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Losing : Day 58
Shhhhh, don't disturb Hear that voice? listen A crack on my heart it's about to crash, i'm guessin' Keep it low, please It won't take long Doesn't take much to happen One look from you, if i'm not wrong A look that lacks everything Your shaky hand, stroking my hair I'm not so experienced in love But I can tell , when it's not there
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Losing : Day 57
Hold your pen, and draw me the line Where does it end, my limits. How hard, how deep can I love you? Mention all the rules, don’t forget a bit I can’t promise you I can end it If you don’t stop me, I will never quit I might believe that you love me And I’ll try to take the place where I don’t fit I might try to be by your side, next to you A no where for me to sit So draw me the line, I’ll follow the rules And you can keep my heart that you slit
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Losing : Day 56
Weight : 78.7 Stretch your hand reach out, yell There’s a light at the end, I’m sure It was your fault that you fell They can’t hear you, scream no more Why is your hand still up? Do you really think anyone would come? Give it up already, your hand is numb Why does your heart deny it was dumped? What’s the point of believing? When you see the end of the road Closed with no way for escaping It was the turned back you saw not the nod No one’s coming, give up, and listen to me It won’t hurt much if it was fast Accept the fact it was never meant to be And that what never happened can never last
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Losing : Day 55
Weight : 78.8 I promise I won’t dream anymore I promise you that this is my last desire Not looking to the past nor the future Disappearing like a candle’s fire It wasn’t my choice to love you And it wasn’t your choice either And I try not to be selfish So I try hard not to get closer It’s a lonely long path I have to walk And although I know it’s a dead end Though I’m not the one by your side, I’m still there It doesn’t hurt if I pretend That you are mine and no one can take you It’s a sweet dream that is soon to be over Sad, isn’t it? My destiny I understand that I only
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Losing : Day 54
You take me back to throw me away Distorted, out of dimensions The same mistake, left alone Neglected, with no happy emotions I need to pull myself together And figure everything out Get the pieces of the me that I’ve lost Though there’s still a piece I haven’t found And it’s not my soul, not my mind Because I’ve lost them form the start You have it with and I can’t have it Please, give me back my heart.
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Losing : Day 53
Weight : 78.8 You keep wandering around death And you think your savior is this? You don’t hold my hand My last chance that I missed My tears won’t be able to bring you And my screams won’t reach you And no matter how much I shake you and cry Maybe you are in better place, brand new And I wanted nothing, nothing, But the warmth your smile bring And I was dead before you and now I’m dead again There’s no point of me dying, it’s the same thing I can’t believe that life still goes on I can’t believe birds still sing their song You left me and the world stood still and mute What reason d
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Losing : Day 52
Weight : 78.8 A pain, for every sin A scream, for every crime Ignoring my brain’s din Where my lies dine And I can feel it go through my veins I can feel it in every muscle I can see my thought’s train Passing by in a hustle But I know I shouldn’t fight it I know what I’ve done Though it’s a lot, but I deserve it Watch me, as my last breath is gone
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Losing : Day 51
Weight : 78.8 Broken promises Wasted chances Disappointed faces And I just turn my back Sinking hope My faith elope Too fast to stop Never looking back Fading trust Hidden lust But I know I must One day, go back A sweet escape A bigger cage One tiny step And it will all crack Tired from being alone And I can no more hold on And I just need someone To pull me back Again, hitting the ground Crying without a sound Tears are not allowed Just payment for what you lack Failure number hundred Already been where I dread I’m alive, still, so dead Waiting for the awakening smack But a heart so wasted A person so hate
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Losing : Day 50
Weight : 79kg Sadly it’s true I’m now used to not being with you And you have to admit That I did my best in every bit You needed me and I was there But it turned out that u don’t care And I’m supposed to forgive You took your time, now what do you have to give? Do you know why nothing is the way it should be Because you will not be the friend you said you would be Movies aren’t movies because you’re not watching Songs aren’t songs because you are not listening People are not people because they pretend I’m not who I used to be, because you are not my friend
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Losing : Day 49
Weight : 79kg Same old story, but different chapters I fall in love, my heart breaks, a bit harder And I never knew what is so wrong with my plot Maybe it’s the things I said, and the things I did not The books won’t help me, and even the stars They never cared, although they’ve been there from the start Still, they never cared, they only blink and yawn While I sat wishing upon them so hard till dawn “Please, let me be loved” “Please, you are the only thing I trust” “Please, make staying far easier” “Please, please make me stronger” But they just blink…. So, I’m ag
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Losing : Day 1
Day 1: Weight: 88.5kg/176pounds You told me that you loved me How could you dare? To tell me that u no mo more care Everything I believed in is now so far And u just ignored me and drove away ur car I thought I loved u, but so it seems That u were only here to shatter my dreams And now my dear I’m gonna get my revenge Speak up bastard! What’s your defense? I wasn’t good enough, I was just NG?? Filled with hate agony and envy No, u won’t hold my hand No, no one will ever understand The pain that’s inside The face that I can’t hide The battles I had to fight The past that I left behind The lonely
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Losing : Day 2
Day 2 Weight : 87kg/174pounds In the mirror, there lives a girl Sometimes I peek and smile at her And she smiles back at me and sometimes she waves With her green eyes, and nice blonde hair But I always thought something was wrong With the confidence she have she look so strong With a loud laughter, talking just full of life Behind the glass, she wanted a place to belong I knew the secret that no one else knows How inside she feels, how she is at loss For words to describe how she feels, what goes through her mind She can’t show her weakness, she can’t meet my eyes Hang on there, Mirror girl, don’t cry Hang on
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Losing : Day 3
Day 3: Weight : 87kg/174 pounds You were my heart, and my heart died You were the truth, and the truth lied You my everything, the one and only My shelter, the place where I can hide You were my life, but my life is over You were the arms where I came back to order You’d hold me tight wish me happiness You were the one to bring back my laughter You were my smile, and my smile disappeared You were my  life , and now my time is near Coz u betrayed me , u lied , u did everything wrong U left me with nothing , nothing but my fear..
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Losing : Day 4
Day 4: Weight: 86.5kg/173pounds I’m a shell that’s empty inside A reflection in the mirror, with no one behind A heartless soul, a soulless heart Before I get up I fall Harder than the first time I try my best, I work hard to make things okay Holding to what I believe, making faith my way But when I’m almost there, I lose it all With no guidance or light, just left astray I’m nothing, I’m everything I’ll only think what you want me to think I’ll forget it all, what you’ve done So maybe one day I’ll be someone…
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Losing : Day 5
Day 5 Weight: 86.5kg/173pounds Hard you try, I’ll fail you Fast you run, I’ll catch you More you struggle, I’ll pull you Deeper , so you can no more breath You’ll run away, I’ll catch you You’ll hide from me, I’ll find you You’ll hate me …I’ll love you You hurt me beyond what the eyes can see You don’t understand that we are one That if you can’t love me, you won’t move on That when I see me, I see you I’m your reflection I’m the only thing that is true
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Losing : Day 6
Weight: 85.8kg/172pounds If my body was to disappear This memory won’t After I cried a thousand tear With every heart throb When I wake up from my dream Seeing you by my side, is all what I want Far away, when you journey Leaving me alone Only sadness is my friend Looking for a home With a thousand smile in my head I wait, I wait, I wait, until you come
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Losing : Day 7
Weight: 85.5kg/172pounds Where did we go wrong? I thought we shared an amazing bond A bond that was so strong Will the sun come up and clear the fog? All the slammed doors, all the never answered calls Your number that I can’t forget The smile that always made my heart melt In your arms I used to cry And now these arms push me away Whose fault was it? The never ending question Was it too much? All the love and passion Did I love too much that you started to hate me? I’m just sinking deeper in desperation
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Losing : Day 8
Weight: 85kg/172pound I’m just in a deep blue ocean That is full of loneliness and depression And all I have is darkness in my eyes There’s no way out, no where out this confusion I try in the dark to seek the light But no matter where I look, there’s no light And if I touched it softly it will only break The darkness around me, blind, can’t see what’s right Where? Where am I heading? There’s no way that can reach heaven Here’s no light, just darkness on my eyes I close my eyes, I smile, but the exit stay hidden The pieces of the mirror make my hands bleed in sorrow And hiding my weakness, my f
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Losing : Day 9
Weight : 84.8kg/169.5 The way it was is all what I believed in The way it is, our chance is so thin The thing I know, it was all just a lie The way it will be? Staying with you is more than a sin
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Are you the one who calls & hangs-up? I'm wondering when you will grow up To get over your post traumatic shock Do what you want I don't give a f*** To me you always were 'second best' For you that was so hard to digest Thought your obsession would help us last But now you are a forgotten past So stop itching on the memories You'll bleed till you can't breathe OooH ooh Blood will drain but your thoughts won't Tell me what will you do when you reach that point? OooH ooh Seeking closure don't knock on my door Afraid I will hurt you even more I put a full-stop on the last line So don't think you'll be pressing rewind Stop itchi
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Excuses are running out &you are running away Didn't you wanna be found? Unlock the memories of those days? I'm confused Am I welcomed? Should I take one step closer? Those memories of you & I Are puzzle pieces with faded pictures Those memories are yours & mine To bring together all the feelings mixtures We took our own separate paths It happened that we met on the way It's up to you to let this pass It's up to you to give it away Everything Happens for a reason So take a minute to think it all over Those memories of you & I Are puzzle pieces with faded pictures Those memories are yours & mine To bring together all the f
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For Gaza!
This journal ntry is not gonna be about me , it's gonna be about my nation. About human beings that ar getting killed as you are reading now,it's about the people f Gaza! right now they are getting bombed and killed , so far 428 people died including 60 kid, 2200 wounded and still, the Israeli won't stop. i know you may really not be concerned about the middle east issues , or maybe you live far away to do anything, as we all are somehow helpless. but all what i wish that as a human , you would understand , and say NO to all this violence!!! NO MORE KILLING!!! NO MORE IGNORANCE!! AND STAY STRONG GAZA!!! http://no-more-ignorance.deviant
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i really don't know what to say! i'm so ashamed of myself!!! first i'm sooo so soryy that i've been absent for this long! i really don't know what to say >
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Staying Strong
Hey everyone, I guess you all know now about my Grandmother death last Wednesday, it was a huge shock for me, I never thought I'd be this affected by it. But I'm all better now, because I have you all who encourage me with the sweetest words ever. I will always be grateful to everyone, Thank You All. :heart: I hope you don't mind if I talked about my Grandmother a bit. She was a great person, she was funny and loving. she loved me a lot, I was her only granddaughter, so she always wanted from me to be the most beautiful , in her eyes i was a great girl although I know I wasn't even a quarter of what she thought I was and what I wished I
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Devoid93's avatar
May I ask how you are losing weight?
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heyy i made a new account [link]

im not really going to be using this account anymore please watch my new one

thanks for your support <3
- kaeley
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thank you for the :+fav: :icongwomp:
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Punkie-O's avatar
hey sugar!
I hope that you're doin fine :)!
xoxo
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b1gfan|Student Writer
:hug: I hope you are well my friend - I haven't seen you about in a while :D

Stay well 'k
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hatefuel| General Artist
thanks for the fav :D
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