Who can say?

I don't understand why it has to be so difficult this year. I kept telling myself I'd shrug it off. I guess I just need her badly this year. She was prob the only one in my family that never took advantage of me... That's how I feel this year.

Anyways. I apologize to my friends how I get this time of year.
I know I seclude myself, but I hope you understand.

Please no crits.
Just take a moment out of your day- whether you're from this country or not- It's not about the US. It's about the people. We're all the same.

I miss you, Sis.
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I wouldn't know what to say
I wouldn't know what to do
If you came back from heaven
And I could look at you
Would I fumble for the words?
Would I be a little shy?
Would I bust right out with laughter?
Or break right down and cry?

Oh,if you came back from heaven
Would it be like it was then?
Could we just pick up,where we left off
And try it all again?
Oh,if you came back from heaven
It would freeze me in my tracks
And I hope God knows,if he let you go
I'd never send you back

Do your kisses feel the same?
Do you still have the same touch?
And will you whisper softly
'Coz you've missed me so much?
Have you heard all my prayers
When I lay down at night?
And did you feel my body
When I held your pillow tight?

Oh,if you came back from heaven
Would it be like it was then?
Could we just pick up,where we left off
And try it all again?
Oh,if you came back from heaven
It would freeze me in my tracks
And I hope God knows,if he let you go
I'd never send you back

And if,God forbid,you leave this earth again while I see
I hope he knows if you go you'll be bringing me

Oh,if you came back from heaven
Would it be like it was then?
Could we just pick up,where we left off
And try it all again?
Oh,if you came back from heaven
It would freeze me in my tracks
And I hope God knows,if he let you go
I'd never send you back