There is a big reason for the secrecy, I just can not believe that I am a mom again. Even with my baby home it does not feel real. I was forced into a surgery because the doctor did not bother explaining things to me from the beginning. It was very scary but at least I got to see my baby and hear the first cry, it was great. Thanks for the prayers it means so much to me. As things slowly get into routine I hope to start working on promised projects and lots of sculpey.