im incredibly sad right now and I feel like I have nowhwre else to turn anymore.
My friend, Lucas, who's been my irl best friend for months, has done something stupid.
I've become protective of him, I'm incredibly attached to him, I love talking to him and he's almost the only person in real life who I could trust.
Just as of recently, he started talking to some girl off the internet. He seemed really happy about it, I can't blame him, he's never had a proper friend other than me, a toxic abusive and sarcastic of person and Nina, who's occupied and busy and couldn't really talk to him 24/7.
The thing started to bug me when he got insulted when I jokingly insulted this girl hes been talking to. He's used to me being jokingly mean, that's how I am to everyone I'm close to.
Yet he got salty when I did it to this girl hes supposedly talked to for barely 2 days.
He talked about her as if she was a goddess. He met one girl who could easily be a rapist, kidnapper or something worse and immediately thought of her as the almighty goddess that saved his life.
Fine, I get it. He's never had proper friends before that weren't harsh on him. I might love talking to him, I might have gotten called his "best friend", but isn't that just because I'm the only person who's ever attempted to understand him? That's still low.
And fine, okay, she was nicer to him than I was probably. Who isn't? I'm easily replaceable yet it still pained me when he talked about her in such matter.
And all of the sudden I get told they're dating. Or whatever.
Hes known her for 2 days, only known her from the internet and only knew a few things about her. Is he insane?
Thats the first question that popped up in my mind. I'm being replaced, I'm being betrayed (because he refused to tell me even after promising he'd be honest with me no matter what) and most importantly, this guy I've been protective of, this guy I've been basically caring for and lecturing, is now doing something that's completely against all his morals? Everything he told me, was it a lie?
I'm upset. I think I'm not going to be able to recover from this soon. I think I'll either leave him completely alone or have to talk him out of it. No matter what I do, Im lost, scared, upset, mad and angry.
and I miss Jin again. Jin has never been like this, he wouldn't be like this. I miss him being so positive an lighting up my mood even when I was completely unstable...