I have never been happier in my life than I have been now. It's an indescribable feeling to wake up every day and to know that you get to be yourself. There are days where I go about my every day business and I realize that I'm a girl and I'm able to live as a girl and people see me as a girl. It's an amazing feeling. It's like this constant happiness that I always have in the background of my life. For anyone out there who believes themselves to be transgender or transsexual and who are capable of safely taking the steps to transition, do it. Begin with transgender forums and communities, start going to therapy. When I first began to realize that I was a girl I was 15 years old. On 2/14/2013, age 17, I began therapy. On 11/8/2013, age 18, I took my first dose of hormones. And now at the age of 20, I am able to wake up everyday and be myself, a girl. I believe that I should have begun therapy at the age of 16, but I didn't because I was afraid of taking this massive life changing leap. My advice to anyone who believes their gender does not coincide with their sex, is to begin the process. Therapy is there to help you figure things out for yourself. Your therapist cannot say whether or not you are transgender. They are there to help you make sure you make the right decision. If you feel that transitioning is not the right path for you, maybe because you are a crossdresser or are genderfluid, then you can always stop seeing your therapist. But I can't stress this enough, if it is safe then don't wait. Don't wait to be yourself and don't wait to be happy. Your future self may very well end up thanking you someday. It never gets old when my friends call me Patricia, or when my waitress asks, "Can I get you ladies something to drink?"
On Tuesday I begin my first college semester. Fingers crossed that not only do I do well in school, but I also get to meet a pretty lady friend who I get along with. =3