So, some time ago I posted a couple of....possibly concerning status posts, posts concerning my part in social media....or rather, me stepping back from being social with my media....if that makes sense. The origins of those stem from events that happened both recent and not-so-recent in relation to the timing of said posts, though both have some relation to the social media platform known as Discord; suffice to say this year I.....I've had some bad luck with it. The more recent of which revolved around these pics:
I won't mention the name of the Discord server or bore you with the whole story but.....they and I had some.....differing opinions on the pics....in the case of two, it was the alternate takes on them and.....they're opinions were the kind that'd make one feel guilty over what one enjoys and so I left; to make it really short......I felt like they were a bunch of prudes who forgot that the series had service of its own and I left. Recently, I have
considered returning there but....I'm still thinking it over.
Really, the dissonance with them reminded me of another group I was once apart of, the
forum over on Fanfiction, a forum I was apart of for around four years.....and it wasn't all pleasant. It's nothing the other members of the forum did but rather.....over time while part of that community I forgot about fiction being "fun"; instead, I worked myself up over stuff like reading backlogs....wrestling storylines/results involving characters I controlled or liked/obsessed over and a feeling of lacking stories/skits and yet not doing anything to actually change that, instead I'd sit in silence and watch. I'd watch it like a hawk as oppose to handle one of my other spinning plates like the fiction wrestling reading backlog; this among other factors would make me into a stressed, moody individual which translated into being a toxic entity on said forum which came to a head on its related Discord server when I took a response to something negatively and withdrew myself from everyone which in turned led to being "banned" from the forum (Fanfiction can't do permanent bans so it's the honor code).
I'd end up making things a tad worse shortly after when I'd make an unannounced return to that server and on the Tuesday after WrestleMania I'd try to mend things with someone I severely hurt in my actions.....only to be incapable of facing them when confronted with my BS. As of the writing of this I've written and posted a letter over on the forum's Rantboard, deleted all bookmarks in relation to the forum and shortly after cleared my browser history.
So yeah.....the short and long of why I posted those status posts.