I wish it was easier to start a job that you love more than the current job you have. Like I actually enjoy working in a deli, I have so many wonderful moments but it isn't my true love. I have said I went to college for illustration but didn't want to pursue a job in it; I intend at some point to start a small business for my crafts and such. But goodness I really wish I leave this job and do my own thing that I want mostly since dealing with people where I can say things the way I want. I haven't felt like working in the "real world" sucks, there is way too many responsibilities that I have which is not how I like to act. It makes my days a lot harder than it should be. Just waiting and waiting to leave and head my own job.
I am not a very interesting person. I have anxiety and a possible minor case of ADD, so I get into the constant trend of getting so worked up about all the things I need to get done, which includes reminding myself to make my posts for the week, and then after getting so worked up about it I fall into that lovely anxiety-filled life and all I want to do is lay in bed and do nothing or get out of the apartment and waste my time doing nothing. And so this is also why posts are sometimes late and I don't normally mention it but it really gets to me.
I love posting on here again and seeing everything that has changed, which I absolutely love. I just wish I could let things go to the wind and be free to deal with my life my own way and relax instead of flipping out every night freaking that I didn't get anything done. I'm glad that I am okay with missing a few days but at least I'm making up for the late days. Though I do think the one part about anxiety I would change is how fatigued I
I said I would get photos from the Ren Fest... that didn't happen. I think I had too much fun with TZ, and wanted to enjoy every moment with him and forgot every plan I had. We spent Saturday with my family and a few friends and then Sunday was Ren Fest! We started TZ with his very own pieces for his cosplay. I can't wait until he has a full set!! I went as a dark sorceress. I enjoyed every moment with TZ and the whole day felt magical.
But on other art notes, I'm working on a zodiac series where I'm drawing them as mermaids. I won't be posting them for a while since I want them all to be done before I start posting. Though I have been havin