My Chemical Romance split yesterday.
I don't know why I'm so sad, I pretty much blocked anything MCR related out of past life for the past few months, and to be quite honest I can use words to show how ashamed of that fact I really am. It's only really in the past week I started listening to them again, in fact all I've played this week is MCR, and it's actually reminded me how much they helped me get through. Even listening to them just the past few days it's managed to help me find the right way to deal with something, and put me on the right path again, as I know I haven't been for quite a while now.
And now I find it's over, it feels like my childhood has died. They got me through the tough times when no one understood, when I seemed to be the permanent punch bag at school, when everything seemed to be falling apart at home, anything life could throw at me, I was only a song away from rationality. And now it's gone. But the thing is, I know it isn't.
MCR will live on in my iPod, on my walls, my shirts, mugs, bags, everything.
But ultimately I will forever have MCR in my heart, until the day I die.
The end of MCR is only the beginning. My childhood may be over but it's a fresh start now, a new life. It feels now like I can finally let of of everything bad that's ever happened and stop blaming people, when it was really me all along. I know someday in my future I'll be getting that date tattooed so I can forever remember the day my life changed for the better, I'll work hard in school, I'l get the grades, I'll stop doing what people expect of me just to fit in, I'll chase my dreams and get that career in music I've always wanted.
Even if it's just for that tattoo.
So Long and Goodnight, 23.03.2013 <3