kinda know how to roast vegetables. I'm only good at SUPER basic things.

10. Do you use cook books or do you try to find recipes online?
More often than not, I find recipes online. Sometimes I just throw random spices in, whatever I think sounds good.

11. Ever cooked a meal for more than 15 people at one time?
No. I would not enjoy this at all... Too stressful. Even helping at family dinners is too much.

12. Do you like hospital food?
I haven't tried it.

13.  Favourite fast food restaurant?
Taco Bell or Subway. They have good vegetarian options.

14.  Any picky eaters in your family?
Yes. Basically all the men in my family are super picky.

15.  Do you like hot chocolate?
Yes. I'm strangely picky about it though; it has to be done just right. I'll add it to coffee. Coffee and chocolate are amazing together, and coffee makes the flavour more rich.

16.  Tea or coffee?
I probably bleed coffee. 

17.  Fizzy or still drinks?
Depends on what I'm drinking. I really enjoy beer and sparkling wine as well as coffee, juice, and plain old water. Also, the very occasional soda.

18.  Favourite type of nut?
I don't have a really strong opinion. I'll go with walnuts. 

19. What's the weirdest thing you've ever tasted?
Chocolate dipped in nacho cheese. We'd made a plate of nacho cheese and layout dipping different foods in it to see if it was good. Chocolate? Nope, gag-worthy. You know what was good, though? Spinach. 

20. Do you like cheese?  If so, what kind?
ALL the cheese. Mozzarella, feta, cream cheese, even goat cheese and bleu cheese. Yum.

21. Do you like to eat out?
I do, and I would do it more often if I could. I don't really like to cook more complicated meals, and I like to try new things every once in awhile (and I'd rather go to a restaurant where they know how to make said food). Honestly, I end up going to Denny's more than I'll admit, and it keeps disappointing me. And I still go. Lol.

22. What are the most popular local specialties where you live?
Tri-tip steak (apparently there's no such thing outside this area), tacos, lots of good Mexican food, and In n Out. Also avocados on everything. Pho has also become very popular here.

23.  Do you like candy floss?
I haven't tried it. I'm honestly not big on candy.

24.  Hamburger or hotdog?
Burgers. More variety.

25.  Favourite condiment?
Depends on the dish
Mustard for burgers, sausages, or sandwiches
Salsa for tacos, salads etc

26.  Raw or cooked veggies?
Depends. If it's really hot, I want raw veggies. If I want to add interesting flavours, then cooked.

27. Do you like salad?  If so, what is your favourite kind of salad?
Yeah. I often go for baby greens with nuts, herbs, tomatoes, dried cherries, and sometimes cheese. I'll often make my own dressing with just olive oil, lime juice, and some herbs + salt and pepper

28.  Favourite pizza toppings?
Classic Margherita or....
Mushrooms, basil, tomatoes, olives. When I ate meat, I also liked Italian sausage and pepperoni. I can't get behind chicken on pizza no matter what my diet is XD

29. Do you like Indian food? 
Yassssss.

30. Favourite curry?
Vindaloo *drools* I love the curries I have tried, but I'm honestly not that educated about it. I had these delicious curried veggies from a food truck once, and that was definitely tied with vindaloo for the best. I don't know what it was called, though.

31. Do you like fish?  If so, what's your favourite?
I do. I'm considering going back to eating fish occasionally. Tuna is probably my favourite, particularly sashimi or lightly seared.

32.  Favourite fruit?
Tomatoes or red grapes

33.  Favourite vegetable?
Potatoes, seaweed, bell pepper

34.  Favourite vegetarian dish?
Curried vegetables with rice
Samosas with green chutney (try this if you haven't. It's AMAZING)
Margherita pizza
Any vegetarian pasta dish
Bruschetta
Beans, rice, aided potatoes with spices (that's a fairly standard meal I have at home. Simple and delicious)
Roasted veggies
Anything spicy and flavorful really

35.  How do you like your steak?
When I ate steak... medium rare

36.  Italian or Mexican food?
I can't live without either, but Italian because of pasta

37. Home made or canned soup?
Homemade for sure. I grew up on it.

38. Turkey or chicken?
Chicken has more flavour.

39. What's your favourite flavour of ice cream?
Cookies and cream or coffee

40. Favourite style of potato?
Mmmmmmm... roasted or hash browns/ tater tots. Or curried with other veggies.

41.  Do you like mushrooms?
Yasssssss.

42.  What kind of milk do you drink?
I don't drink milk on its own (lactose intolerant). But I like cashew milk with my cereal
 
43. Favourite kind of cereal?
Honey Bunches of Oats... It's kind of a happy medium between the candy sweet cereals and gross healthy ones. 

44.  What do you usually eat for breakfast?
Anything. I usually eat chocolate first thing in the morning. I usually just eat leftovers

45. Do you like Asian food?  If so, what is your favourite?
YES. And don't make me choose between Japanese and Vietnamese.

46. Baked potato or sweet potato?
Baked. I'm picky about sweet potatoes.

47. Do you like sub sandwiches?
Yup. I like adding all kinds of crazy toppings to them. 

48.  Crisps or snack pretzels?
Crisps

49.  Do you like rice pudding?
I haven't tried it

50.  Do you like fried mozzarella sticks?
Yes. Another guilty pleasure food.

51.  Do you like chilli con carne?
It's okay.

52.  Do you like spicy/hot food?
YES.

53.  What's the spiciest thing you've ever eaten?
I used to challenge myself with this more often. Sometime last year, so did my brother. He ordered the world's hottest pepper online, and I cut off a few small pieces to add to this Thai curry soup that I didn't feel was spicy enough. It... was a challenge, to say the least.

54.  Do you like pickles?
Yep.

55.  Ever tried caviar?
Yes. It's not bad.

56.  What's the most expensive meal or luxury food you've ever had/tried?
Several years ago, I tried filet mignon at an expensive restaurant for a special occasion. It was really good, I have to say.

57. What's the most disgusting thing you've ever eaten?
These Chef Boyarde spicy raviolis. Raviolis... should not be canned. Frozen, yes. But these just... they were kind of oily, not spicy, and the flavour was just off. I know I've tried grosser stuff, but I can't think of anything.

58. Do you like tacos?
YES.

59. Do you like cabbage?
Yes, in sauerkraut or in soup form.

60.  Do you like canned or fresh tomatoes?
Fresh. I LOVE tomatoes. But canned with herbs are good too.

61. Do you like plums?
Yeah. 

62.  Raw or cooked onions?
Cooked unless we're talking about salsa.

63. When cooking packets of instant ramen noodles, what is your preferred method for cooking them, and do you add anything to them?  
I boil them. I add about half the seasoning packet, then add spices, green onions, and eggs. I really want to try authentic ramen.

64. Do you like oreos?
YES.

65.  Do you like tofu?
Yes. I actually like the texture.

66. Avocados?
Yes.

67.  Canned fruit?
Pineapple, yes. I also love applesauce.

68. Do you like tuna?
Yes.

69. Do you like apple sauce?
Yes. I started eating it a lot when I had a REALLY bad toothache. It's also good for settling stomach problems.

70.  What's your favourite dip?
Salsa or hummus.

71.  Favourite thing to order as a side dish?
Roasted veggies, bread, or rice

72.  Do you like rice?
Who doesn't?

73.  Corn on the cob?
Yes.

74.  How do you like your eggs?
Over medium.
 
75.  Favourite alcoholic beverage?
Beer, piña colada, sparkling wine, Fireball over ice, Irish whiskey, this VERY good and fancy Mexican tequila I tried years ago (cheap tequila is awful. This stuff was amazing and actually tasted GOOD)

76.  Apple or rhubarb crumble?
Rhubarb

77. Do you like stir fry?
YASSS.

78.  Do you like brussel sprouts?
Roasted yes.

79. Do you eat dinner at the table or in front of the TV?
More often than not, in front of the tv.

80.  Do you like BBQ?
Not as much as most others

81.  Favourite food at a carnival/fair?
I haven't really been enough, and I am kind of sensitive to deep fried foods

82.  Favourite sauces i.e. gravy, chinese sauce toppings, curry sauce etc?
Curry sauce, tomato sauce, soy sauce, hot sauce

83. Macaroni and cheese?
It's okay. I prefer the homemade fancy kind.

84. Key Lime pie?
Yes

85. Jalapeno peppers?
YAS

86. Cottage cheese?
I honestly haven't tried it.

87. Lasagne?
YES.

88.  Hard boiled eggs?
Yep.

89. Creamed corn?
Believe it or not, I haven't tried it.

90. Sauerkraut?
Yup!

91. Sunflower or pumpkin seeds?
Sunflower. I love both, though. I prefer seeds to nuts for the most part.

92. Favourite thing to cook?
Tomato sauce. It's the only thing I genuinely like to cook. And I don't even do it from scratch XD. I use canned herb tomatoes and add seasonings until it tastes good.

93. Least favourite thing to prepare?
Anything with a LOT of chopping. Also raviolis. They are a LOT of work.

94.  Do you like granola bars?
Not really.

95. Do you like pop tarts?
They're okay.

96.  Favourite type of chocolate?
Dark. Yum. And I'm a huge snob.. I prefer European chocolate to American. I've tried Belgian and German chocolate... both so yummy.
  
97.  Brownies or soft chewy cookies?
Soft chewy chocolate chip cookies *drools*

98. Favourite foods as a child?
Chocolate. Still true, although as a kid I liked milk chocolate 

99.  Would you eat raw fish?  Do you like sushi/sashimi?
Yes. It's really good.

100.  What is one food that you would love to try one day?
So. Many. Things. I want to try authentic ramen, especially if there's a veggie option. I also want to try jackfruit recipes. Among other things: nikujaga, poke, authentic Italian pizza, mole, elote, and... the list goes on and on XD.
I'm truly sorry for the lack of activity. I've just been at a VERY low point. I'm not going to go into details. I'm embarrassed about it. It's hard to get myself to do anything, and I just find myself constantly wanting to revive my past (which I know is impossible). I'm trying to snap out of it. After I catch up a bit on my artwork and job-hunting, I will get to my deviant WATCH.

As hopeless as everything seems, I think I'll eventually be fine... I'm just in between jobs and at an odd, uncertain time in my life. I've also been experiencing physical health problems that I can't seem to figure out as well.

To all my watchers, thank you... I'm honestly very grateful for the feedback I get. Have a good night/ morning/ day (it's night over here).
I only do traditional work, and the materials I have access to are: graphite, pen and ink, and Prismacolor pencils. I specialize in landscapes, but I can do portraits as well. My prices vary based on level of detail (and thus time spent).

8 x 10: $30-45
9 x 12: $35-60
11x 14: $40-80

No fanart or NSFW please.
Ok so...the DA app is my main way of submitting work. I don't have my own computer anymore and even if I did, our scanner sucks.

So...I take pics with my phone and edit them to be as close to RL as possible. Not the best quality, but better than washed out colors.

But the problem is, the DA app messes up half the time. It works at submitting deviations first try about...40% of the time. The rest of the time, I have to: try multiple times, force stop the app (this has worked well for me the last few times), log off then uninstall and reinstall...So annoying. I'm not sure if it's the app, my phone, or both. Maybe it's my internet connection? Idk man.

Does anyone else have this problem?
As usual, during Christmas week I have a LOT of pics to upload. I'm uploading 12 today unless something goes wrong, and I have a couple more after the actual holiday. Enjoy!

The 12 pics are actually a calendar I drew for my nephew.
  • Drinking: Coffee
I'm open for commissions right now. I only do pen and ink or Prismacolor works or a combination of both. I will NOT be drawing fanart for commissions, and if it's working from a photo it would be best if it was YOUR photo so there are no copyright issues.

There are slightly limited sizes as well, all fairly small. The price depends on size of work and level of detail.

8" x 10": $15- $40
9.5" x 12": $20- $50
11.5" x 14": $25- $65

P.S. I am not sure how this works. It might be a bit trickier since I'm a traditional artist, and depending on shipping policies I might have to alter the prices.

P.P.S. If you are interested and have a specific idea for a commission, I'd prefer to discuss it in a note. For general questions, ask here.
  • Reading: Hetalia fic (don't judge me XD)
  • Watching: Buffy the Vampire Slayer
I feel like my answers are going to be underwhelming...well, here goes.


1. How long have you been on DeviantArt? 8 years...what?!
2. What does your username mean? Magnificent + fabulous + chicken (my family nickname)
3. Describe yourself in three words. Creative, pessimistic, introvert
4. Are you left or right handed? Right
5. What was your first deviation? Iguana
6. What is your favourite type of art to create? Pen and ink or landscapes. Or horror, if I get really into it
7. If you could instantly master a different art style, what would it be? Watercolor...I never got the hang of it but I like the look
8. What was your first favourite? Anima: Feng Yi by Wen-M
9. What type of art do you tend to favourite the most? I don't know, I fave anything I like. Mostly traditional though, if I were to think about it
10. Who is your all-time favourite deviant artist? That's such a complicated question, I'm not sure XD. I'm always finding great artists and it's hard to pick one.
11. If you could meet anyone on DeviantArt in person, who would it be? ROSEL-D
12. How has a fellow deviant impacted your life? I know :iconmschwolow: in real life. I'd have to write a book to begin to tell you about our friendship. To make it simple, she has made me question what society teaches us (I question it anyway, but to know someone else thinks similarly and isn't as bogged down by it as I am is inspiring). There was a five-year period (roughly) in which we did not speak to each other, and out of nowhere we reconnected on Facebook and we're closer than we were in middle school. That's the most I feel I can give away.

She's a fairly new deviant, working towards professional photography.

13. What are your preferred tools to create art? Pens and Prismacolor pencils
14. What is the most inspirational place for you to create art? Nowhere specific. It's more the time: night.
15. What is your favourite DeviantArt memory? Nothing specific, it was during the first year I was a deviant. Basically, I had a couple RL friends who has DAs and we commented on each other's work, journals, and just had a great time. I know this sounds kind of stupid, and it's something I can never have again, but I'll always remember it. Getting a little teary-eyed now...It sounds kind of silly I know, but there's a lot of history behind this site for me. Not all of it is good. I don't plan on leaving ever, though, even if it is a little bittersweet for me (nothing to do with the site itself, it's more personal). I'll continue to post my art as long as this site is up because I love sharing my art, and this site has a lot of options for organizing artwork that other sites just don't.

#DeviantArtistQuestionnaire
I really want to clean up my DA, and by that I mean post higher-quality pictures. I didn't realize how so many of my works have low quality photos, and I want to present my work in a more professional way. At the moment there is something wrong with my scanner's connection, but when that problem is resolved I will scan the images that are small enough to be scanned.

I recently decided to get a lot more serious about my art, so I really want to step it up with online presentation. I want to sell my work, and that's hard when the images are of such bad quality.

So yeah. Kind of boring journal, but important too. If anyone sells art online, please give me some tips :)
  • Reading: Drifting Classroom
I haven't been on here much except to upload occasionally. I am so sorry. I can't really say I've been busy...busier yes. It's more that I don't have the energy.

I'm very sorry I haven't replied to messages or looked through my devWatch much. Truthfully, my laptop is crapping out on me, so I only really go on DA with my phone. It takes longer to look through everything. Eventually I watt an upgraded laptop, but Idk when that'll happen.

The real reason, honestly, is I'm going through a lot personally and I can't seem to shut my mind up. I haven't drawn much, still at least a little every week though (I plan to upload something this weekend, not sure if I'll make it).

I just have a lot on my mind, plans for the future, and am unsure if I can build the kind of life I want for myself. And my dog probably doesn't have long, and tomorrow I'm going to a funeral...I'm sick of funerals. I'm worried about the drought and the fact that the sun will burn out in billions of years (and that nothing is permanent) bothers me. When I die, the probability of people remembering me a hundred years later is fairly low. Millions of kids starve each year. There are too many people on the planet and we're exhausting the resources. I'm dying on the inside. Everyone is technically slowly dying every single day. What's the point?

Depressing journal is depressing. But this is just a short list of what goes through my mind all the time...and eventually, I'll get back to my replies and look at all the forum posts.
  • Eating: Burger
  • Drinking: Water
I have a new drawing I want to submit. My camera on my new phone is decent, so I'm going to try taking better photos of my artwork. Some of my recent photos are really terrible XD. I am planning on getting this done this weekend, but I need to figure out how to do so with my phone (I am not smart enough for a smartphone haha).

Speaking of that, is it possible to upload photos from my phone? Or do I HAVE to do it through a computer? If there's a way to do it on my phone, I'd rather just do that, since going on and off the computer and saving in like 20 different places is just a huge pain in the ass. So if anyone knows how...please tell me XD.

Notes: I have a Kyocera phone, just got it 3 months ago.

I just took some photos of my recent artwork that I think work better. I am trying to respect my own work more by taking better photos of it and investing real time in doing so. I also just cleaned up my gallery a little bit; deleted a couple deviations I thought were pretty shitty, and put some in scraps. Will probably do this from time to time.
  • Eating: Burger
  • Drinking: Water
So...just went thorough my dev Watch, still have more to look at, but I really do plan on getting to them. I'll try to be better at commenting in the future.

So...plans for art. I tried the "two a month" thing and it worked until October...just didn't feel it. I have some ideas though; actually a lot of them, just need to actually do SOMETHING.

*Pokemon commission for friend Edward
*Death Note-related pic
*Hetalia pics (although I haven't really watched it lately or kept up with updates...except the Prussia one :( )
*More weird pen sketches
*Some mixed media

Still not feeling it, but I'll get to everything eventually. I've been kind of down lately; work is slow, I tried finding another job but the results were meh. Got to just keep trying but it's hard to get motivated...especially when there is someone you constantly miss.

Yeah. Didn't mean to get all lame and mopey. Anyway, the gist: I'm still interested in art, just in a huge funk.
[ ] tall 
[x] in between (my friends insist I'm tall, my family insists I'm short)
[ ] short 
--
[ ] blonde
[ ] redheaded
[X] brunette 
[ ] black-haired
--
[ ] blue-eyed
[x] brown-eyed
[ ] green-eyed
[ ] hazel eyed
[ ] gold eyed
[ ] grey eyed
[ ] black-eyed
[x] with glasses
[ ] with contacts
--
[ ] with braces
[x] with freckles
[ ] with piercings 
[ ] with tattoos
[ ] and have long hair
[x] and have short hair 
[ ] and have mid-length hair 


Your favorite color(s) are?
[x] red
[ ] pink
[ ] yellow 
[X] black
[ ] green
[X] blue
[ ] gold
[ ] white
[x] silver
[ ] purple
[ ] brown
[ ] orange
[x] indigo 


Some things you've done/played include... (I won't count P.E.)
[ ] soccer 
[ ] cheer-leading
[x] dancing (at parties or clubs)
[ ] lacrosse
[ ] field hockey
[ ] hockey
[ ] football
[ ] softball
[ ] wrestling
[x] gymnastics (for like 2 seconds when I was younger)
[ ] track/cross country
[ ] basketball
[ ] baseball 
[ ] golf
[x] chess
[ ] playing in the mud
[x] playing music
[x] hiking
[ ] kayaking (I want to)
[x] camping 
[ ] horseback riding
[ ] marching band


You are sometimes...
[x] annoying 
[x] talkative
[X] shy
[ ] sweet
[x] funny
[ ] mysterious
[x serious (from time to time, more so lately)
[ ] bubbly
[ ] spazzy 
[x] paranoid 
[x] fun-loving
[ ] laid back
[x] strict
[x] hyper (sometimes)
[x] nervous
[X] weird


The music you like is?
[ ] rap
[x] rock 
[ ] pop
[x] country
[ ] hip hop
[ ] r&b 
[ ] slow jams
[ ] Christian
[ ] classical 
[ ] Alternate 
[ ] techno
[ ] Dubstep 
[x] Oldies
[X] the 80s
[ ] Punk
[ ] Jazz 
[ ] Metal
[ ] Reggae
[ ] Goth 
[ ] Latin
[x] 90's Grunge 
[x] musicals (I tolerate SOME of them)


The pets you have are?
[ ] cat
[X] dog
[ ] lizard 
[ ] snake
[ ] ferret
[ ] spider
[ ] rabbit 
[ ] fish 
[ ] bird
[ ] hamster
[ ] little sister
[ ] other 


You're mostly labeled as?
[ ] goth
[ ] emo
[ ] prep
[ ] punk
[x] hippie (by my sister a few years ago when I was a vegetarian)
[x] nerd (yes and no)
[x] ditsy
[x] hyper
[ ] happy
[ ] Hipster
[ ] everything
[ ] I hate labels! I'm just me!!!
[X] I have no idea (nothing really stands out)



You eat?
[x] dessert every night
[ ] no meat
[ ] diet stuff
[x] healthy foods
[X] junk foods
[x] a lot of carbs
[x] ice cream 
[x] lots of meat
[x] salad
[x] seafood (So much love for this)
[x] exotic dishes (If I can)


A typical friday night...
[ ] mall with your friends
[x] partying
[ ] doing my homework
[x] watching movies
[ ] going to the club
[x] staying home (sometimes)
[ ] playing videogames
[ ] babysitting and getting $$
[x] hanging out w/ my friends
[ ] hanging out w/ your boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ] working while your friends are out having fun


Currently you are...
[ ] in a relationship
[x] single
[x] crushing
[x] single and looking for someone 
[ ] just broke up
[ ] Married

Online, you use:
[ ] 
[X] lol
[x] sup
[ ] 
[X] lmao 
[ ] stfu
[ ] ty
[x] jk
[x] <3 
[x] ttyl
[x] g2g
[X] XD 
[X] ^^
[ ] T_T
[ ] x_x (x.x)
[ ] ^_^ (^-^)
[x] o_O
[ ] TOT


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1. Favorite Hetalia character~
Germany~
Prussia, Italy, and America are close seconds

2. Would it be okay if you would draw my OC Plain Heaven Demon-chan?

3. Favorite food~
Depends, it seems to change weekly

4. How much money you have right now~
Idk, I have $20 in my wallet and a little in savings....I mean a LITTLE, it' nothing substantial.

5. The name of your imaginary friend~
Your mom

6.Your favorite meme~
Does creepypasta count for this?
Honestly, I am always so confused when a new meme comes up. I have to look it up.

7. Say something random here~
Meeeeeeeeat!!!!!

8. Favorite mythical character~
La Llorona

9.Color of the keyboard you're using~
Grey

10.Do you like cheese?
Who doesn't?
  • Watching: Star Wars
  • Eating: Burger
  • Drinking: Water
I know I said I'd do the Pokemon creepypasta drawing before Halloween, but I'm just not in the mood for it right now. I should have started it last week when I WAS in the mood, to be honest.

I got kind of sick over the weekend- no flu or anything like that, just a complete lack of energy. And I haven't exactly been jolly lately :(. I'm feeling a little better now, though.

And I may or may not be a little distracted with Pokemon Y- my awesome friend is letting me play Y (she got both games and has completed X). It really is an amazing game, with seriously awesome graphics and music. I just beat the Champion, and apparently still have a lot to do. Team right now is: Delphox, Charizard Y (disappointed that I couldn't get Charizard X, but Drought+ Flamethrower kills anything that doesn't resist it), Sylveon (I actually really like it, Moonblast is awesome), Umbreon (my favorite Pokemon!), Lapras (my pseudo-Electric type; it has Thunderbolt), and Aegislash (this thing is AWESOME. So my favorite Gen 6 Pokemon). 

I also may or may not have spent 5 hours on Pokemon Amie XD. Along with Super Training and customizing my Trainer. I want to draw a pic with my team, stats and nicknames and all. For some reason I can't get motivated to draw the Creepypasta pic, but I so want to draw this XD. 

I still plan on drawing the Creepypasta pic, it just may not be when I wanted it to be done. Another problem with the Creepypasta pic is I can't figure out EXACTLY what I want to do- Lost Silver is my favorite, but I almost wonder if it's overdone. Snow on Mt. Silver also comes to mind; there's great creepy imagery in that one. I really can't narrow it down XD.

I guess the gist of this journal is: I really have no idea what I'm going to do next XD.

Kinda bored and in a terrible mood, saw this on FB and figured why the hell not. It's not very interesting, honestly. 


A - AVAILABLE: Yes
B BIRTHDAY: Not saying
C - CRUSHING ON: Someone I don't care to talk about right now
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Peach wine
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: Melissa
F - FAVORITE SONG: World Ondo (I'm obsessed XD)
G - GUM, BUBBLE GUM: Uh...don't like gum
I - IN LOVE WITH: Same as C
K - KILLED SOMEONE: Nope
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: To Grand Canyon, left at 4 am and got there sometime in the afternoon. I don't even remember how long it took
M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Chocolate, what other flavor is there?
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 3
O- ONE WISH: Money and lots of it
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: Erica
R - REASON TO SMILE: Puppies
S - SONG YOU LAST SANG: Safety Dance
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 11:30something...need to get a more socially acceptable sleep schedule
U - UNDERWEAR COLOUR: White
V - VEGETABLE(S): Red bell pepper
W- WORST HABIT: Where do I begin...1) Worrying; 2) Staying up late; 3) Drinking soda
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: One for my wrist, turned out it was sprained
Y - YOYOS ARE: Fun
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Pisces

Random Questions About You:

Spell your name without vowels: Eiae Ea Ia
Your favorite number: 37
What color do you wear most?: Black/ dark grey
What are you listening to?: Nothing right now, computer fan is being loud?
Thoughts in my head now like: Really angry
Are you happy with your life right now?: No way
What is your favorite class in school?: Art, I guess
Who is your best friend?: Melissa
When do you start back at school/college?: I'm done with that crap
Are you outgoing?: Yes and no, depends on where I am and if I've had anything to drink
Favorite pair of shoes?: My boots, comfortable for walking. They're getting worn out though...
Can you Dance?: I like to say I can. 
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: Never tried to
Can you whistle?: Haha, I've tried but I can't
Cross your eyes?:Yes
Walk with your toes curled?: Probably, I can cross my toes

THE DO'S

Do you believe there is life on other planets?: Why not? Maybe not in our solar system, but elsewhere yes
Do you believe in miracles?: Nope
Do you believe in magic?: Nope, sorry England
Love at first sight?: Nope, not literally anyway
Do you know how to swim?: Yes
Do you like roller coasters?: Yes, but I don't like theme parks. Too many people
Do you think you could handle the stuff they put in their stomach on those reality show: Nope!
Have you ever been on a plane?: Yes, a tour plane
Have you ever asked someone out?: No, I'm so lame
Have you ever been asked out by someone?: Yes, a lot of people actually
Have you ever been to the ocean?: Yes, I want to move there
Have you ever painted your nails?: Yes, I went through a phase a couple years ago

THE WHATS
What is the temperature outside?: Idk, feels like low 70s. FINALLY nice weather
What radio station do you listen to?: Alice, they kind of play everything. 
What was the last restaurant you ate at?: I would say Taco Bell, but I didn't eat there. Uh, this Mexican restaurant near my dad's house, can't remember the name.
What was the last thing you bought?: Soda, today
What was the last thing on TV you watched?: Big Bang Theory
Who was the last thing you took a picture of?: A sunset or something. I could check my phone if I wanted to, but I just cannot be assed.
Who did you last webcam?: No one, don't have one
Who was the last person you said I love you too?: My mom? If you mean romantic, then nobody. Never

CRYING SECTION
Ever really cried your heart out?: Yeah, today actually. It was embarrassing. I hate crying.
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: Not literally, no. I've cried while I was trying to sleep
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: Yeah, at my brother's funeral
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: Yes

HAPPY SECTION
Are you a happy person?: No
What is your current hair color?: Brown, always has been, always will be until I'm old and grey (if I get there)

CURRENTLY WEARING...
What shirt are you wearing?: Light brown shirt that says, "I'm not trying to be difficult, it just comes naturally."
Pants?: Dark blue capri-length exercise pants
Shoes?: None atm
Necklaces?: None

IN A BOY/GIRL
Favorite eye color: Dark brown
Short or long hair: Depends on the person. Lately I seem to like short hair
Height: Don't care. If they're a girl, I like shorter

HAVE YOU EVER...
Been to jail: No
Laughed so hard you cried: Yes
Cried in school: Yes

Wanted to be a model: Hahahahaha, NO
Done something really stupid that you still you started laughing: Yeah, weirdly worded question though
Seen a dead body: Yes, don't want to talk about it (brother's wake)

THIS OR THAT?
Pepsi or Coke: Coke (Cherry preferred)
Single or Group Dates: Depends. Don't have enough experience to really have an opinion
Chocolate or Vanilla: CHOCOLATE
Strawberries or Blueberries: Strawberries most of the time
Meat or Veggies: Meat, somehow turned into a carnivore
TV or Movie: Depends, if I don't want to commit to something for 1.5 hours or more I choose TV
Guitar or Drums: Drums, so I can hit things
Adidas or Nike: Don't really know, I wear...Wal-Mart or Payless sneakers XD. I'm poor
Cheerios or Corn Flakes: Corn flakes, more interesting texture


So glad you know I like Corn Flakes better? Kudos to anyone who read this, haha.

I actually have a finished drawing I want to upload, just haven't gotten around to it somehow. I think it's because I wanted it to look REALLY AWESOME, but it really just ended up kinda meh.

I have some vague ideas of what I want to draw...just need to be assed to draw it XD. I want to draw some more Pokemon, Hetalia, perhaps something Adventure Time or MLP-related...but I've seen everything done, and done better than I can do. Oh well...

Yeah, so sorry for the art and journal inactivity. I've been in a huge rut this summer, had to move because of financial problems (and it's way too far away from everyone I know in town, and it takes me about an hour to an hour and a half to get there by bike and/ or bus). I've been on a very UNsuccessful job hunt, feeling crappy about my degree, crappy about most things in general. I really do plan on drawing SOMETHING, even if it's just another GerIta pic to add to the 600,000 that are already circulating around the Internet... Drawing generally keeps me sane, yet I don't want to do it for a career. Want some advice from me? DON'T GO TO SCHOOL FOR ART UNLESS YOU HAVE A DEFINITE PLAN AND CONNECTIONS AND MAYBE EVEN A DAY JOB LINED UP IMMEDIATELY BECAUSE YOU'LL BE STUCK WITH STUDENT LOAN DEBT FOREVER. Art is not a very useful degree...fun hobby, but not a good thing to major in if I were to be totally honest.

Sorry this can't be a positive journal...just don't have a lot of happy things to say. I guess I just wanted to let everyone know I'm still alive, mostly...kinda.

I think I've turned my DA account into a blog. A lameass, depressing blog. Maybe I'll troll around for a quiz and post it in a journal to lighten things up.