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Battlefield

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Battlefield

I know how I should feel What things I should say Things to do What to be But knowing And living Are two different things Warring inside my head As the demons That demand my time And my blood And my tears Continue to tear me apart I don’t know how to fight How to save myself From their claws Their fangs And their insistent lies Masks are a fail safe A way to continue While demons claw at my back I show a brave face While crying inside Never knowing when I’ll break down And cry for real I breathe But every breath is painful As the words and the whispers Cling to me like smoke My head is pounding The vileness My demons spew C
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Drowning

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My Rollercoaster

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My Rollercoaster

Floating high as I socialize Laughing and talking Communing and connecting I touch and am touched By voices, hands, souls But after In the dark moments I fall into a void Of pain And sorrow I lose myself I don’t know who I am When the event is over And I return home Alone and lonely As if my heart lives Only when surrounded By other hearts Where I can share mine And the rest of me So I flounder Fighting tears And dejection That lives only in my head Because none of this is real But I live it And breathe it And know that this is my reality But it’s a lie Though it’s not cake It’s a lie Because I am not just My con
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Stories

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Stories

When I open a book It’s the lives I lead That helps me continue And thrive I fall into a story I get lost in the words That play like a movie Inside my mind Sometimes I never Wish to return To the banal existence That I live I want to be someone Someone special and needed At least to another setting That’s not here I live vicariously Through their lives See through their eyes And speak their words I cringe when something Goes wrong But also cheer When it goes right I don’t want to be In my own story A tale where nothing happens And loneliness reigns I dream of things Real or imagined That I could be doing Instead of
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Mirror

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Mirror

Sometimes the girl in the mirror Smiles at me like she knows The answer to a riddle I still haven't found I know we are the same That she shares my face And yet at the same time I feel like she’s prettier than me As if my emotions can’t touch Or change Or move Who she is inside But she is me And I am she Yet we’re so separate From each other In ways I can’t describe I want to trade places And live her life It seems glamorous She must have some secret That I can’t seem to puzzle out Some story that I can’t read Or a better song than mine A glimmer in her eye As I catch a glimpse of her In any reflecti
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Letting Go

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Letting Go

I found you Looking lost and lonely And out of your depth At your first party I talked to you Helping you travers The somewhat scary universe We found ourselves in It’s been months now And you’ve found your feet You’re taking your steps And deciding who you are And yet As we connected Touching and teasing I find the truth Like two puzzle pieces That fit two different places And are forcing ourselves To mesh I held on tight Out of fear and hope And some desperation That we would work But we don’t We don’t mesh only collide Breaking ourselves apart On each other And so as much as it pains me I have realized
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Good Enough

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Good Enough

I look in the mirror All I see is a girl Trying to be who she isn’t For love Who am I And why do I bother To lure people in When I am hollow I am the girl in the corner Standing against the wall Alone and smiling While crying within I have found the hard way That I am not enough To hold a man To keep a man Do I need one Only in the sake of comfort Of joy and pleasure But even then no And yet alone I feel so cut adrift Cast aside for a newer model And left to wither My heart has found hope But I wonder When will that fall too Like sand from my fingers Hope is so fleeting And to catch her You have to be elaborate But I don’t
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Dust

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Dust

Slipping into monotony I feel a rush of banality Of colors leeching From the world No joy is held In reverence Nor does wonder prevail In this life of woe I slip further into The abyss of nothing Where hope lies Dormant and alone Where did My happiness go My spark and light My bliss Was ignorance The deciding factor On if I am brought high Or laid low Were the muses the reason That all creativity Fell barren From my fingertips Or was it my own Faults and fears And emotional destruction That caused this death How then Do I find the ecstasy And luminosity Of creation Is it a seed In my own soul That begs to see Through my eyes Or
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Happy Birthday Luna!!!!
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