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Shadows of Life and the Feel of hopelessness
I found a guy I love, I love him very much. His name is Keith. Even if I love him and we can see each other, I still feel dead inside. It isn't his fault. I may have love, but I have struggles I have to deal with because I am not in my right mind. He makes me love myself at one second, yet when he leaves, I want to hurt myself. I will never kill myself over something that may make me feel hurt or me hurting others. Keith came to me when I was writing in my diary. I had to stop this to talk to him.
"What is it Keith?" I said.
"Are you okay? You seem to be crying...Why is that mistress?" He said.
"It's nothing. I just don't know what to do. I have been told I am a killer..."
"Who told you that Mistress?"
"Shadowtail did. He is the guy I always see when I sleep alone..."
"I will be with you then as much as I can mistress, but I can't be here everyday, I live far way..."
I noticed his rhyme there and giggled a little, then I went back to my depressed mood.
"Is it okay if I finish what I wa
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Shadows of Life and the Fear of Others
I have been thinking to myself that I would only be afraid of things that could bite or sting, but in the end, I learned humans could do this kind of thing too.
It's my fault however, I am not the smartest of people, I say things I shouldn't and make problems for others. I fear my own kind...I am afraid they will hurt me, but I hurt them and that in turn makes me afraid of them too. If I do or say anything, they could say something that will show I am at fault.
I have wanted to end my life, but at the same time, I am afraid of pain. People can be scary in this world. They could find me and want to ruin me for my wrongdoings, but that's okay. I was taught that if you do wrong, you shall fall and forever live in the fire. Loving others is a requirement I have heard some say, but not everyone is easy to love. I will like a person though if I see that they are good people inside, even if I am not. I say to everyone I meet, don't let Kurai change you, don't let "me" change you... Don't ever
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Shadows of Life and The Demon of Shadows
I walk down a shadow path, a path full of death and darkness. The shadows are one and so is the light. The shadow is large, but the light is slim. The light calls to me, yet it cannot reach me. I am trapped in the large shadow, it has consumed me. From that shadow, I hurt myself, say I should die, say love will never come my way. I tell myself in the shadow, however, that I will be okay. I have small lights around me and they are there for me, but they are not the pink light of love, they are the regular light of love. These lights are dimmed and bring the sunset up, so the shadows are very numerous. I don't have that warm veil to wrap around me and say that they love me. The veil is not there and the string is broken to what used to be. I give up, I say! Because I was tossed into the darkness to rot from that one thing I was missing.
The thing in my nightmares, the commander of the shadows, has put me in his arms. He tells me not to worry and I say that he is a monster, he then pushes
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Mariah (me) Vent art
It will look better colored. I am really not in the mood to do it though...
I'm not alone in life, but guilt is an ugly mistress...
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I found a guy I love, I love him very much. His name is Keith. Even if I love him and we can see each other, I still feel dead inside. It isn't his fault. I may have love, but I have struggles I have to deal with because I am not in my right mind. He makes me love myself at one second, yet when he leaves, I want to hurt myself. I will never kill myself over something that may make me feel hurt or me hurting others. Keith came to me when I was writing in my diary. I had to stop this to talk to him.
"What is it Keith?" I said.
"Are you okay? You seem to be crying...Why is that mistress?" He said.
"It's nothing. I just don't know what to do. I have been told I am a killer..."
"Who told you that Mistress?"
"Shadowtail did. He is the guy I always see when I sleep alone..."
"I will be with you then as much as I can mistress, but I can't be here everyday, I live far way..."
I noticed his rhyme there and giggled a little, then I went back to my depressed mood.
"Is it okay if I finish what I was doing?" I asked him.
"Yeah, I will wait for you in the other room." He said.
So when he left, I went back to writing.
I don't get why I do what I do and then when I mess up, the demon comes back to me again, telling me I am doing it because I am stubborn and stupid. The guy told me I care for nothing and no one but myself...
"IT'S NOT TRUE!" I shout to Shadowtail, who is inflicting my mind with dark thoughts.
After I get done with writing, I always lie my head down and cry. I tell myself that it doesn't matter where I live, I will always cry, even with my lover. I then think, how will my life be when I am busy with kids and can't talk as much to others? What will I do when I have angry eyes looking at me because life is keeping me up?
Then I stop again and say to myself, I will figure this out. Kids want my attention yes, and I will give them that attention they deserve, but I have to think of others too, even if my family is important.
"I want a baby one day, then even though I will be tired because I have to take care of them, it will be worth it. Children need more attention than anyone. They will get sad without love and nourishment."
I am not at that part of my life yet. It's just something I think about though because I just think my life will be ruined if something comes between me and the people I talk to.
I don't need my life ruined because I am trying to take care of someone important in my life. No matter how much time I give others, I know a child needs more love.
I don't need to think about that now though. This is the present, not the future. I can worry about that when I come to it. Only thing I have to worry about now is if I will be the death of another person...
Shadows of Life and the Feel of hopelessness
Finally am doing another one of these. Rue is coming back again for another time, this time with a guy she sees and falls in love with. This guy calls her mistress.
This is one​ where we finally get " " because she is gonna be talking to others.
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