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If you can read this, then please understand whatever I am wanting to say on here.
I know I’ve been lacking a lot of art lately, but I have a lot more to do in real life than on here. And real life stuff did struck me at some point. I’m not happy with how I’ve been doing with progression through art. Cause life comes first, but stress is what cuts in front of life for me.
The only thing that’s gotten me to relax and have a moment in peace was going to Bronycon this year (yep, I went). Getting to me my buds in person for the first time was a good feeling I’ve never felt for so long, and it felt like it was truly the happiest time I’ve ever had. It’s good to feel that way, and it’s just what I needed.
It was unfortunate enough that when I came back from my trip, it was sudden that already work started to fuck up the very start of my new week. Y’know what they say ‘careful what you wish for’. Thing is I finally got to move to a new store of the same company I am still working with. The work there is just as bad as I had it before from a previous store. I’ve been nagged at and critiqued from the very start that I just started working at this new place, and it really set a bad vibe for me. The money is good so far, but the stress really doesn’t make it feel like it’s worth going through. I need the money more so for college and to get a brand new car, cause my current car has been giving me so much hell. So life is gonna be a bit of a bitch for how much that’ll keep me busy…
That leads to how I do things on here now…
I don’t feel accomplished of how I do art. I’m grateful that I can doodle, cause I love to art. I remember the time I couldn’t do digital art, and I watched a lot of other artists I’ve enjoyed. Always hoped to make art like others, the day I picked up a digital tablet made a difference to me. Sadly, it’s just the time and lack of confidence that kind of turns my head away a bit from actually trying to work on some art. Work and college, also burns it out of me to work on it…
I’ve had thoughts, of what it would take to work and develop more with my artwork… if it required that I should quit college and work altogether. I know some artists who don’t work or go to school and rely on their artwork for their funding’s, but I’m sure that it’s not as easy to keep active with art as well that way… I still work and will be going to my next semester in college, cause life does come first.
I was afraid of saying I should quit art, but it’s something I do enjoy. It’s just something that I feel anyone on here won’t see as much. Please bear with me everyone, I do have a lot of ideas I want to work on, but very little time. It’s just a matter of how time works with me.
If you’ve made it this far into my journal, I’ve been asked a lot for requests… guys. It clearly says on my page I don’t do requests. Can you please stop asking? I don’t have the time for requests… even telling me suggestions, is basically a request. IT just gives the person who suggested the benefit of what they’re wanting… if no one is reading that I don’t do requests, they will be ignored. I’m tired of getting that question…
Again just bear with me, I haven’t gave up on art, but it’s just gonna be a bit slow for me to make stuff when I’m able to.
If you’ve made it this far, then I appreciate the time taken upon reading this.