Alone in the Dark by afySitting here in the darkAlone and coldWaiting for the phone to ringNervously typing away on my computerHands shaking, cold and clamyWishing you would callI miss you more than anythingI want you to hold me againI want that summer night backI want to see your smileTo hear your laughFeel your touchTaste your kissMy heart aches for youI miss youI wonder do you think about meDo you wonder what if I'd of stayedWould our friendship last through a relationshipWill it last through thisCan we still be friends even though we've been togetherI don't know what is going through my mindbut it keeps screaming for youI want to be with youI want to be in your arms againYou keep me sanePlease tell me you'll never leave me aloneSo i'm here waiting,waiting for your callAlone in the dark
Please by afyI've asked you to wait many times beforeAnd you haveI've asked you to comfort me many times beforeAnd you haveI've asked you to love meAnd you doTake me in your armsPlease don't leave meYou are the only stable thing in my lifeYou have been since I've met youI know I keep telling you I care for youThen turn around and stay with himBut I'll make up my screwed up mindSooner or laterI promisePlease don't abandon mePlease keep loving meYou've been there for me so many timesWhen I've fallenYou were right there to pick me upTo make me smileTo wipe away my tearsYou've kept that knife from my skinYou've kept those pills out of my mouthI care for youMore than you'll ever knowPlease tell me you'll never give upPlease wait for mePlease
My Voices by afyThe voices rising once againScreaming, yellingKicking my sanityScratching and tearing at my thoughtsMaking my mind spinNauseating meBringing tears to my eyes"Do this, Do that"All the while i'm grabbing at my hairPulling it outThrashing on the floorBeating at the wallsLet me go!Leave me alone!What do I do?How do i stop them?I want peaceI want clarityI just want to be left alone
Losing MyselfI lost myself againAmoungst the confusion and lonlinessMaybe between the fears and tearsI'm starting to feel emptymaybe even numbI don't know which is worseAt this point if it doesn't allow me to feel painI'm fine with which ever happensI just want the pain out of my lifeI dont want to force my smiles anymoreI don't want to hold back my tearsI want to let go of my fearsI want to be more of meInstead of what you make mescaredalonelostmiserablecoldIt seems as if you don't careMaybe you stopped along time agoAll I ever wanted was to hear that you careAnd to know that it was trueNot just having you say it just to make me happyYou yell and my soul disappears for awhileAnd I'm left to wonder in a dazeEmpty and so aloneI'm tired of the lingering feeling of pain in my heartI'm afraid of your cold eyesYour piercing screamsAnd your cold silenceI lost myself againInbetween your hate and "love"
From My Thoughts by afyWalking along the roadEyes wondering from here to thereFeet slowly shuffeling across the sidewalkThe scent of wood burning lingers in the airThe familiar lonely feeling overwhelms meThe burnt red color of the leavesThe pinkish orange tint of the clouds in the skyI want to screamI want to cryI want to hit someoneConfusion hits me like a ton of bricksMistakesRegretsLonlinessHatredWhen will this all go awayEverything I do seems like a disappointment to youI can't seem to satisfy youWhy can't I just let go of youLeave youMy anger towards you reminds me of the colors of the autumn leavesBurnt RedBurntI've sworn to myself over and overAs I sat in the room with tears running downI'd never let anyone treat me the way you treat meEverYet I stayYou don't want me yet you hold me captiveIs it your perverse way of controlling somethingHit itbruise itMake it cryThen hold it and expect it to be happyI need outI want outBut for some fucked up reasonI need your perm
Hatred...afyTurning pages of my hatredReliving those old and torn daysbringin up all those frustrationsThe days I thought I'd give up and fightAll that dramaAll those rumorsClenching my teeth together as to not yell"I wish you would fucking die!"I knew that if I let my emotions flyI'd live to regret itThey wouldnt stopWhat the fuck did I do to herShe was knewI didnt careThen all of a suddenly I was confronted by herMuch older sisterWhat the fuck!I didn't say shitI dont even know herBut I guess the story goes...I thought that he and sheWere secretly datingSo I in turn talked about herTried to jump herMy sister was going to fight her too...so the story goesWell now I finally know whats goin onWhat the fuckNone of thats trueIf I had issues with him cheating with herI'd of dumped his assTo this day apart of me regretsNot beating the fuck out of herI have pages more of hatredDays filled with angerDays I thought I wanted to...cuss them outmake them bleedhumiliate th
Days...by afyThese walls that were once so familiarare beginning to close in on meIt seems colder than usualSo quietThe green glow of light coming from my cd player flickersThe sad lyrics of heartbreak and tears leak out of the speakersMy damp pillow with its fading scent of downyMy warm thick brown blanketHow long have I been in here?How long have you been gone?I can here the faint sound of the rain outsideMy chest begins to feel hollow all over againHurting more with each breathConfusion seeps back into my headPanic attacks set in"I can't do this anymore,how do I survive?What am I going to do?My life was wrapped up around you!I exhiled myself from my friendsbecause I believed that you loved me."I can still hear your sickening voice saying"I only said I love you because it made you happy."I remember your cold brown eyesYour touch made every muscle in my body acheAs you walked out that doorI fell to my kneeshopelesslyconfusedlostalonecryingWhat did I do?Tell
Love Just Is...afyLove just is...Define love,Is it a gender?Is it girl-guy?Girl-GirlGuy-GuyYoung-Oldxrace-yraceLove just is...It's differant for every personIt doesn't have one solid definition.Who are you to say same sex can't love one anotherOr that older shouldn't love youngerOr that xrace can't love yraceLove has no age,No skintone,No gender.It is that bond between two people,ANY two people.Its is when their lives cross,Their souls meet,And their hearts become ONE.Love just is...
Yours...always...by afyMy mind would wonder off,And all I could think of is your eyesYour smile, your touchI'm yoursI remember the color of your hairThe feel of your skin against mineYour lips on mineYour breath on my neckI can feel your arms around me stillYou hold my heart in your handsMy kiss belongs to youI'm yoursYou've cut my soul and taken a pieceYou still have my heartI miss your kissYour touchI want your tendernessI want your strong arms to hold meI want to feel your skin on mine once againI'm yoursWill you be mineWill you come to me in the dark of nightWill you let me surrender to your touchWill you let me be yours(this one can be better, i'm open to ideas, suggestions.)