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Reviving myself

Journal Entry: Tue Jul 26, 2016, 12:03 AM
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For a long time I haven't been happy with a lot of things... one of them is the activity on here but let me explain my other situation first.

I haven't been drawing... like, not even 1% of what I used to say 3 years ago, man, I would draw every day and enjoy the communication between friends and the thrill I got from my own head-canons.

I started uni and it's just been falling downhill. that period of time got hectic as I went through many things like a breakup, moving every year, failing my first year. which I've never mentioned before because lol how embarrassing 
My whole lifestyle changed, and I wanted to do better for myself... REAL better 

Well graduating uni with a first was my main focus, and I was dam happy to be able to lift myself from that tumble. since living away I'm managed to build up a bunch of art supply only to fall into a slump of being unemployed, but with a freelance job that wasn't quite paying rent..
This isn't a sob story or anything to say "give meh money" I'm just saying I struggled and for a long time was trying to pick myself back up. 

Welp I feel like that's finally happened
I've gotten this catering job that's getting me more active (fucking tiring man, lol) talking to new people and generally bringing me back into a state that's improving me.

Not just life style, but my health and well being....

I was very close to just giving up and quitting because of the feeling of not accomplishing anything... especially since the majority of my friends left deviantart, moved to other sites... I couldn't keep up
The thought of restarting a new account just makes me sad... (and no I won't do that)
But now, I'll be asking my partner to help me get better organised and help keep me on my game. 

Speaking of games, I said earlier I have a catering job. yes yes it's not games it's just a day job, but it pays rather well for what it is. and I really need to get back into drawing if I ever what a game concept job, I get so much shit from family saying "oh but you spent all those years doing your degree only to get a dead-end job" and i'm just so sick of it. I really don't want to be rushed.
I'm so happy for my partner because he's finally gotten his degree job and I want to work hard to getting mine, it's just gonna take more time... (it helps freelancing atm..)

My goals are to be where :icongriffsnuff:griffsnuff got to with her job at krillbite studios, I look up to her so much because I can relate to her art style, it really moves me and reminds me it's OK to have whatever style to work in, weather it's a beautifully detail piece or very simplistic, and griffsnuff does it perfectly.

Honestly, it will take time. I know I've lost a lot of my followers on here, but I want a fresh start, still on this account, but just Reviving myself :)
if your old watchers who still keep in touch with my content... thank you, so much, you are the reason I don't want to leave here... and I do remember users so don't feel scared to say hi ;')

    Thank you for reading this. I'll be around <3

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CressLuna Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2016  Student Traditional Artist
Wow, that sounded like a big struggle but glad to hear its getting better. :) 

I know the feel of not drawing as much anymore... I'm going through the same at the moment, albeit for different reasons, plus an art block. So I'm glad you got through it. ;) You still have me as one of your watchers, despite me not being as active anymore... so, I'm saying hi. ;)
Luifex Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Student Digital Artist
yeah it's quite a struggle, but slowly getting there, it's just taking time.
aw man art block sucks :( i guess that's pretty much what i am going through. life can sometimes be such a pain...
haha thanks <3 i'm still glad to have some watchers here and there, seeing my changes :') especially since i'm thinking of doing some new art for stuff i've recently gotten into <3
CressLuna Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2016  Student Traditional Artist

Hey pretty new icon!

Life can be a pain yep, but the good things life offers often makes up for it. :)
You're welcome ~ Always loved your style. 
Ooh that sounds great! Gonna check em out when you are going to/have uploaded it. I don't know, haven't checked my deviation inbox in a good while. :'D Life is busy atm. 
MeladiaPanda Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2016  Student Digital Artist
Ah wow, I know what you mean with not drawing much these days as I struggle with that as well. I'm looking for a job now yet again and this is my 3rd DA account XD I try my best to keep creative on the free time I have atm, but there's so much more I want to do with my life now (need to get out of this cycle of demotivation!)

Anyway, am glad to see that you've found something stable, congrats! :D (Big Grin) I know you'll aspire to your dreams as you work very hard at your artwork :) (Smile) I wouldn't know where to begin with getting a degree job like that XD Ah well, must keep pushing and looking for my dream goal :P
Keep it up! :D (Big Grin)  Hug 
Luifex Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Student Digital Artist
demotivation is just the worse, and it's hit me at the worse possible time. (going though some intense family shit at the moment) 
but i'm slowly starting to pick myself up, and trying to know where to go. 

haha thanks :D feels great to actually have a stable job now, i'm just dirt poor till the first paycheck then my life should start getting to a normal-state where i can do things freely.
yeah :) i just know it'll take a while, i know i'm not the only one that goes through these things but it's just hit me at the worse possible time so now i just have to pick myself up and aim for that dream job!

MeladiaPanda Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2016  Student Digital Artist
Aww, am sorry to hear that :( Hope things get better for you soon.

Np! Yea, am in a similar situation job-wise as I've finally managed to get a decent full-time position, but I won't be paid until mid-September or mid-October so I have to make things last until then XD

Yea, you must go for it! Am still trying to work out my pros and cons with my art but hopefully I'll get there! :D
Meeshell-Art Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Also, to help revive yourself we could do something old school. Art Traaaaaade. Think about it lol
Luifex Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Student Digital Artist
oh man, old school art trades, they were amazing :XD: 
wouldn't mind doing that :D you've been 1 of my friends to still stick it through on this site, even after everything died down. 
what did you have in mind? ^_^
Meeshell-Art Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh easy I'd get you to draw my WoW toon hehehehehe
Luifex Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2016  Student Digital Artist
ok :D send me a ref and I can do that!
for me, i'd love to see you do my Gem OC ^_^

Chrysocollas ref by Luifex
Meeshell-Art Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
ah even more reason to get a mini tutorial from you (referring to my comment on your latest upload)

I'll send a ref when I'm able to take a break from Legion!
Luifex Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2016  Student Digital Artist
i'm gonna still be experimenting with skies so i'll definitely have a tutorial done soon :D
i'm pretty hyped to see you do do some :meow: 
(sorry i'm late with replies :'( )
Meeshell-Art Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Uni in 2010 made me fall behind in drawing too, and even give up on it when you start hearing words like "realistic" and "grow up". Sadly, I still haven't, but you have to believe one day things will get better, right? 

Ironically, applying for a Visual Arts degree motivated me to really get back into Art, back in 2015, but in the end I never went to do that course. The one year I spent in Uni in 2010 I didn't fail but it's pretty much useless now haha. I tried to apply for a Bachelor of Illustration and the interview was condescending and I was given a late offer, meaning I ran out of time to move and did something else instead.

Life is pretty lame sometimes, good thing you're pushing through Lu.
Luifex Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Student Digital Artist
that's how i felt too, 'realistic' was what everyone was wanting to see and said would be best to do to get into the industry. 
i luckily had great tutors that aloud me to pick what i wanted because they saw the had work towards the 'fantasy' style and in general the colourful cartoony style i liked doing while looking impressive (like warcraft style)
yeah i do remember you saying you was going for that Visual Arts degree, sometimes you can just tell if it's what you want to do. 
in my case they changed the course just as i started, so in a way i had to put up with the extra crap they threw at me :XD:

i'm trying to push through :'c it's hard at the moment
i think i've finally realised that i just need to push myself creatively and just draw what i want aswell as what i think will improve my style
might take awhile, but now i feel like i have time for it <3 lol
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