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This would be so much easier if I wasn't left handed. Draw in the comments below!


I had been unusually depressed the past week or two, mostly out of loneliness. So much that I broke down and cried in front of my mom. Bad idea, 'cause then she started riding my ass to either get therapy or do something about. Fuck that shit, I don't got the insurance.

I have been wanting to be on a relationship for so long since I have never been in one. I guess it's because I want to know what romantic love feels like as opposed to love between family or friends. For me it's my want to just move along with everyone else in life sexuality-wise and start getting use to the idea of casual flirting, asking guys out and just going for it!

I know you shouldn't base your happiness on whether or not you're in a relationship (Has been lectured about the difference between being horny and being depressed.) but it's frustrating when you wanna change something in your life and it feels like nothing is going that way any time soon.


Anyone know where I can find some metal heads?


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bluerose78 Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2010   Filmographer
Hmmm...I don't know. It's a toughie. But screw it - I think whatever makes you happy. I don't really know the difference between love types and also honestly I don't know if I could "love" someone. Seriously. I'm sorry about Chris though I don't know what he could have been thinking - I mean if you had done everything he did and pulled back you'd be a tease. *0* THE OUTRAGE!!!
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LordDogma Featured By Owner Oct 14, 2010
Blah, it's cool. I was only hanging with him because I wanted some anyway.
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bluerose78 Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2010   Filmographer
Hahahaha. Although I'm sure other guys wouldn't mind...^^
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SeraphimSeranade Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2010  Professional Digital Artist
Hi guys whats goings on heres?

I drews yous a kitty.


(I really suck with touch pad drawing, BUT I TRIED!)


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LordDogma Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2010
And all with your finger too. :heart:
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dictators-R-us Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2010
It's going to get better. If we're at the rock bottom, of course we have no way but up.
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LordDogma Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2010
Yea, sometimes that's all we have to do.
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dictators-R-us Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2010
Btw, how's the picture of the slutty nun coming along? XD
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LordDogma Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2010
I had to change how the picture looked because the teacher didn't like it. So I couldn't use the photos of you. <8(
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dictators-R-us Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2010
Why does this always happen to me? I'll never be immortalized by your artwork at this rate. XD
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Its-Me23 Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2010
I'm a firm believer in cognitive training (sometimes theres another name for it).. alot of people who hear it for the first time think it's bullshit, but I swear, it's like free therapy. Honestly.. if I didn't try it I wouldn't be the person I am today. In high school I used to be in your position.. and it sucked. I was depressed and wanted nothing more than to be in a relationship. But cognitive training is basically thinking yourself into happiness.. they have books and official exercises (look it up) and I would suggest it to anyone who can't afford therapy. Positive thinking has alot to do with it.. and some people consider it lying to yourself, but there's a difference between this and pretending that you're happy. It iis NOT faking happiness, it's positively thinking that you're going to be ok, the world is alright, and even if today and this whole week sucks... next week you're going to be awesome. That and fish oil pills.... you don't need a prescription.. and its like vitamins for your mind and body. You can get a huge tub cheap at costco or walgreens.. and if you're really desperate.. put powdered baby formula in your cereal (no joke lol) .. but don't buy the similac brand... they found ground up bugs in that crap lol. I hope things get better for you
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LordDogma Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2010
Yea, I did some of that towards the end of summer when Chris wasn't calling me or responding back after he said he would. Now, I'm at the point where I don't care about him at all if he came back to school or called. I actually don't even like him anymore.

One of my friends from work gave me this really helpful book called "Why Men Love Bitches" and I had to reread it again to remind myself about what I learned from it. It's such a good book!
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TuxedoDemon Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2010  Professional Digital Artist
I unfortunately have no idea what to tell you other than if you need to talk, you can talk to me. I'm a good listener, and I'm good at keeping things to myself.

And I hope this silly picture at least makes you smile. <3
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TuxedoDemon Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2010  Professional Digital Artist
I unfortunately have no idea what to tell you other than if you need to talk, you can talk to me. I'm a good listener, and I'm good at keeping things to myself.

And I hope this silly picture at least makes you smile. <3
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LordDogma Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2010
I will. We need to sit next to each other in class!

Your picture makes me happy and yet terrifies Link.
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yugi-chan-0taku Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I hope you don't mind that I'm not adding a drawing to my comment.

Believe me, you're not missing much. At least it's definitely nothing magical. I can tell you, going from a sweet yet overly sensitive sap to a charming yet condescending vindictive ass to a potential mix of the two that's nothing but a friendship with benefits which is clearly not going anywhere...well it sure as hell ain't easy.

I was just telling someone earlier today: "I would just like to find Mr. Right and be done with it." But that's clearly not happening anytime soon...*sigh* Damnit, men are complicated.

I've learned that the person you're looking for will come along when you are not trying to find them. I've also learned that it will take a few other ones before Mr. Right comes down the road.

Don't dwell in it too long. You're sure to find yourself on the path of dating soon. Besides, you still have a lot of friends who care deeply bout you. And that does include me. Feel free to hit me up if you wanna chill sometime~!

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LordDogma Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2010
Thanks so much Nina!

I'm over my depression for the most part, but I find if I keep myself busy with important things, I think less and less about. And yea, you can across really good guys when you least expect them!
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yugi-chan-0taku Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
*ahem*

FAIL!!!!

This is not Nina.
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LordDogma Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2010
Just kidding Kelly~! XD
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yugi-chan-0taku Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hahaha, SUUUUUUURRRRE.

;)

But good to know you're doing well~! Let's hang sometime.
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LordDogma Featured By Owner Oct 14, 2010
Heck yea! I haven't seen you in forever!
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yugi-chan-0taku Featured By Owner Oct 14, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I know, it's been too long~! Feel free to hit me up on fb whenever you wanna hang.

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LordDogma Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2010
Course, must likely during the winter break.
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