I think at one point I was going to come across making this, so I might as well now.
If it wasn't obvious from the art quality I've been putting out with this Gemstone Project lately, it's been getting worse. Don't get me wrong, I LOVED the idea when I completed January's piece, but overtime, the piling of work in real life and my personal activities that are obligatory, just made it more difficult. I did had time to draw at some points, and always made the effort to meet my goal of one art piece a month. But now... I've lost that drive.
It PAINS me to end my streak up until June, but in the beginning of this month I've been having this negative perspective on life the past few weeks. Nothing really felt like it was going my direction and it was a very immature feeling that I kept to myself for a while, nothing bad was happening to me in particular (so please don't worry!) I guess my problem was I started reflecting badly on my art.
Now, the thing is, in the beginning of the year, I set it my goal to aim for a program in university with arts after I had completed school, something along the lines of being a concept artist or such. Nothing brings me joy than bringing in new ideas to people and manifesting them into a movie or game, my work reflected and enjoyed by others. But now I'm thinking, how can I strive for such an occupation, if my passion for art isn't entirely reflected in the art I produce?
It's painful, I have this MAJOR project that I keep in secret that I want to share to you all, it's one thing that's clinging me to art and to this site, and I have been working on this concept for several YEARS, but never got down to producing it and I STILL haven't presented any hints to it yet.
This doesn't feel like an art block, it feels like I went down a direction not fully prepared, and now I have no choice but to drag my feet to reach it. That's not the feeling I want, I want to enjoy what I do. So with that, I'm canceling the Gemstone project to focus more on doodlings than actual pieces. I'll be on hiatus for a while....well, I've been on hiatus on every month except the few days I keep coming back to post art of course. But this time, I want to feel relieved that I don't have to keep forcing myself to come to this site to complete my goal. Though for every time I did, I got to respond to the wonderful comments you all give me, and have nice chats to some of my friends here. (Kudos to you guys!)
TL;DR, I'll be in hiatus for about a month, I'll be travelling anyway in the beginning of July, but I will bring my Wacom Tablet to doodle. Hopefully being back in my home country will help me find that drive. In the meantime, I'm very sorry for not coming out sooner with this, and that you won't worry too much about it me.