Lopoddity

so ya'll saw my dumb AU idea here:

Well took that half-formed partly pain med born idea and actually designed a DRACONEQUUS WAVE RIDER AND SHE LOOKS SO COOL HOLY SHET

*sniffle*

just look at their whoopsie shark bab

proud daddo Bruce

tired new mom pan

BABY WAVEY FLOOF

i can't

loryska you've killed me

Howdy all.

I've been slow with commissions lately because I honestly haven't been feeling so good. Just a general sense of sluggishness, and a recurring pain in my lower back. I tried to ignore it and just hoped it'd go away on it's own (as you do with American healthcare). But today, very suddenly, a horrific pain erupted in the area of my right kidney, as though I'd been knifed in the back. I ran into my mom, who cheerfully asked if I wanted to go to a new farmer's market.....I could barely get out that I needed her to take me to the emergency room. Now.

Things were so much worse by the time we got to the hospital. The pain was so bad I could barely stand or talk coherently, I started convulsing and vomiting. It was the worst I'd ever felt in my life, and I remember praying that I'd pass out, so at least I wouldn't feel anything anymore.

I must have looked to be in pretty bad shape by the time the doctor popped in, because he immediately ordered a dose of morphine for me, then another dose. I always pictured morphine like it is in fiction- a sort of magic sleepy drug juice that makes you all happy and floaty and pain-free. That's not quite accurate- to me, anyway, a dose of morphine felt like being hit by a fucking train. The floaty feeling is real, but it doesn't make all the pain go away. Most of my hospital visit is a foggy blur of voices and pain and struggling to stay awake. I fell asleep in the CAT Scan machine, and later again in the bathroom. For most of my hospital stay, I remember my mom rubbing my back and me realllllly wanting to tell her I loved her, but my mouth was full of marbles and it was pretty tough to think or see clearly.

The tests didn't come back with especially terrible results, thank goodness. At least I so, because I couldn't really stay awake while the doctor was explaining it. I have pyelonephritis- a pretty bad kidney infection, kidney bleeding, and some issues with my bladder. I'm in a lot of pain right now, friends.

(My hospital armband, post getting discharged.)

Everything hurts- my kidney, my bladder, my uterus, my stomach, my back. I was prescribed anti-biotics, anti-nausea meds, and Percocet (an opioid analgesic) to kill the pain, but I vomited shortly after taking my meds, and I think it's affected their impact. Can't dose again for another few hours. I'm shaking like a leaf, and I cannot sleep.

I'm sorry to say that it's going to take me a few days minimum to recover from this. That means a hold on all regular commissions, as well as a delay on the remaining Platinum Patreon commissions for the month of September. I'm truly sorry, and I will try to clear out my commission queue as soon as possible. Thank you for your patience.

At least Daisy's taking all this okay. My mom's being an absolute peach and taking care of her for me. She clearly missed me when I came back from the hospital and wanted very badly to play and cuddle, but I did not have the energy to pick up a four pound puppy, or bend down to pet her, so I've been feeling super shitty about needing to ignore her. Sweet little baby still came to lick my fingers while I was in bed, trying with all her might to climb up in bed with me, but she's too small.

Hoping for a quick recovery. I'll keep you guys updated. As always, thank you for your support and interest.