I lay here, completely lost
I lay here shaking
Waking and sleeping
In my empire of dust
I can’t move, physically
I don’t have motivation
I don’t want reincarnation
Could my soul be lively?
I’m infinitely scared. Terrified.
Of absolutely all. Responsibilities
Of myself and my capabilities
From all, outside myself to inside
So I find myself stuck, paralyzed
Everything’s gone, empire of dust
Blind, unknowing, to what I must
Won’t I die right here, fossilized?
In my empire of dust.
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Hello! I'm a multimedia artist, nowadays I'm more into video art (though with an extended practice which includes programming, performance, animation, installation and more!), which you can see on my Youtube channel (EmberCoal, link below), but otherwise on here what I like to share is mainly photography and poetry. I'm also exploring 3d printing whilst the technology is accessible at school at least, but I want to really integrate it in my practice. On Youtube: www.youtube.com/channel/UCsX6q… On Twitter: twitter.com/Lolnyny On Tumblr (the artsy one): lolnyny.tumblr.com/ On Tumblr (the derpy one): thatmahblog.tumblr.com/ On FA: www.furaffinity.net/user/ember… On elsewhere: @ lolnyny / @ EmberCoal (I hang in a lot of places online, who knows where you might find me!  )Picture Credits: Photography: Sajad Zand Fursona art:  'Neko' Me art:  |
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Hello Deviantart, on here I upload only photography and poetry normally, but my art practice centers around video! I'm currently studying in a multimedia/ interactive arts program in university and today I've published my semester's video art work online. I made two videos this semester, a short documentary and a mutli-channel animation: Hidden Layers & Bits And Pieces.
*La version française de Hidden Layers ce trouve plus bas.
Hidden Layers is a documentary about people, they could be your neighbour, your classmate, your coworker, someone on the subway, but life isn’t always as easy as it seems. Beneath the exterior of those people, there is hardship. This piece invites you into their world, and lets you see their hidden layer.
“Bits and Pieces” is a piece consisting of mostly animation accompanied by still footage of objects of emotional importance to the artist. The animation is an emotional, digital, frame by frame abstract representation of attached feelings to the objects, using the same colors as them. Major themes include: mental health, queerness, relationships, and childhood. It is a multi-channel installation meant to be seen on two screens, looping at the same time.
Hidden Layers est un documentaire sur des personnes qui pourrait être vos voisins, vos collègues de classe ou de travaille, ou encore quelqu'un qui prends le bus avec vous. La vie n'est pas toujours aussi simple qu'elle paraît, derrière la façade des gens se trouve des difficultés non-soupçonnées. Ce documentaire vous invite dans leurs monde et vous laisse voir leurs côtés cachés, leurs "hidden layers".
*La version française de Hidden Layers ce trouve plus bas.
Hidden Layers is a documentary about people, they could be your neighbour, your classmate, your coworker, someone on the subway, but life isn’t always as easy as it seems. Beneath the exterior of those people, there is hardship. This piece invites you into their world, and lets you see their hidden layer.
“Bits and Pieces” is a piece consisting of mostly animation accompanied by still footage of objects of emotional importance to the artist. The animation is an emotional, digital, frame by frame abstract representation of attached feelings to the objects, using the same colors as them. Major themes include: mental health, queerness, relationships, and childhood. It is a multi-channel installation meant to be seen on two screens, looping at the same time.
Hidden Layers est un documentaire sur des personnes qui pourrait être vos voisins, vos collègues de classe ou de travaille, ou encore quelqu'un qui prends le bus avec vous. La vie n'est pas toujours aussi simple qu'elle paraît, derrière la façade des gens se trouve des difficultés non-soupçonnées. Ce documentaire vous invite dans leurs monde et vous laisse voir leurs côtés cachés, leurs "hidden layers".
Journal History
- Dec 22, 2018 Hidden Layers + Bits And Pieces (New Video Art!)
- Dec 4, 2018 THE LOG OFF TUMBLR PROTEST
- Apr 9, 2016 Photography Session Vlog
- Mar 9, 2016 Poetry in film
- Feb 6, 2016 Photoshoots on youtube!
- Dec 15, 2015 Tag (Christmas 2K15)
- Aug 7, 2015 DeviantART 15th birthday questionnaire
- Aug 13, 2014 Photoshoots on youtube!
- Sep 8, 2013 Thank you!!
- Jun 28, 2013 First Step!!!
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