Hello DeviantART Watchers, It has been a very long time for me away. Too many loses for these past years. 9 years have gone since I joined this community, a lot of friends have gone and it pains me. I have been diagnosed with depression and it I will try to connect with people but it is so hard on me. It feels hopeless a lot, when in interactions with people physically, it makes me breathe very hard and almost cry. Learning that loneliness can kill just as much as obesity it terrifying...it truly feels like that is how I will die. I recently moved in with my father and I know he is trying very hard, but I cannot connect , I do not know what is lost but, It hurts a lot. I have not left the home for an entire month...Father really wants me to feel the warm summer air before the season ends but, I have no motivation, drawing is extremely difficult. This entry is scary due to it feeling in vain.
But thank you for your time.