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David Carlo by luckylisa David Carlo :iconluckylisa:luckylisa 8 3 Maternity 2 by luckylisa Maternity 2 :iconluckylisa:luckylisa 3 0 Maternity by luckylisa Maternity :iconluckylisa:luckylisa 7 3
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Chaotic Silence
My eyes know death, the heart knows a brokenness that cannot be explained.
My mind knows chaotic silence and scattered thoughts that run rampant with no stop in sight.
My body knows a deep pain, scars wrapped around stark white flesh that no longer bleeds.
My reality knows nothing about truths, it only knows the ins and outs of lies that the world spews.
There is no happiness behind these dark eyes, the light burned out long ago.
This heart does not and cannot beat any longer...
With this knife all hell shall cease but these damned tears flow like rivers from aquamarine eyes.
I just want to be safe in my own skin, happy again.
I just want to feel like myself
But I'm so lonely I can't even stand my own company anymore.
I've been so lost, so frightened...
I feel so hideously vulnerable in a weakened state.
I just want to feel again...
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Literature
Crimson Light
My thoughts have become my temporary hell
As my mind runs a mile a minute with no shut off switch in sight.
This gnawing aching feeling to be wanted, to be touched won't cease.
Desire to feel again courses through these veins of mine.
I'm so sick and tired of this numbness that has plaugued me for so long.
I just want to be held tight as sobs shatter my soul.
This body of mine is so empty floating aimlessly into oblivion...
No hope to ever bring me back from this hellish reverie.
I am suffocating on feelings I wish would silence
But they scream begging to come to the crimson light.
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Literature
Darkness
I lay awake in the darkness as fear casts shadows inside my mind.
I feel like I am all alone
With nothing but thoughts that I do not speak running rampant.
All this pain...
Back and forth inside my mind a million times I've blamed myself,
Something so uncontrollable and out of my grasp of understanding.
I close my eyes and my reality becomes me, soaking despair into these fibers of my soul.
I'm left alone here as the darkness consumes me leaving an empty shell of what I used to be.
My thoughts are choking me as I silently scream inside my head.
It doesn't feel right and here I am falling...
I can't cry any more for these hazel eyes have cried irreplaceable oceans tumbling down rosey red cheeks.
I can't breathe, can't feel anything as the numbness sets its hooks deep into porcelain flesh.
Falling...
Falling...
My voice cracking unrecognizable as I collapse into the arms of death.
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Aquarius Maiden (Black and White) by luckylisa Aquarius Maiden (Black and White) :iconluckylisa:luckylisa 14 0 The Zodiac: Aquarius Maiden by luckylisa The Zodiac: Aquarius Maiden :iconluckylisa:luckylisa 5 3 Window To My Soul by luckylisa Window To My Soul :iconluckylisa:luckylisa 2 0 Lost In Thought by luckylisa Lost In Thought :iconluckylisa:luckylisa 6 1 I Smile For You by luckylisa I Smile For You :iconluckylisa:luckylisa 9 2 I Am What I Am by luckylisa I Am What I Am :iconluckylisa:luckylisa 3 2
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Goodbye :iconluckylisa:luckylisa 3 2
Literature
Unseen
With each passing day my heart breaks a little bit more.
I do not recognize this shattered mass inside my chest...
An empty husk of something that once loved so endlessly.
There used to be a light that shined bright from green hued irises but instead there is nothing but pitch black that reflects back.
A laughter that bounced from the walls,
Smiles that would captivate a room
But silence is all that can be found in the darkness.
My soul has withered and died, frozen in time my heart breaks like shards of mirrored glass.
So pain stakingly pointless to continue forward...
It's all so hopeless now.
I wish I could disappear for I don't want to be found
But was I ever seen to begin with?
The bitter truth sinks in like the sharp blade of a knife...
No sweetness, you've never truly been seen.
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Literature
Inevitable Breakdown
The breakdown was inevitable, it was the when and how that was an unknown toss up.
The heart breaks so gently but it's the mind breaking apart that causes the most destruction and chaos.
My thoughts have clouded my judgment leaving me an empty void that can not be filled.
I wish that life was not so cruel, so unfair, harsh, bitter...
But alas the bitch loves kicking me when I'm down knocking the air from my lungs
Bruising my ego sending me 6 feet under ground.
My heart has stopped beating
My mind temporarily silenced.
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Literature
Spiral Down
Life is spiraling downwards into the depths of the unknown.
My heart breaks while my mind is following too closely on the heels of my despair.
If I parted ways would life see? Oh no honey, life would be hysterically laughing along with me.
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You are a very beautiful model! I love the intensity of your facial expression and the lighting in this photo is absolutely wonderful. ...


This piece is unique in its own way, it is not something I have read before. I like the flow of the piece and it has very good imagery ...

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David Carlo
David was born January 18th 2018. He was born 5 weeks and 2 days early and born healthy. He just recently celebrated his 1st birthday. This is from his newborn photos. He was a fireman which was a nod to my father in law who spent many years as a fireman earlier in his life. We wanted to surprise him with the firefighter theme and he was definitely a very proud grandpa.
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Maternity
From my maternity photo shoot back in January 2018. Just barely got them done in time. Also just barely had my baby shower...he arrived 4 days later. He was 5 weeks and 2 days premature so we all thought I had more time.
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So many have asked where I've been since 2016.... In May 2017 I became pregnant! I didn't find out until 4th of July. When I got in to see the Dr I was 7 weeks and 5 days along. I had a great pregnancy with no symptoms! At 20 weeks I found out I was having a baby boy! We named him instantly, David Carlo. At 24 weeks my pregnancy went downhill. I found out that my cervix had shortened severely and I was taken off of work and put on bed rest. I had to start taking a progesterone pill daily to try to remain pregnant. At 34 weeks and 6 days I went into active labor. Labor was very quick! My son arrived January 18th 2018 at 4 pounds 11 ounces and 19 inches long. He was born healthy at 34 weeks and 5 days. He spent 6 days in nicu. He was my 30th birthday gift as my birthday was January 20th. Fast forward to 2019 and he is turning 1 tomorrow!
  • Listening to: Crazy Angel by Kill Hannah
  • Reading: The month's bills
  • Watching: Nothing
My eyes know death, the heart knows a brokenness that cannot be explained.
My mind knows chaotic silence and scattered thoughts that run rampant with no stop in sight.
My body knows a deep pain, scars wrapped around stark white flesh that no longer bleeds.
My reality knows nothing about truths, it only knows the ins and outs of lies that the world spews.
There is no happiness behind these dark eyes, the light burned out long ago.
This heart does not and cannot beat any longer...
With this knife all hell shall cease but these damned tears flow like rivers from aquamarine eyes.
I just want to be safe in my own skin, happy again.
I just want to feel like myself
But I'm so lonely I can't even stand my own company anymore.
I've been so lost, so frightened...
I feel so hideously vulnerable in a weakened state.
I just want to feel again...

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Marissa D.
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
I don't take crap from anyone, I don't care who you are. I will not tolerate direspect, you respect me and I will respect you. I am not a push over and don't try getting anything by me, I can read people well. Don't be fake because I don't tolerate it. I don't have time for games, I'm an adult and have a life to live. I want to be published or become a photographer.

Live, laugh, love. Dance like no one is watching. Don't have regrets. Don't take anything for granted. Never regret something that once made you smile.

Current Residence: A-Town!
deviantWEAR sizing preference: A size of my own
Print preference: I don't care...
Favourite genre of music: Rock, alternative, some country, some pop, r n b, hip hop, some rap...
Favourite photographer: larafairie, zaqua-x, my-shots, andersonphotography, jrdn88, amelie89,creativemikey
Favourite style of art: Everything...I'll look at whatever catches my eye
Operating System: PC
MP3 player of choice: Ipod touch :)
Shell of choice: Heck if I know haha
Wallpaper of choice: Anything that captures my eye.
Skin of choice: Whatever
Favourite cartoon character: Tinkerbell, Woody Wood Pecker, Bugs Bunny, Daffy Duck
Personal Quote: "Live, laugh, love"
Interests
So many have asked where I've been since 2016.... In May 2017 I became pregnant! I didn't find out until 4th of July. When I got in to see the Dr I was 7 weeks and 5 days along. I had a great pregnancy with no symptoms! At 20 weeks I found out I was having a baby boy! We named him instantly, David Carlo. At 24 weeks my pregnancy went downhill. I found out that my cervix had shortened severely and I was taken off of work and put on bed rest. I had to start taking a progesterone pill daily to try to remain pregnant. At 34 weeks and 6 days I went into active labor. Labor was very quick! My son arrived January 18th 2018 at 4 pounds 11 ounces and 19 inches long. He was born healthy at 34 weeks and 5 days. He spent 6 days in nicu. He was my 30th birthday gift as my birthday was January 20th. Fast forward to 2019 and he is turning 1 tomorrow!
  • Listening to: Crazy Angel by Kill Hannah
  • Reading: The month's bills
  • Watching: Nothing

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DanStefan Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2019   Photographer
HAPPY  BIRTHDAY Lisa  !

Best wishes to you and yours !
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VDragosPhotography Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2019  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy-Birthday by VDragosPhotography  
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Trippy4U Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2019
Happy Birthday, Marissa...you got the best present the other day...congrats :iconbirthdaycupcakeplz: 
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Destroyer77 Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2019
Happy birthday!!! red and white 150px by EXOstock 
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ratinrage Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2019  Hobbyist Photographer
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