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Father's Day
To father that was always yet never there
To a Dad I knew did very much care
To one I knew would rise above
Who would always show faith and love
To my Father who is no longer here
I love you always and forever dear
Happy Father's day for a Dad so true
Who taught me perseverance too
Serving his country for all the best
It was hard for him to get any rest
His sacrifice was forever seen
His domestic presence missed so keen
A man with honor and faith did live
One willing to very selflessly give
Away more often than he was home
We had no idea where he'd roam
Father's day an honor for him tonight
As he walks into the heaven's light
I love him truly with all my heart
And with him in mind I make my start.
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Neon Bubble Dragon by LordofPhoenixDawn Neon Bubble Dragon :iconlordofphoenixdawn:LordofPhoenixDawn 19 11
Rain sweet rain wash away the pain,
Let us all be free of last year's drain,
Open our eyes to the lessons learned,
Let us see the truth we earned.
Be there to clear the rage, hurt, and sorrow,
So we can see a better tomorrow.
Reflect the light of the growing sun,
And know our trials for now are done.
Be true to the Earth you hold Divine,
For in truth our destinies intertwine.
Stand tall and ask for truth and not fear,
Be not afraid of the lessons so near.
The suffering given is not the end,
For there is more around the bend.
The stars shine in darkest night,
To shed upon the brightest light.
To show us all that in darkest day
We are gifted to find our way.
Let the truth guide us far and wide,
So we don't run in fear or hide.
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Rabbit by LordofPhoenixDawn Rabbit :iconlordofphoenixdawn:LordofPhoenixDawn 17 8
Yin and Yang
Yin or Yang, it took so long,
To write this freaking song.
The black and white, the day or night,
Why is it I must choose this fight?
The arm so strong, the path is set,
My hand is dealt, I've made my bet.
The side of none and the side of all,
Why is it I must make this call?
To walk forth or run in fear,
The real path is never so clear,
As it is right here and now,
I must follow the eternal Dao.
The Yin and Yang, the endless song,
The way it has been all along.
No good or bad can dance alone,
And one can't go on their own,
Down the path of truest sight,
Where there is both dark and light.
The truth is seen, the cure is found,
That all can exist at once profound.
But in times of need, times of loss,
One can't choose which line to cross.
Hold it in, or let it out,
In truth we can't do without.
With both dark and light, Yin and Yang,
We know within it all we belong.
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Desolation come to the sky,
On bloody wings it dares to fly,
With strokes of red and strokes of black,
There truly is no going back.
The fires of hell come in rain,
The burning cinders cause the pain.
Run you can and hide you must,
For if you don't you'll turn to dust.
Desolation's rage a scream in the night,
As once more she's taken to flight.
Eyes of gold with venomous hate,
For mankind has a wretched fate.
Treasure abounds yet wars remain,
To ensure some feeble king's reign.
She has watched for many long years,
And has shed many sorrowful tears.
With desolation the slate is clean,
And finally the truth can be seen;
No buildings left, no wasted land,
Nothing made by a greedy hand.
She offers a gift, a brand new hope,
So there's no reason to whine or mope.
Desolation's power is fueled by greed,
When mankind plants a corrupted seed.
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Dragon by LordofPhoenixDawn Dragon :iconlordofphoenixdawn:LordofPhoenixDawn 40 10
Blackest day, darkest night,
Why is it so hard to see the light?
What makes this path so freaking hard;
Why can't I be handed a different card?
Leaves of green, trees of gold,
Why is it I have been so cold?
What makes me so tired and weak;
Why can't this pain be cured in a week?
Shards of glass, parts of stone,
Why is it I feel so alone?
What makes the truth hurt so much;
Why can't I just have a lover's touch?
Rains of ice, a storm of hail,
Why is it I am still in jail?
What makes my eyes so bloody blind;
Why can't I leave the past behind?
Sands of hell, strands of silk,
Why can't I be made of stronger ilk?
What makes some so tough, others so meek;
Why can't I be less of a freak?
Brightest steel, lightest dawn,
Why is it so hard to freaking move on?
What makes me want, envy, and whine;
Why can't I love what is already mine?
Fields of red, shields of bronze,
Why is it I can't break these bonds?
What makes it so bloody hard to see;
That what I need is within me?
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A Message
Winter's dawn, a new day comes,
Blessed past, hailed with warrior drums,
No dread we cast upon this day,
For in the end we know our way.
Deepest sorrows lost and found,
With truth and will our voices sound;
Hail the day of less sacrifice,
For at times I've been far too nice,
Allowing faith to drown in fear,
When all I need is forever near.
Be done with doubt, pain, and strife,
For it is time for me to live my life,
Without worry, stress, doubt, and pain,
Now I know what will keep me sane.
Follow my heart, my mind, my soul,
For they know how to achieve the goal.
Have faith and trust in lights of gold,
And know my love is neither bought nor sold.
With power I grow, with strength I stand,
United at last with the silver strand.
Belief in I, belief in the truest way,
Knowing that he will always stay.
Guided on with my story told,
Never to be lost, alone, or cold.
Fear renounced, rage at long last spent,
With courage now, a message sent:
'To be forever gifted with the sight
To know your way
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Silver Strand
I am faithful,I am strong;
I know right where I belong.
Here to help but only so much,
With myself I wish to touch,
The world around me, so bright and still.
When I want it I'll have my fill;
Taste the nectar, the wine so red,
No longer will I move forth with dread.
Power lost, control false and forgotten,
The rules are simple, don't be so rotten.
Be true within and strong without,
And know deeply what's worth crying about.
Waste not my life on bitter sorrow,
A dread of loss, a fear of tomorrow.
With sunlit skies, a guiding hand,
I will find strength in the silver strand,
Held with passion, truth, and spirit.
Knowing if only I'd listen I will hear it,
The songs of those who have gone before,
And fell due to sickness, strife, and war;
Their lessons plenty, their light so bright,
Giving me faith and an endless sight.
A path is made, the heart so true,
Now I know what I must do,
Have faith and don't turn away,
For the silver strand will guide the way.
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Jealousy's Pain
Dancing on a cloud of green,
The life I live, so hurtful and mean.
The ones around me who I adore,
I feel at times to be such a chore.
Their love so clear yet so far,
The pain that's caused, a deepening scar,
Jealousy felt, unable to stop and see,
What in all truth it's doing to me.
Cutting me into tiny little pieces,
Making me wish for when it finally ceases,
The blood, the rage, the guilt once more,
Makes it hurt straight to the core;
The wound so vast, a crater of red
When will it be over, must I be dead?
Is there a way to make them know,
That what goes green makes red flow?
The blood of spirit, of suffering still,
Despite all I do, despite a strong will.
In my darkest corner I feel pure hate,
And want their heart cut upon a plate,
Ripped out and split so that they learn,
With envious green this is what they earn.
Their endless desire to mess with fire,
Only to make their problems seem more dire.
With such unadulterated rage
I'm shocked I haven't burned this page O_O
In the end I ho
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World of Pain
Within this world I created,
The hatred has permeated,
The care, the heart, the soul,
And turned it to molten coal.
It has made me suffer on,
Turned me into anger's little pawn;
With rage ruling the throne,
There's not much I can do on my own.
Without the red in my eyes,
I look up to see starry skies,
And cry for days long ago,
When I could just go with the flow.
It hurts so much to be this mad;
For many a month it wasn't so bad,
Until it sat too long ashore,
Too rampant and evil to ignore.
Like a leech upon my chest,
It had long since built a nest,
With guilt, hate, and resentment too.
I was lost, alone, without a clue;
What was happening and what to do,
So that I may be once again new.
To rid myself once and for all,
Of the evil that once made be stand tall.
It gave me hate and I was a bitch,
But no longer will I be a horrible witch,
Wishing ill and bringing sorrow,
No longer will I dread tomorrow.
The karmic debt has been paid,
And so shall a new path be laid.
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Flame Spirit by LordofPhoenixDawn Flame Spirit :iconlordofphoenixdawn:LordofPhoenixDawn 6 3 Spirit by LordofPhoenixDawn Spirit :iconlordofphoenixdawn:LordofPhoenixDawn 2 0
Lost and Alone
Festering, brewing, that hatred looming,
To end the wait, to steal the bait;
Why I oh why must it come so late?
The hope to come, the hate of fate,
The darkness cast, an empty plate,
Clouds block the view of what to do.
They wreck my soul and tear it in two,
The pain severe and so hard to bear;
Why is it so hard to just get there?
The winds of change, ever blowing,
They sweep me away, kept from knowing.
Shadows creep in, threaten to steal,
What little love and hope that I feel.
It is late - as usual - I know,
But where the hell else should I go?
The path is unclear, stifled by fear,
Many ways to go, some so very near.
They mask my eyes, they cover my ear,
They make everything so bloody unclear.
These shadows invade even my dreams,
They curse me, vex me, or so it seems.
Misery and anguish are all that I feel,
When there is no rest for me to steal.
Light is hidden, yet so very bright,
Why is it I seem alone in my plight?
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I'm writing to you from hell,
A place I know all too well.
It seems so nice at the start,
It soothes even a broken heart.
The gold and silver I see,
Shows me what I should be.
There are no monsters at all,
Except those from within you call.
They dance on your grave,
And kill all that you save.
Make light of your worries,
And ruin pretty snow flurries.
There is no rain, water, or tear,
To be found nestling here.
The castles are of onyx black,
Their hope is to hold you back.
Why else would the sun be red?
If not for the fact I lay in bed.
This hell is mine, so simply said,
Cause in dreams I'm simply dead.
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First a rant:
Parents. A word. A pair of people who gift you with your existence(though it the universe/divine/God/etc that truly put the big schematic in place to make it happen at all). Then they torment you with rules, requirements, pain, expectations, guilt, and other BS because of their own THEIR OWN inability to cope, wake up, and/or move past their shitfest of demons. I am in a phase of literally shedding their BS and cutting them from my life. I have tried to reconcile. I have tried many a time to understand and I do now: they are broken and asleep and I have no room for them besides as humans(ie they live their life I live mine). I am compassionate for them in that they had to suffer their own BS to get to this point but to condemn me for being still in school after 12 years of hard downright BS. I forgave them for the previous indiscretions but to basically say me working my ASS off for 12 years is apparently nothing to their high school dropout asses is bullshit of the highest order. SHEEP. Simple. Broken spiritless unevolved clueless sheep. Period. I will be proud of MY efforts and not let them validate me or condemn me. THEY have no power over me. They have lost it as of today as of now and I will be better for it. I don't need toxins in my life and things that hold me back from my TRUE power. OH and to those who cannot keep your BS blasphemous negative pessimistic viewpoints to yourself(or in right situation ie therapy or when I CAN listen) then fuck you. I am sick of the toxic BS in the news, in my blood family, and in the world and I am sick of being made to suffer at the hand of this shit which is not mine. I am who I am for a reason, I will create and be true to MY destiny, my path and my dream and so help me anyone stand in my way......LIVE AND LET LOVE Seriously!!!!

I have had it with parents. They are a plague of endless years of crap for some and for those who are in good relations with them be THANKFUL for you are lucky. And apparently rare. I know so so so many people fucked over by their freaking parents because apparently the meaning of the word parent means to nurture their OWN agenda with offspring in some cases while others get overzealous in empowerment which leads to children who are victims or bullies, neither of which are who they truly are. The UNIVERSE is the one who knows the child's destiny and outlines it before the cells even knock it off with the self entitled 'I brought you into the world I can take you out' or the 'Do as I say not as I do' or the 'Because I said so' crap. I know some parents are great but I did not have such an experience and this is about me and those I know who have suffered decades of bullshit and had to endure repeated therapy because of unresolving, unremitting rage, anxiety, and resentments that cannot be explained besides with a depression or dysphoria diagnosis. I for one am not truly depressed. I was REpressed and SUPressed IE my values, my truth, my heart, my soul could not be EXpressed, so thus I was SEEN as depressed and viewed myself as less than perfect, helpless, unworthy, etc......Oh and lets not forget society has many OPpressed AKA depression is sometimes biochemical but in the cases of many it is outside sources stifling our inner truth

Oh and if you are a parent and get offended check in with yourself and see if you are in fact empowering within reason a child who can actually be moral, ethical, sensitive, have their own dreams, and have room to grow within the scope of society + your example. if the answer is no then work on it. I am speaking of MY parents and the parents of children who are made into martyrs, victims, prey, and severely ill or depressed individuals unable to stand on their own(physical health ailments notwithstanding)


BREAK those chains, BE YOU, and UNITE with YOUR purpose!! That was a clear as day message on many a hike during 2016. Oh and depression is NOT a life sentence of pills with proper work and guidance. Depression CAN be beaten but one must WANT to and be ABLE to express, break free, and LIVE first ^_^


It has been nearly 2 years since I posted here and I have had a lot of evolution, growth, and insight into many things and have grown spiritually among other ways. I am almost done with a journey I started in 2006 that went first from biology to business to eastern medicine and now here I am at the culmination of a 12 year voyage that has me terrified, excited, and hopeful. :wow: Long and hard it has been but many lessons I have learned along the way:
>>Family is self made, blood is not everything but its memories are purest truth
>>One doesn't have to suffer or be a victim of their circumstances; one can choose to make the most of it and be the better for it
>>Change doesn't have to be evil; embrace it and see what lies beyond the comfort of your self made sanctuary
>>Games that involve pay to win suck ass and are no longer in my life(FW gone, Smite picked up, GW2 here to stay)
>>Fear is the largest pair of shackles and the heaviest burden that some bear(WIP but I figured it out :squee:)
>>Addiction is perspective + outside stigma + dependence + harm IE just because one does stuff doesn't mean they're an addict
>>We are connected and in that connection we all feel the BS of the world's suffering and the growth
>>Not all mental illness is based in biochemistry and some is simply incongruencies in mind, body, and spirit
>>True purpose comes from unity of our consciousness(heart) and our soul(spirit)
>>Enjoy the little things, don't freak over money(WIP STILL), and be thankful always and ever GRATEFUL :tighthug:
>>Color is the language of the universe and it gives life infinite meaning through infinite translations(no two agree on same color)
>>Illness is often a catalyst for growth and change and some can come from within as a very big sucky messy lesson(the flu twice in 3 mon :(
>>Reading non school books is possible and some self help books are VERY helpful and even enjoyable.
>>Art isn't always on paper or with a pen or brush, I do art with dance and my sword and magic and it is just as satisifying(til I wanna paint again)
>>Hiking is a great GREAT way to get back to what matters and to unplug from technomania and to seek a higher truth and get exercise:D
>>Psychedelics are great conduits for evolution and breaking through stubborn conventions, programming, and traumas if done right
>>Evolution is constant and man looking back I have definitely changed and I am grateful for chance to see it here on DA. :tighthug:

And many more. 2015-2016 were big catalyst death and rebirth years and now I am coming into a very strong place of vision to start my practice and embark upon my dream mission which is to spread the health and wealth of spirit to those ready to wake up.
  • Listening to: Otto Knows
  • Reading: Leading from Within/Shannara
  • Watching: Shannara/Supernatural/Arrow
  • Playing: Guildwars 2/Smite
  • Eating: Dark chocolate
  • Drinking: Oakheart Rum


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