I've come to a point in my life where I have to take a break from art so I can figure out what to do next with my life.
Just to clarify: I'm not leaving DA or other social media. I'm not giving up on art for good. It's been a huge distraction and I really need to get serious about things. I don't feel like I've been devoting enough time and energy to the job search. So there's a good chance I won't be doing the full Inktober this year, who knows.
I really need to sort my life out right now, and I've been feeling a bit discouraged and EXTREMELY overwhelmed.
I've been seeing a career counselor since April, been reading self help books and taking detailed notes, saving and applying to jobs, using Linkedin, and I'm still stumped. I graduated uni in June and did some freelance art over the summer but now I'm focusing on looking for a real job that will pay the bills. I absolutely love doing freelance, even if it's bumpy at times, but it's the only job I've taken, so far, that makes me feel truly happy.
The difficult situation I'm facing right now is: Do I want any old job and do art on the side? Or take the extra time to search for an art-related career?
How's that going to look on my resume? One of my main concerns is that if I stick to a non-creative job, I'll have no more time and energy to dedicate to art, and honestly that would devastate me. Not to be dramatic but art is the one thing in life that has given me purpose and identity. Am I acting entitled for wanting to end up on a creative career path? Do I have to uproot my life and move to LA if I want that? I mean man. Where do I even start? I've been exploring a million different things and I'm still feeling lost. I'm terrified of making the wrong choice and being stuck with it for a long time.
The most frustrating thing is networking and making connections.
This is very embarrassing for me to admit, but I'm a social hermit. I rarely talk to people, much less hang out with them. Especially considering where I live is mostly older conservative people, and I don't talk to anyone from college/high school anymore, with the exception of my wonderful bestie who has been supportive. When I browse Indeed and other sites there's almost nothing related to the career path I'm interested in. (Unless I'm being too picky, you can be honest if I am.) Went to a job fair at uni this week, and it was all IT/engineering/etc, so I was pretty out of place. But I am proud of myself for going out there. I gave out copies of my resume and business card.
Should I make a trip outside my hometown?
Lately I've been thinking maybe I need to take a trip to LA. That's where a ton of the creative jobs are. It would be amazing just to visit and get a feel for the area, visit the galleries, etc. All I know is, I can't remain here any longer. Maybe I don't have to uproot to live LA, but I HAVE to move to another city because living in the conservative suburbs has taken a negative toll on my personal well being in more ways than one. I've actually spent a considerable time in another city staying with a relative, but I'm not sure if I'd want to live there.
So what is it I want to do?
Illustration, which is freelance. I'm very interested in 2D animation even though I have no experience, but I feel like cleanup would be a good fit for me. Oil painting, which ventures more into the fine art category. Among many other things. I've spent a lot of time figuring out exactly WHAT I want to do.
My most recent pic
On another note, thank you for the feedback on my most recent upload. I'll reply to each comment later on at some point. I just want you to know I tremendously appreciate each and every comment, whether it be a paragraph or a single word. It means a lot to me. Favs and pageviews are just faceless numbers, but on the other hand, even one single comment leaves an impact. So thank you. This might be the last illust for a while, depending on how things go.
Anyway. Thanks for reading my rant. I tried to make it as tl;dr as possible but I had to get it all out. I'll probably delete this later. I've just been in a pretty crummy mood for the past couple weeks and it's been hard keeping it to myself. I figure some of you have been in a similar situation. If you want to talk about your own experiences I'd be happy to listen. And I mean heck. If you want to connect on Linkedin, note me.
Have a good weekend everyone!