2018 was a very difficult year for me.
In June we found out we were expecting our first child Feb 13th. After a couple of trips to the ultrasound appointments, we latter then found out that we were having a miscarriage. That weekend I lost the baby at 10 weeks. At the same time of me going through all this i then find out that one of my cousins passed away from suicide and that my grandpa was in hospital as well as his sister. at this point i'm an emotional wreck and took over 2 weeks off from work for personal time. it wasn't just emotional pain but physical pain. August comes around and we have a birthday party for my grandpa. but he is still in hospital hoping to get better so we have the party in his honor.
Sept 17th my grandpa's sister passes away and then 2 days later on the 19th My grandpa passed. since then it has been an emotional roller coaster for me. there re times i just break down and cry out o the blue. going through a miscarriage i feel like woman shouldn't be scared to share or talk about it with friends or family. after going through it myself i have had so many woman tell me they went through it as well. and it kind of made me feel like it wasn't my fault and it happens.
I hope here on out that this year and the years after are so much better for me and my family.