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Chaotic Silence

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Chaotic Silence

My eyes know death, the heart knows a brokenness that cannot be explained. My mind knows chaotic silence and scattered thoughts that run rampant with no stop in sight. My body knows a deep pain, scars wrapped around stark white flesh that no longer bleeds. My reality knows nothing about truths, it only knows the ins and outs of lies that the world spews. There is no happiness behind these dark eyes, the light burned out long ago. This heart does not and cannot beat any longer... With this knife all hell shall cease but these damned tears flow like rivers from aquamarine eyes. I just want to be safe in my own skin, happy again. I just want to
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Crimson Light

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Crimson Light

My thoughts have become my temporary hell As my mind runs a mile a minute with no shut off switch in sight. This gnawing aching feeling to be wanted, to be touched won't cease. Desire to feel again courses through these veins of mine. I'm so sick and tired of this numbness that has plaugued me for so long. I just want to be held tight as sobs shatter my soul. This body of mine is so empty floating aimlessly into oblivion... No hope to ever bring me back from this hellish reverie. I am suffocating on feelings I wish would silence But they scream begging to come to the crimson light.

Darkness

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Darkness

I lay awake in the darkness as fear casts shadows inside my mind. I feel like I am all alone With nothing but thoughts that I do not speak running rampant. All this pain... Back and forth inside my mind a million times I've blamed myself, Something so uncontrollable and out of my grasp of understanding. I close my eyes and my reality becomes me, soaking despair into these fibers of my soul. I'm left alone here as the darkness consumes me leaving an empty shell of what I used to be. My thoughts are choking me as I silently scream inside my head. It doesn't feel right and here I am falling... I can't cry any more for these hazel eyes have crie
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Chaotic Silence

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Chaotic Silence

My eyes know death, the heart knows a brokenness that cannot be explained. My mind knows chaotic silence and scattered thoughts that run rampant with no stop in sight. My body knows a deep pain, scars wrapped around stark white flesh that no longer bleeds. My reality knows nothing about truths, it only knows the ins and outs of lies that the world spews. There is no happiness behind these dark eyes, the light burned out long ago. This heart does not and cannot beat any longer... With this knife all hell shall cease but these damned tears flow like rivers from aquamarine eyes. I just want to be safe in my own skin, happy again. I just want to
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Crimson Light

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Crimson Light

My thoughts have become my temporary hell As my mind runs a mile a minute with no shut off switch in sight. This gnawing aching feeling to be wanted, to be touched won't cease. Desire to feel again courses through these veins of mine. I'm so sick and tired of this numbness that has plaugued me for so long. I just want to be held tight as sobs shatter my soul. This body of mine is so empty floating aimlessly into oblivion... No hope to ever bring me back from this hellish reverie. I am suffocating on feelings I wish would silence But they scream begging to come to the crimson light.

Darkness

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Darkness

I lay awake in the darkness as fear casts shadows inside my mind. I feel like I am all alone With nothing but thoughts that I do not speak running rampant. All this pain... Back and forth inside my mind a million times I've blamed myself, Something so uncontrollable and out of my grasp of understanding. I close my eyes and my reality becomes me, soaking despair into these fibers of my soul. I'm left alone here as the darkness consumes me leaving an empty shell of what I used to be. My thoughts are choking me as I silently scream inside my head. It doesn't feel right and here I am falling... I can't cry any more for these hazel eyes have crie

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Catch Me Before I Fall

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Catch Me Before I Fall

Catch me before I fall But it's too late For I have already fallen Hit so hard my body cracked My heart shattered within Shutting myself down Closing up to others My silence forever kept Catch me before I fall But it's too late My horrors now revealed You're gone forever And I'm standing here alone Lost and foresaken Catch me before I fall But it's too late My visions now hazed Coldness seeping in Freezing my internal organs Lost in time and space Frozen expressions of sadness No longer do I exist Catch me before I fall But it's too late For I have already fallen Hit so hard I died in an instant
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I don't take crap from anyone, I don't care who you are. I will not tolerate direspect, you respect me and I will respect you. I am not a push over and don't try getting anything by me, I can read people well. Don't be fake because I don't tolerate it. I don't have time for games, I'm an adult and have a life to live. I want to be published or become a photographer.

Live, laugh, love. Dance like no one is watching. Don't have regrets. Don't take anything for granted. Never regret something that once made you smile.

Current Residence: A-Town!
deviantWEAR sizing preference: A size of my own
Print preference: I don't care...
Favourite genre of music: Rock, alternative, some country, some pop, r n b, hip hop, some rap...
Favourite photographer: larafairie, zaqua-x, my-shots, andersonphotography, jrdn88, amelie89,creativemikey
Favourite style of art: Everything...I'll look at whatever catches my eye
Operating System: PC
MP3 player of choice: Ipod touch :)
Shell of choice: Heck if I know haha
Wallpaper of choice: Anything that captures my eye.
Skin of choice: Whatever
Favourite cartoon character: Tinkerbell, Woody Wood Pecker, Bugs Bunny, Daffy Duck
Personal Quote: "Live, laugh, love"

Favourite Visual Artist
Metallica, Empty Crush, Smile Empty Soul, Linkin Park, Hinder, Seether, My Chemical Romance...
Favourite Movies
A walk to remember, 10 things i hate about you, she's all that, bring it on, walk the line..
Favourite TV Shows
Two and A Half Men, New Adventures Of Old Christine, Hell's Kitchen, Master Chef, Law and Order, NCIS, Criminal Minds, How I Met Your Mother
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
3 doors down, dishwalla, adema, empty crush, one less reason, linkin park, breaking benjamin, used..
Favourite Books
To Kill A Mocking Bird, Cyrano De Bergerac, The Giver, Harry Potter Series, Romeo & Juliet, Le Divorce, Chocolat, White Oleander
Favourite Writers
thenakedlunch, oldest-boy, spiritualrocket
Favourite Games
Spyro the dragon, resident evil, halo, crash bandicoot warped
Favourite Gaming Platform
PS1, PS2, PS3, Xbox, Xbox 360, Wii
Tools of the Trade
Pen & Paper, Digital Camera & PSE7, Computer
Other Interests
Writing poetry, listening to music, reading, watching tv, hanging with friends, shopping, the mall..

I had a baby!

I had a baby!

So many have asked where I've been since 2016.... In May 2017 I became pregnant! I didn't find out until 4th of July. When I got in to see the Dr I was 7 weeks and 5 days along. I had a great pregnancy with no symptoms! At 20 weeks I found out I was having a baby boy! We named him instantly, David Carlo. At 24 weeks my pregnancy went downhill. I found out that my cervix had shortened severely and I was taken off of work and put on bed rest. I had to start taking a progesterone pill daily to try to remain pregnant. At 34 weeks and 6 days I went into active labor. Labor was very quick! My son arrived January 18th 2018 at 4 pounds 11 ounces and

Hello Life, Goodbye Smile

Hello Life, Goodbye Smile

Oh hello ass kicking life, we meet again and so soon too! You said hello not that long ago and here we are face to face again. You kicked me down, do you remember? Let me refresh your poor memory. My friend committed suicide and you told me my husband was losing his job because of me. Do you remember now? Okay, good! Now you've decided to kick me even further into the ground before I had the chance to regain my strength and catch my breath. Oh life you're comical and cruel. Why must you be this way? I shall hide under my rock again and come out when you've stopped being so childish. You love to see me cry- is that it? Do you love to see my hu

Done

Done

Sick and tired of being sick and tired. So tired of having to be strong... To not show my emotions. I have to mask my feelings because in the end do they really matter? Of course they don't. Sure in a perfect would they would and should but this isn't sugar coated perfection. So tired of having to hold everything inside until I just can't anymore and every single thought and feeling rushes to the surface and over flows so much that it is suffocating and drowns me slowly and painfully. For so long I've pretended to smile... To laugh but inside I have been dying. So many things I deal with alone because being alone in something that is bitterly

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Wishing you a happy one, Marissa :iconbirthdaycupcakeplz:
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY  ! Dear Lisa !
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HAPPY  BIRTHDAY Lisa  !

Best wishes to you and yours !
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Happy Birthday, Marissa...you got the best present the other day...congrats :iconbirthdaycupcakeplz: