To make this clear, I am aware that not many people will see this post, but for now, I'd like to write something on a personal level and to myself for the most part. I want to address my plans for my modernized elf series, (which I now call Wild Thistles), and a few of the things that have put me on hiatus in regards to that progress. I also look forward to talking about future projects I have in mind, so that information will be just ahead once I get into the more sorrowful talk of the matter.
Wild Thistles- Since January up until June this year, Wild Thistles has been a prideful and ambitious project of mine. Lately however, I've been doubting myself more than ever before. I essentially put it off when I said I'd work on it all Summer long, and now I need to seriously rethink this through. It's not about the extensive work I know I'll have to go through to drive out a final product of the idea; it's about my desire to go forward with the subject matter of my series. I am comfortably revealing a lot of the concepts behind Wild Thistles tonight, so I'm also revealing that the central plot is about one lesbian elf and her story of accepting who she is and confessing her love for another by learning a lot about the people she meets in her Freshman year of high school. Even said, Wild Thistles is more about losing oneself to the colorful culture of the 2000's in a make-belief lush country called Osqa, but that's put into more of an abstract perspective. Recently, the lesbian side of things has been bugging me quite a bit, but it is so core to the story as a whole that getting rid of it wouldn't just be detrimental, it could very likely push me to have to abandon the entire project and start over. It might be healthy to do so, but I'm just feeling too attached to the story I've already made. It's like living with a toxic relative. I haven't shared my actual progress of Wild Thistles on DeviantArt or on any other social media service, but I do have a complex series on my private Google Docs workspace that's sitting at six chapters long; all 11-13 pages in length, and almost completely typed in a dialogue format. This is precisely why I'm kind of worried about scrapping it all to make something better. I will need to do some more thinking about it. Maybe, all I need to do is change up a couple of characters to provide for a richer design. Who knows? MaCee's character, especially, is just blech. Again, I haven't got it all figured out, but since the setting takes place in Autumn, I might just find myself getting back into it later on in the year.
As for projects I might want to attempt later in the year, I am constantly shifting interests. So, no matter what I say, I might go and do the complete opposite. Digital art, sadly, might not continue for a while since my tablet isn't running properly due to a lose wire or something. I plan on investing in a wireless kit for my Intuos Art however. It's seriously only forty bucks, but I'm quite lazy and part of me wants to get better at drawing stuff like concept art in the traditional form. Another thing is I will be getting my first job here in a couple weeks, so if I ever have time to draw something, it will be during the early daytime when I'm groggy as hell. I don't thoroughly know how these two things will affect my publishing, but I'm pretty sure that big projects will have to be done at a slower pace unless I figure out a more efficient way to produce them.
If you did take the time to read this, god bless and I figure you must be bored out of your mind like I was when I typed it, haha. But really, I'm just trying to spill out my thoughts, (the ones that aren't dark and depressing), and organize them. It's a habit of mine. With that out of the way, I just want to end this saying... keep hiking a new mountain as always us artists should be. Know that there is not one single peak to reach but thousands.