WHERE AM I GOING
As I sit here with nothing but time on my hands I ponder my life
I wonder why now even tho the sun is brighter, the trees are greener,
Food is tastier and women more beautiful life for some reason seems duller.
I try new things and meet new people
but they only offer me a brief glimmer of excitement in this tedious daily grind.
Friends keep showing me reasons not to trust
and that the way u feel and treat them is not reciprocated,
I get talked over and ignored as if I weren't there at all.
I spend time with friends and most times walk away wondering
Who are all these people who I call friends
I help them out with money, accommodation,
A shoulder to cry on and even the shirt off my own back
Last time I was in a desperate situation who helped me
I have always tried to do what my moral compass has told me to be correct.
Most times even tho it's the right thing it turns out bad for me,
Usually costs a friend or two.
What happened to unconditional