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The last day I saw her was last Thursday, the same day as we worked together at the theater. I remember struggling to change the marquee before I could leave while Kat was free to go home. I remember her laughing at me cursing ("FUCK THE LETTER "P"!") and thinking this will be my Thursdays for sometime, but at last I'll spend them with someone who was as cheerful as her. I was so happy as we yelled our goodbyes down the street from each other.

My friend Kat Perez died that night.

She went home.

Went to bed.

Woke up.

Had a seizure.

And died.

I went to her funeral earlier today. I just couldn't go to her wake. I didn't want to see her like that. I, an atheist, sat through Mass and bit my lip as I listened with disgust to a priest saying God wanted her so He took her.

SO FUCKING SELFISH AND INCONSIDERATE.

I felt tears run down my face as her fiancee spoke about her and how she taught him the most important thing you'll ever learn is LOVE. He was crying the hardest the whole time.

I held my manager Jim's hand and wrapped my arm around my coworker Jenny as she was put into the ground and died inside as a back up truck simply poured dirt on top of her.

Kat was a wonderful human being, full of promise and died far too young.



:rose: Kat Perez :rose:

February 1, 1987 - January 28, 2010



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Rinkuchan27 Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2010   Digital Artist
>< im sorry. i heard from stacy about this, i didnt know until i saw your journal. im sorry. at least you met her and that that you cherished that with her. hope you feel better.
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TuxedoDemon Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2010  Professional Digital Artist
I wanted to say something to you at school today about this rather than on the internet, but I didn't see you anywhere, so.... I'm really, really sorry for your loss, Alex.... If you need someone to talk to, I'm here.
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LordDogma Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2010
Thank you, but I've been getting along fine right now. It's just I've never been to a friend's funeral before even though I've had friends die, let alone visit their grave.

But, I couldn't help feeling jealous of how short her life was and yet how much she lived and was loved by everyone. I'm just going to have to take a leaf outta her book.
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JulieRaven Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2010
*hugs* It would be ignorant and arrogant of me to tell you, I know how you feel... Because, while I may have an inkling, there is no way I would ever be able to conceive how amazing this person must have been (and still is). There is no way I can imagine your own, personal pain.

You are amazing for helping so many others, and I am so... so sorry you have to experience this loss.

I love you dear...
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LordDogma Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2010
Her fiance was giving a speech at the funeral and I'll never forget it. He said she taught him just how important and great love truly is. The expression on his face and the way he spoke finally gave me proof that true love really does exist as hard as it is to find.

If there is one thing I can keep of her in my heart is love is, indeed, the greatest thing you'll ever learn.
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bluerose78 Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2010   Filmographer
:tearful:
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LordDogma Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2010
:hug:

I'm going to be happy though because I know Kat would want me to be.
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jkirluls Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2010  Student Traditional Artist
God, that is so sad.
I'm so so sorry, Alex.

She probably lived and wonderful and beautiful life and sounds as if she was dearly loved. You can't ask for more.
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LordDogma Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2010
She really did. And as sad as her leaving us was, the love people have for her is still there and still strong.
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jkirluls Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2010  Student Traditional Artist
Good, and that's the most important thing. :]
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Wolf-Gal Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2010
Wow....I'm so sorry, I don't know what to say. :cling:
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LordDogma Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2010
It's okay. Everyone one loved her and in the end she was never truly alone.
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MewMegan Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2010
I have never lost a friend. I have lost five family members in the past three years. Including my real dad. If you need to talk, or you just want me to listen, don't hesitate to note me.
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LordDogma Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2010
I've lost my real dad too, except I was two at the time so I don't really remember him at all. I've lost two other friends before due to drugs and that was just in high school. If you flip through my journal entries, deaths seem to be a once every year thing for me.

It gets to the point you just feel like if this keeps up, forget friends so you don't feel the heartache of losing them.

Don't worry, I'll be fine. Kat was a great girl and she'll always be that smiling, loving and happy human being in my head.
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MewMegan Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2010
The deaths in my life come in groups. It's really bad.
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Sch-G Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2010
I`m so sorry to hear that, it`s really sad):
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LordDogma Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2010
She had everything and just randomly died. It just reminded me how easily life can end at the drop of a hat.
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HoorayForSeymour Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
That's so sad, I'm sorry :(
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LordDogma Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2010
It's okay. She's very much loved and even though she's gone that still hasn't changed.
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Twistazoomalark Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2010
That's horrible. :( I'm so sorry to hear that. Wow...that is really terrible. She sounded like such a wonderful person. I am so sorry for your loss, I really am.
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LordDogma Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2010
Thank you. She was indeed a very wonderful friend and great company to talk to for endless hours.
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Twistazoomalark Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2010
You're welcome; anything I can do to try to ease the pain a little. <:3 I bet she was, she certainly sounded like it. May she rest in peace.
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