I hope you don't mind that I'm not adding a drawing to my comment.
Believe me, you're not missing much. At least it's definitely nothing magical. I can tell you, going from a sweet yet overly sensitive sap to a charming yet condescending vindictive ass to a potential mix of the two that's nothing but a friendship with benefits which is clearly not going anywhere...well it sure as hell ain't easy.
I was just telling someone earlier today: "I would just like to find Mr. Right and be done with it." But that's clearly not happening anytime soon...*sigh* Damnit, men are complicated.
I've learned that the person you're looking for will come along when you are not trying to find them. I've also learned that it will take a few other ones before Mr. Right comes down the road.
Don't dwell in it too long. You're sure to find yourself on the path of dating soon. Besides, you still have a lot of friends who care deeply bout you. And that does include me. Feel free to hit me up if you wanna chill sometime~!