I'm feeling torn apart at this moment. I'm not in college as my parents don't know I'm skipping this semester and I can't take the stress. I get nothing in return with my friends over here either and I'm behind in my art. There's no hope left for me to continue. This may be my last journal post... I just don't want to continue. I'm tired of breathing and feeling miserable.
This isn't an act of attention (I don't like acts of attention whores, so I know where you're getting at, but you're wrong). It's a IRL issue I had recently... I barely posted something so dire like this, as I don't normally vent... Things have been worked in sorted as of recent. I don't mope like a girl repetively you know? This is a first of feeling like I wanna quit... but a friend prevented me from doing so. So thanks for the nice words of encouragement.
sometimes in order to be kind you need to be cruel, and that means kicking you up the ass and telling you to stop been a quitter, I've seen sob story after sob story and how they just want to give up, I'm like "For F**k sake they complain on how hard their lives are" from my view most of the them have in many ways a better life then me and should be laughing, and when I say things like this they say "I'm not attention seeking" or "I don't mope around like a girl" yes you are and yes you do, it's that simple, you just got to wake up and realise that quitting is the worst thing you can do and that you problems wont solve themselves by doing absolutely nothing, no I', not going to be winning any meddles for encouragement but I don't strive to for that, I simply be honest and people ether lissom or deny
But no one talks to me like this and it's less helpful, which I feel as if you're trying to get me to not quit just by telling me these things in a negative, but motivating manner. Like you said, either if people listen or deny what you're saying, which actually still isn't helpful.
Again, thanks for attempting to make me feel better, but I've had folks made me feel better.
I get the same feeling too, man. And i've been having these thoughts alot recently too. How you think none of your friends care, how there is no hope, how you should just end it all. But i just keep going, and i find myself out of that dark shitty hole that my mind keep digging itself. You just have to fight through it, it will get better.
Hey easy. Easy. Just take a break. I know it's stressing. And I myself and behind on stuff. But it's not worth your life. We're all here for you, just take a break maybe just a little time to settle down. It'll be okay.
Dude whatever you're thinking, its not worth it. There's always another answer. Try talking to someone. It'll work itself out in the end. I know, I've been where you are before. Just please don't do anything rash.