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Bleeding Clutches
Sometimes life overwhelms us.
Depression sits on our chest and with clawed hands digs out the best parts of us.
Its hard to breath when your lungs are gone and blood fills their place.
Breathe.
Just...
Breathe.
It shouldnt be this hard.
But it is.
Smile, laugh, be normal.
No one wants to see the truth.
Hold broken pieces in bleeding hands.
Count them all one by one,
Setting them back into place knowing they just wont stay.
When all else fails:
Smile.
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Literature
The silence of it all
The night falls quick and quiet.
Around me, the world settles down for the night and my brain rises full of questions.
This place we live in isnt what we thought it would be.
Its worse. Its better. Perhaps its what we need.
When I lie awake at night...
I wonder if Im doomed.
Too broken to ever truly fit beside someone else.
My heart yearns but my brain ignores it.
My reaching hands find only the distance I've created.
The mind is a deadly weapon and its only target is myself.
It leaves gaping wounds in my soul and picks at ones that should have healed.
I tenderly put band-aids over the cracks, pretending to be ok
but all I want to do is scream that Im not.
But...even if I did, would you even listen?
Or would you just hear the same lie I give everyday: that Im fine.
I-Im fine.
So, when the night falls quiet and darkness lingers.
I let myself feel everything that I deny myself in the day.
Take off all the band-aids and let my wounds air out,
clean off all the blood I've chosen to ignore.
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Literature
Loss of what we needed most
Sometimes we lose ourselves.
In the darkness its hard to hold on,
fear gets the best of us and our palms get sweaty.
I tried.
I tried so hard.
So tell me...
Why wasnt it enough?
Why wasnt I strong enough to hold on?
Why did it have to slip away so easily?
I thought they said that things would get better.
But when?
When will things improve because Im still at the bottom of this hill and Im sliding back.
There is only so much I can do.
The pieces of myself are slipping away.
I don't know what to do anymore.
I need help.
But when I look up, Im alone.
People come closer but I push them away.
I dont need their lies and for them to pretend.
The only thing I need is to find myself again and they just want
to take more of me.
Why cant you see there is nothing left to take?
I'm losing myself.
And Im scared.
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Literature
All I have to give
I cant open the door anymore,
All who pass through it take a piece
There is nothing left to give, you've taken it all.
Why do I bother?
I know how it starts,
And I most certainly know how it ends.
Why do I bother?
You're only going to hurt me like everyone else.
Please dont lie to me,
and dont lie to yourself.
Please.
You say you wont hurt me,
that all you want is to make me happy
but how easily you break your promises.
I have shed so many tears for you--
do you even care?
Oh lord, why do I want you to care?
I banish you.
From my life.
From my thoughts.
From my heart.
Be gone from me.
Just...just go.
Dont look back, dont spare me a second glance.
Keep your velveteen lies and your hands to yourself.
I cant be bothered anymore.
I've nothing left to give.
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Literature
Alone with pain
In the grand scheme of things,
We are alone.
I have no idea why
I had allowed myself to think I might be different.
The shower water burns hot,
Leaving my skin red.
Hidden in my chest
My rib cage fills with the pain my heart cant take,
too greedy to let it go completely,
too cracked and broken to successfully hold it all in.
Why was I so stupid?
How could I have let this happen?
This always happens. I should have known.
I should have known.
I should have known!
Why did I let this happen?
How could I have let this happen?
The water starts to run cold,
And the pain freezes in place.
My heart quivers and stills.
The hurt it feels cant run away like this,
and it can rest knowing its not going anywhere.
Alone.
The word is branded upon my skin again and again.
Alone.
Worthless.
A mistake.
A Regret.
But mostly alone.
How could I have ever let myself think otherwise?
Im no different from all the rest of the abandoned souls.
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Literature
Cant
I cant.
I cant be happy.
I cant smile and feel it upon my face.
I cant do the things I love without staining them.
Sorrow colors me blue
And pain washes me in red.
The sea calls my name
and sorrow holds me down,
painting me a pale mimic of the ocean blue.
The waves whisper to me, reminding me of better days.
Today is grey with me a blue.
The blue of being lost in a world where you were meant to be happy.
Red stains the water
And hurt floods in, stealing away the blue that lingers.
Being alone hurts more then you know,
hurts so bad it becomes an almost physical ache.
I cant.
I cant feel this anymore.
Its killing me.
Surely it is killing me.
And soon there will be nothing left.
I cant.
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Literature
A l o n e
Never have I felt more alone.
I say Im fine but never has that been more of a lie then it is now.
You dont understand because you're too wrapped up in each other
to see the tears I cry.
You're blind to the lie of my smile,
You could never see the hurt I feel.
Not when you stand facing each other and seeing nothing else.
Never have I felt more alone.
I say Im fine but its a lie.
Im reaching for a hand to hold
But there is no one for me to reach out to.
The tears fall and my breathing shudders
But it does me no good because this release of anguish
only makes room for more to come flooding in.
I AM NOT FINE!
Stop asking me to pretend other wise because its killing me.
I cant cry myself to sleep another night.
I cant spend another minute wishing the darkness would kill me while I slept.
Never have I been more alone
But you just walk on by
And I smile and say Im fine.
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Literature
Broken
A damaged world where people fall through the cracks.
We are losing ourselves.
Where do we stand?
The ground is falling away under my feet.
Where is there to go when your lost
And you can't trust anyone to hold your hand and point to you the right way?
Everything to lose to those with everything to gain.
So I stand lost and alone.
The world is broken but so am I,
I'm losing pieces to greedy hands
If you find a piece let it know it's missed
For never has the darkness seemed so cold.
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Literature
Waiting
The day weighs heavy
And tomorrow dances out of reach.
Patience tests us,
Time watches from the sidelines, curious.
Only we know the true struggle.
Tomorrow brings us one step closer
And loneliness and sorrow holds our impatient hands.
Why must we wait, and why must the day be so long?
Does it not understand what it means to long for something?
To feel its so close only to have it be so far?
The day weighs heavy,
But not as heavy as a heart left waiting.
Will tomorrow ever come?
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Literature
Silence
there is a silence in my heart.
No longer does it beat
No longer does it sing
No longer does it dance in joy or triumph.
There is just the silence.
Empty, cold chambers,
long halls that know no travel.
Its lonely,
the silence I mean.
There use to be song,
Use to be laughter...
But its all gone now.
No longer do I know the joy I use to.
There is a silence in my heart
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Literature
Run
Come and learn what it means to have a soul that breathes once more.
Come away with me and relearn what it means to breathe,
Set your strife aside and let yourself be lost with only my hand to guide you home again.
Leave and relearn the meaning of life just to forget it all over again.
Let this moment be fleeting but followed by another.
Run now while the time is here.
Run now and dont look back, the path is rough and you might stumble along the way--
But never look back because the end is near and beautiful.
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Loneliness
Loneliness is an ache I feel
No amount of pizza,
,Youtube, or tv can change it.
I look for the answer but find none.
All around me people laugh together
But I sit alone.
When I approach,
people look up and leave.
Something must be wrong with me...
Loneliness is the water in which I drown.
There will be no rescue for me.
Today marks the end
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Sometimes life overwhelms us.
Depression sits on our chest and with clawed hands digs out the best parts of us.
Its hard to breath when your lungs are gone and blood fills their place.


Breathe.
Just...
Breathe.


It shouldnt be this hard.
But it is.
Smile, laugh, be normal.
No one wants to see the truth.


Hold broken pieces in bleeding hands.
Count them all one by one,
Setting them back into place knowing they just wont stay.

When all else fails:
Smile.
Hey guys! So not that I really think anyone noticed or cared (Imma just flatter myself and pretend people noticed and where disappointed...) but I completely failed to do poetry month this past April! Ack! So...I will be doing a belated poetry month in July instead! Woot! Exciting right? Yes? N-No? Oh...ok thanks. 
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  • Playing: The game (which I just lost)
  • Eating: jelly beans
  • Drinking: lemonade

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I shall drink to your health on your birthday!

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Or non-alcoholic if you prefer that! Sweating a little...
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Happy birthday!
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I shall drink to your health on your birthday!

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Hope you have a great birthday!
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Let me send you all my best wishes to your birthday :shamrock:, my dear Devin!  :iconflowersplz:
I hope that you're fine and that you spend a wonderful time! :pray:
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Happy Birthday!!
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Happy Birthday!
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Thanks for the watch :D
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Of course! You're stuff is too lovely not to!
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I shall drink to your health on your birthday!

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