When I stop breathing
I always have to wonder
Until when?
Sometimes it's an evening
Or just one breath before going under
Again and for how long then?
It's a terrifying thing
To just lose it
And it seems endless
Like a piercing sting
Or hit after hit after hit
It turns to distress
Maybe you scared me
Or maybe it's coming from inside
Sometimes it's my past too
Regardless, I cry out a plea
And fold on myself to hide
Wondering what to do
All I want is to air in my lungs
All I'm asking for is composure
And I'm praying for this to stop
In my head a million tongues
Clicking and clacking with disclosure
Of my worst fears in every saliva drop
Basking in my own head, drowning
It takes my breath away, suffocating
And I just have to ask: when will it end?
I can see the abyss rising, in downing
I can't function, incapacitating
And all I want to know is until when