Why I haven't been posting (Important)
I'd like to apologize for not posting anything at all this mouth. You see, my tablet kinda broke... I sent it to a repair place. I cant post anything at all until it gets fixed, but it can't get fixed until a new screen is delivered. it was supposed to be delivered on the 17th, but it still hasn't shown up... Of course, I had to stick to drawing on paper. I could post my traditional art, but they're too messy and the anatomy is awful.
I was willing to wait patiently, but now I'm getting pissed off. I hope my tablet gets fixed before my birthday... Or before collage starts at the very fucking least. It really sucks that I have to go inactive for something that isn't my fault. I have so many things I really wanna post, but can't... I was planning on celebrating pride mouth this year as well, but it's way too late now. I promise I'll be up and running as soon as I get my tablet back. Or if I get it back...
Again, I'm very very sorry.....
I doubt anyone cares, but I finally started my YouTube channel. I make MVs, AMVs, GMVs, and other crap like that. Right now, I’m posting all my old videos from Instagram that I made last year, so the effects are minimal and they have shitty watermarks on them. They’re really cringey, but I’d appreciate you stopping by to take a look.
Anyway, here’s my first AMV. It’s terrible.
I don't normally post my feelings to the public anymore, but I have nothing to do with my life, so...
Why am I even doing this? It's not like anyone will care. Even people who do care aren't going to say anything. It's the internet. The place where nobody cares about people's feelings.
I might seem angry at everyone but I'm not. I'm angry at myself. I fought my depression and anxiety but I guess I'm just too weak. I've been feeling like this for two weeks now. I was going to keep it all inside but I don't want to have another mental breakdown.
"You're just doing this for attention". Yeah maybe. That's because I have no one to talk to. Life is extra tough because of the pandemic, so I can't go therapy. I just need help. I can't do this by myself anymore. It makes me feel worse.
My head hurts. my chest hurts. I'm too stressed to eat. I'm to restless to sleep. I can't.
I'm so sorry.
I'm done with Gorillaz
If it wasn't obvious already, The Moomins is replacing Gorillaz as my new main fandom. The Moomins is probably the purest fandom I'll ever be a part of, besides Tattletail, The Lego Movie, and Stitch.
Just so you know, this isn't going to be forever. I'll draw Gorillaz again someday, Just not now, maybe not for mouths, or even years... But I promise I will draw them again.
And about those 2-D x Noodle posts? I don't ship them anymore, I grew out of it. So, please disregard those posts entirely. I feel really guilty for making the infamous "That Cat Suit" post in the first place. The reason why I never deleted it is because... Well, it's been here for a while and as of now 62 people have seen it, if I get rid of it now, you might find it somewhere else (hopefully on a cringe completion on YouTube) so what's the point?
I felt like I needed to make this journal because a few people watch me just for the Gorillaz content, you guys can unwatch me if you want.