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Journal Entry: Mon Sep 8, 2014, 10:36 PM



Welp!

For once, I finally have good things to write about. Personal situation finally tends towards good now, my mom is slowly getting much and much better and it's such a relief.

I'm also finally out of depressingly stressful jobs and two weeks into my first job in my field as a rigging artist in a 2D cutout animation project here in Montreal. I'm so happy to finally be working full-time on an artistic project! The overall mood and stress levels are so much better, I can finally take a breather. No more dealing with people's money and problems in the telecommunications field! At least for a year until my contract ends, but by then, who knows where I'll be? I'm not as frightened about this as I would have been a few years ago where job "security" mattered more than my own wellbeing. I'm finally starting to have faith that I can make it out whatever happens.

I also started a oneshot project that was meant for a contest for which I unfortunately missed the deadline, as the bulk of the work would have had to be done during my family crisis and, frankly, at that point my mom's life was kind of priority ;) Still, it's looking awesome and got me poking around with my newly purchased Manga Studio Ex 5 copy, and I must say I'm in love. I'll be posting it around when I'm done so look forward to it!

I'll be posting a few teasers in the meantime and will aim to get this little art train back on tracks with other pieces as well so cheers and see you at the drawing board :D



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Well, meh. What a start...

Journal Entry: Sun Jun 8, 2014, 6:38 PM



Hello people!

Gosh, I am really starting to loathe these "Oops! I'm gone!" and "Surprise! I'm back!" that life loves to throw at me.

That super duper job I was supposed to have gotten back in October turned out to be absolutely nothing that I was told in the interview. Things got busy fast, I was doing a lot of positions at the same time (and all had nothing with what I was hired) and frustration was piling up as well as fatigue since, well, I was doing like 4-5 people's work. I still didn't have a home for myself as my actual roomate turned more and more asocial, restricting visits from my friends and family and just generaly making me feel bad at home (and the studio is open space with the living room and he's always potato couching sooooo you can guess how inspiring it was). And just when I thought everything couldn't get worse...

Tragedy hit. Could've been so, so much worse, but a family member tried to commit suicide with some nasty pills. Twice. The second time, I was actually the one finding the person and having to call cops and first aid and go to the hospital and wait, alone and despaired, in the ER hallway while I prayed for someone I love to make it. My family, which I thought was the only thing stable in my life, went from "Yay I'm in a cutesy Gilmore Girls episode LOL kawaii!" to full-blown Hollywood drama and shocking events in the span of a single, dreary night; I almost lost everything I cherished.

I jumped in position, leading the support group and doing my damn best to tend to every possible element of this situation as I just couldn't stand the thought of going on without that person in my life. Still, it cost me greatly on a personal level, as I had to push aside a major contest I had intented to participate in just two or three weeks before it all started in March, and I am now poopity trashed tired so, meh, I'll hold on but might have to call quits on that one.

Good news is, it finally seems to settle down. I'm still weary, with a small voice whispering that the second I let my guard down again things are going to turn for the worse (yes, I am a very worried person :P). But I move on. Sweet, sweet life goes on.

I know suicide might be considered by some to be harsh for DA audience but you know what? More than just a gallery, I still believe DA to be an amazing community that can go further than simple superficiality; I have met great people in here and love this place dearly.

I also hope to do my part in the suicide and mental health battlefront. Too often, it is met with shame, judgement, pity and disdain. I, for one, think that this veil of silence we like to draw upon suicide and mental heatlh needs to be torn. The same way you break a leg, sometime you can break your heart and we should never, ever be ashamed of talking about it. Sometimes, it's the only thing that will keep your loved ones by your side, out of the black pit of despair they might have fallen into.

I can tell you, friends, that I have never, ever loved failure as much as I did twice this year...



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Changes, changes!

Journal Entry: Sun Oct 20, 2013, 5:25 PM



Finally! A few prayers have been heard, and I managed to get a job offer that is pretty sweet. Flexible and less packed with stress, my boss is totally a-ok with me managing my hours as I see fit, cutting here and there if I need to and drawing at work if it's a dead time. Wonderful! Plus, some of my task should include some graphical design and book editing, so it'll be creative without being drawing per se, which should help keep my creativity muscle in shape without driving me away from the computer once I get home, as I've seen some artist friends experience when their day job requires them to draw. I hope this change will prove as fruitful and positive as I felt it to be; only time will tell!

So, next month will probably be a bit busy, with me getting to know my new workplace and all, but after that I expect to get back to work pretty steadily. It might be more novel-oriented so unfortunately I won't have much to show you guys here on DA, but I might at least post a kind of word count or something to keep track of my other creative stuff. We'll see.

Happy! :la:




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Attack on titan!

Journal Entry: Fri Aug 30, 2013, 7:13 AM



Ok, gratuitous geek attack here : Zomg, am I the only one around here so hung up on Shingeki no Kyojin? It had been a while since I got so hooked on something. That blissfully wonderful anime is giving me shivers, and dang, I'm the kind of person that reaaaaaaally prefers manga over anime, so this is quite something for me! That soundtrack! These colors! These moves! 

Might even be enough to spark a fanart project or two! :la:




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Friendships lost and found

Journal Entry: Mon Aug 19, 2013, 7:31 PM



So, after a three quarter century (I so never exaggerate!) I finally pay my respects to this dear gallery of mine.

Life has been eventful, as you could guess by the sudden silence. Too much to tell, but to give you an idea, here's a recent one: I managed to badly sprain my ankle the day of my parent's wedding anniversary, which was also the day my dear friend :iconkiramizuno: arrived for a two weeks visit after being gone back to France for, what, almost four years now?

She hauled my sorry bottom the the Otakuthon with her, taking care of me all the way with two of my other friends, and because of her I got to meet a few people I had been going to con's with and missed dearly. It really did a lot of good. I met some interesting new people too, and I had to succumb to :iconcareko:'s death stare and swear to be back next year.

Which is quite a mouthful, considering how far back I let myself go. But, laying my deadline bear for all the power of the Internet shame that might befall me is as good a motivation as any, so hey, I just might do it, now that you all know XD
My computer screen imploding on itself after many years of good and loyal service is quite the drawback, but I've got my eyes on a smexy Asus IPS that should not murder my paper-thin wallet. In the meanwhile, I'll have to focus on polishing my traditional skillset, and I'm not too sad about that, so hey? Can live. And I could probably color-proof a drawing on my tablet if I get really desperate lol Oh yeah and commishe's shall be back soon. Soon.

So, yeah. Friends come and go, and Otakuthon this year gave me unexpected meetings, meetings I had hoped for and dear people I didn't have a chance to see, but also a little footing back on the road back to my art. I'll work hard to try and pave the way a little bit more faithfully from now on. Thank you, all of you still giving a peek at my dusty corner of the interwebs. Lemme get some Raid for these humongous spiders lurking around, and prepare a batch of cookies while I'm at this. Word is I'm a real cookie master.

Cookiiiiiie by lirale

Love y'all <3 




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Requests: Nope!

  • Listening to: Fi&#039;s theme
  • Reading: Naver comics FTW!
  • Watching: Soon : Korra!!
  • Playing: Last Story
  • Eating: Dat Magnum Gold...!
  • Drinking: Water, eau, mizu, aqua, all the time!

Happy 2013!

Journal Entry: Tue Jan 15, 2013, 4:51 PM



So, what's up with me?

I'm sorry this'll turn out to be another long and maybe depressing journal, but you fantastic people deserve some knowledge as to why I've been so non-existent.

Well, basically, I've been dancing tango with some kind of depression, or burnout, or whatever. Tried to make it as invisible to others as I could manage, tried to keep it under wraps but it affects me so strongly that I can only admit it now. I come from a family line of strong independence, resilience, and mostly silence, so admitting it feels like a sort of cry for pity, cry for attention and I never wanted to seem like this.

I'm 6 months + into a long and difficult year. New job that takes too much out of me, which I'm working to push back in manageable limits. I stressed and fretted way too much about it outside of the school. Also at home I didn't really get a breather, since as much as a dear person my new roommate is, we have completely different values and lifestyles at home that also added up to a lot of stress that gave me no respite.

And as much as I wished I could still escape all that in art, the way I feel right now, I put the bar high out of reach and any time spent in front of my drawing table has me looking blankly into empty space, hoping the strangling anxiety would leave me long enough for me to simply have fun again while still having professional expectations.

But again, I am surrounded by the most wonderful people, and yet again I've received a strong and meaningful proof of faith by my loving family, who decided to celebrate my birthday in advance and provide me with the computing power to write anywhere, with an implied obligation to finish that stupid novel in writing I've been dragging since forever (hey, at least I'm at 60 000+ words or something). It really kicked the butt out of my weeping state and I'm trying to keep it at bay by setting up small yet meaningful accomplishments I can realistically achieve.

A comic artist I saw last year in a panel spoke of the importance of finishing stuff, so my resolution for 2013 will be to bring to a term as many projects and stuff I've put aside along the years. Plus, I'm moving out in July in a hopefully bigger apartment and calmer roommate situation, so that should help as well.

This means that for now, I'll be putting my commissions on hiatus for a while. I had hoped they would help me stay on drawing tracks but I just want you guys to like them so much it hurts, and it's not healthy. I need to rework on my self expectations and self limits. I need to be able to let go again, have fun, get out these watercolor pencils, water soluble graphite pencils, recycled paper and white/black pencils, and try stuff and have fun and suck so horribly I laugh wholeheartedly at it, and do stuff that moves me again. I've had a good streak of days, I feel energetic and stuff gets done, I even digitalized some of my handwritten novel chapters. I just hope this high will not bring me to a new low. That would make me feel like a whining liar to you guys ;_;

Commissioners, you know who you are; I'm not forgetting, and please keep believing that when I do feel up to it I will note you with sketches and get this awesome train steaming again.

Thank you all for you kindness and patience. It means earth and heaven to me.



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Status: HIATUS
Requests: Nope!

  • Listening to: VAST
  • Reading: Naver comics FTW!
  • Watching: Community
  • Playing: Nothing :&#039;(
  • Eating: Chocolate craving!
  • Drinking: Water, eau, mizu, aqua, all the time!

Mep!

Journal Entry: Wed Dec 5, 2012, 5:59 PM



So, well, sorry for the silent treatment guys. Trying to fight the artist's block, and remembering a pro's advice of doing and -finishing- stuff to clear up your creative mind, I sort of decided at last minute to participate in the Train your Brain contest, and while it felt good to have a deadline of sorts again and go back to comic pages, it sort of was a bad idea as well, in my state.

Between my usual busy life, there was also my godson's baptism (officially godmother = check!) which was a fun and crazy weekend, and then my health went down the gutter again. A lot of the pressure came down Monday night but then I had started a debilitating headache on Monday morning that still lingers today (the burning and hurting so much you feel nauseous and can barely walk type of headaches, yay XD)

That said, I was surprised at the buzz around my little sweety servant girl. I didn't expect such a reaction and it certainly bumped that project a little higher in the "to do queue". I had posted some scribbles for this project on my Tumblr before, but I think that I'll seriously work on the character sheets and start posting stuff here as well. It will be a fairy tale one shot that will fit nicely in a small single volume format, which should do wonders bringing back the goo' ol' comic skills.

And yeah, with spiffy subscription comes spiffy journal, I felt like livening the place up a little bit :3 Thanks to God, there are awesome people like :userShattered-Earth: that can code fur us code-illiterate people!


OH YEAH, also : Rise of the Guardians was AWESOME =w=



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Status: OPEN (Click link above)
Requests: Nope!

  • Listening to: VAST
  • Reading: Naver comics FTW!
  • Watching: Community
  • Playing: Nothing :&#039;(
  • Eating: Chocolate craving!
  • Drinking: Water, eau, mizu, aqua, all the time!
Okay, I gotta scream for help here. I'm talking to you, fellow artists.

For two years now (gosh, that much already?) I've been struck by a terrible art block. It began insidiously, creeping its way in slowly, but definitely. I've been trying to work it off but it still wins its way back every time I get better. Now, with my morale and health taking a blow, I'm almost back to square one. Again.

So do you guys have tricks to share to ward off artist block? Did you stumble across someone's journal that said how they were dealing with the stuff? 'Cause I'm mighty lost here, and that ain't a pleasant feeling at all. I want to keep drawing until my hands bleed and fall off, and yet I stare at my page with empty eyes and mind as soon as I sit on the working table.

I'm tired of keeping it low profile so I decided to see if I could get some Internets magic going on. What does inspire you? What recharges you?

Halp ;_;
  • Listening to: VAST
  • Reading: Naver comics FTW!
  • Watching: Life on Mars (UK)
  • Playing: LoZ : Skyward Sword
  • Eating: Candies! 8D
  • Drinking: Water, eau, mizu, aqua, all the time!
Well, what goes one way goes the other way, and where there is life, death stands in wait of it's time...

I've just learned that my grandma's wife, who had been in remission of cancer, went from 'yay totally fine' to 'advanced generalized cancer' in the span of one test to the other... I went to see her a week and a half ago, and she had had an operation two days before because her kidneys had failed. She... melted, literally. The doctors don't think she'll make it to Christmas, and from what I've got that's quite the best case scenario. And my grandmother, well... she's not taking it very well either. I just can't bear to see her so sad, and her own health started flinching quite a bit...

I've always loved my grandma duo, and such magic permeated anything they touched. They are true artists, both of them in their own way... It's gonna be a rough patch of life for me in the nearby future. For now I feel numb and maybe I'm still in denial, I don't know. I just know I'm not quite all there, and all of myself.

I'll be just a tad quiet in the near future. I'm focusing on positive stuff and lots of good sleep, and if you don't see much new stuff it's, well... let's say I tend to draw schmubly horrible stuff when I don't feel all too happy, and I'm quite the perfectionist.

Do keep an eye on my Tumblr, though, if you feel like it. Posting old sketches is deliciously easy and fast, and I don't have to think too much posting it.

I'll need a heck-ton of baby love and ponies to offset all that sadness... =_=



EDIT : I traveled and saw my grandmas for a kind of farewell party that had been organized, a bit dinner in a restaurant where tons of people who loves my sick grandma came to celebrate her. My parents, my soul sister and myself sang for them and entertained the people present after we ate. My other sister by heart also came with us and of course brought with her my littlest godson, so that my two grandmas could cuddle him until their arms fell of (and me too, when we got back to the hotel; I was the happiest baby holder in the world for a few moments).

It was fun, it was bittersweet, and it gave my grandma such an energy boost. I think I'm realizing, now, that she might be gone soon; I knew before but I couldn't bring myself out of the numbness. Now I feel the tears coming and it's a good thing; getting it out will help. I also feel like letting it out in art, so hopefully I'll stop avoiding my drawing table and sit down to drown myself in some art. That sounds great.
  • Listening to: VAST
  • Reading: Naver comics FTW!
  • Watching: Life on Mars (UK)
  • Playing: LoZ : Skyward Sword
  • Eating: Candies! 8D
  • Drinking: Water, eau, mizu, aqua, all the time!
Gasp! :shocked: I've entered modern age!

Jokes apart, I finally got myself a Twitter (twitter.com/LiraleTwi), where you can find my crazy random babbling (with random french, you have been warned! XD), and most importantly my newfangled awesome Tumblr account :la: (lirale.tumblr.com/), where you will find sketches I'm too lazy to post here that are awesomely completely exclusive to my Tumblr account, and eventually said Tumblr will contain comics, WIPs and insanity, because my life is a crazy scramble of statistically impossible stuff happening to me.

And if you have silly questions, for that Tumblr account of mine, or feel like sharing some of your own impossibly crazy anecdotes for me to draw, please go ahead!

Show it to your moms, friends, neighboors! Let's get this thing rollin'! :boogie:

French fact of the day : Anecdote is the same in French and English. Same word, same meaning! (Thank you, Wordreference!)

P.S. Yes, that Tumblr theme is very, very kitsch and it will be changed eventually. I wish they made "Become a web coder in your sleep!" mp3's, but until then my capacity to program anything web-related is so low it makes little girls cry. Seriously.
  • Listening to: VAST
  • Reading: Naver comics FTW!
  • Watching: Life on Mars (UK)
  • Playing: LoZ : Skyward Sword
  • Eating: Candies! 8D
  • Drinking: Water, eau, mizu, aqua, all the time!
I feel all giggly and stuff! :la: My little dearest Nolan was born on October 2nd, and he so happens to be my second godson. (Wonder if I'll ever be able to cube that? XD)

I'm not really religious and all, but being a godmother has always been a deep, important wish for me, and having it a second time is really a blessing. I don't know what it means to my drawing schedule though; either I'll draw more because I'll be babysitting (other sitters hated nights, but I loved it 'cause I could draw XD) or I'll draw less because I'll be babysitting XD

Either way, I intend to take the time to appreciate this wonderful new little baby boy, and I'm just so happy to share it all with you guys :squee:

(A ponified version of my godson might be quite awesome methinks XD)

*dances away giggling*
  • Listening to: VAST
  • Reading: Naver comics FTW!
  • Watching: Life on Mars (UK)
  • Playing: LoZ : Skyward Sword
  • Eating: Candies! 8D
  • Drinking: Water, eau, mizu, aqua, all the time!
So, it begins. Tagged, I have been. OMGWFTBBQ! (Yep, I do feel a little bit crazy this morning XD) So thank you :iconkobrakin: for the awesome writing, as usual XD I really had to wreck my brain to answer those questions, it was tons of fun! 8D

But I'm not great at tagging myself (lazy and shy, you might say) so I'll just answer without tagging back XD (Yes, I can hear you boo-ing me, but it won't change the fact that I'm not tagging XD)

1) In Soviet Russia, __________ ____________s YOU!

In Soviet Russia, you don't ride horses, horses ride YOU! (has always been one of my favorites XD)

2) How much wood would a woodchuck chuck if a wood chuck could have the strength of ten gorillas?

Somehow, that sounds so Monkey Island-ish. I can hear Guybrush saying it in my head! XD Now, if that bird suddenly got the feathery equivalent of an ant, I would guess that forests and houses of the world wouldn't stay standing for very long XD

3) Where do you see yourself in ten years, assuming you were a manatee?

Terrorizing poor manatee males in the Sacred Manatee Mating Grounds. (Manatees shall be forever associated with Monkey Island in my head)

4) Which would you prefer: a gun that fires sharks, or a shark that fires guns?

Definitely the gun that fires sharks. It's funnier to shoot something with pointy ends, plus if it were sharks firing gun, I'd be afraid of a scam and the guns coming out of one shark hole that wasn't the one I had in mind!

5) Who would win in a fight: Pi out to 50 decimal places or the Fibonacci sequence out to 25 numbers (starting at 0)? Show your work.

I chose an art career, I think all my mathematical skills shriveled and withered with a screeching wail of agony way too long ago. XD

6) George Washington and Theodore Roosevelt team up to fight an evil Calvin Coolidge in the body of a cyborg allosaurus. Explain why the hell this isn't a thing yet.

I'd have to know who the heck is Calvin Coolidge. Does that Calvin have a tiger plushie?

7) Godzilla and Galactus team up to fight Mothra and Unicron. Who's side is Voltron on?

Are you crazy? Sides? XD If I were Voltron, I'd wait for the evil guys to fight each other to death will sipping some coffee and then I'd finish off whichever basterd is left standing XD (I'd bet on Galactus, depending on how hungry he is that day)

8) A super intelligent, super sophisticated AI system takes over the world, because it wants to stop humans from always hurting each other and destroying the planet. It legitimately has the best long term interests of humanity in mind, and will never become corrupted by power. However, it does only what is most logical to achieve the best results in the least amount of time, without regard for emotional or moral implications.

You have access to an EMP weapon that will permanently disable every piece of technology on earth that relies on electronics of any kind on the planet or in orbit. It will stop the AI from taking over, but will also send humanity back to the early 19th century technologically, and result in unimaginable global chaos as every aspect of our lives that relies on technology vanishes.

Do you use the weapon?


Now, that question alone could take years to answer. Moral and ethical implications strech so far! I'd tend to not use it, if the supercomputer doesn't just merely stop us from hurting each other but actually makes sure every being on earth has food, shelter, a job, good health, etc. I mean, we have the power and technology to make so many wonderful things, so many advanced stuff, but as a species, human is too greedy and individualist for that to happen. I'd love for a future like Star Trek's Federation to happen. When you get out of the sci-fi and focus on earth, and how society works as a whole then, it's so balanced, with people able to do the jobs they like and have talent for, they can change their mind, they work their shift and then they relax and do their hobbies, they all have the basics provided and their works provides them extras. Going back to that computer, keeping the human race happy and well-cared is only logical, since happy people stay more healthy and work better. (Yes, I'm an utopist, and I dream of a Carebear world, every day of my life.)

But, if the computer only views humans as an ant colony of some sorts, and totally disregards the human's need to accomplish itself and live happy, like some sort of Matrix, I'd probably fire it up. Going back to a pre-technology world wouldn't be such a dramatic consequence, I think. Chaos would be total, but it's not like metal and tools would all dissapear as well, and some knowledge would remain in the most brilliant people's heads. In a few years, I'd say 20 or so, it would probably be back to a certain level of technology similar to what was before. The books would still be there for us. Maybe it would help us realize, as a society, how foolish it had all become. Like so many people said, after all, if al the countries in the world are in debt, where did all that money go? And when even life has to end, how could infinite profit growth be possible?

So, short answer, depending on how far that computer goes, I might not fire it but if I did, I think the consequences wouldn't be that bad so I really wouldn't be afraid to use it.
  • Listening to: VAST
  • Reading: Naver comics FTW!
  • Watching: Life on Mars (UK)
  • Playing: LoZ : Skyward Sword
  • Eating: Candies! 8D
  • Drinking: Water, eau, mizu, aqua, all the time!
Hello peeps!

Just wanted to let you people know that I'm holdin' up and still around, but I just got a little bit more sick again, caught a flu or something, it got my throat acting all up again, and I'm officially tired of whining about being sick ;_; I just promised myself I'd keep my DA bustling with activity, and didn't quite expect it would be with journals explaining why I'm not so active. Body, why must you fail me so! D:

This time though I managed to have the doc take a throat sample, I hope this will finally help understand why I'm still sick. In the meantime, I'm so tired and pooped all the time that just getting home from work, I don't have even the strength to feed myself. I'm not cooking very healthy food these days, let me tell y'all XD

But morale is still good, so don't you all worry. I'll just have to sleep some more and be a little less ambitious with my energy. I guess I just couldn't wait to get better again, and started pulling on the rope too early, busting my recovery.

I'll have to be very very reasonable and well-behaved for a few days more. Sorry about all that, and sorry to all you so adorably, lovingly patient commissioners ;_; I just could die of shame right about now!
  • Listening to: VAST
  • Reading: Nothing! I must be sick! :O
  • Watching: Kooooorrrraaaaa! And MLP:FiM
  • Playing: LoZ : Skyward Sword
  • Eating: Candies! 8D
  • Drinking: Water, eau, mizu, aqua, all the time!
Just a short journal to congratulate my good friend :iconhinoraito:, who just got a contract with Dork Diaries! She deserved it big times and I can't wait to see her work!

You can go see by yourselves on her journal here fav.me/d5cjnwq and take a look at her work if you don't know her yet! :D
  • Listening to: VAST
  • Reading: Nothing! I must be sick! :O
  • Watching: Kooooorrrraaaaa! And MLP:FiM
  • Playing: LoZ : Skyward Sword
  • Eating: Candies! 8D
  • Drinking: Water, eau, mizu, aqua, all the time!
Man, I'm not happy. I'm not the whinny type, so I hate to talk about it once again, but my health really took it's sweet time getting back. And, oh, warning here : I try not to get any details, but if hearing about sickness unsettles you, don't read, skip the <tags>! I just want to give some kind of account as to why I was away so long.

<Whining about sickness> After the antibiotics to get rid of my bronchitis, I was still sick, coughing so hard I'd feel like throwing up in the worst fits, and after going back AGAIN to the doctor, I was told I had a pharyngitis and given a sort of super mako syrup, but even that wasn't enough. I finished the bottle and would still breathe carefully all day long, with that tingly feeling of unease in my throat, having a few fits now and then all day long.

I then sort of had an epiphany and started to take some Claritin. You see, I discovered this year that I am mildly allergic to almost ANYTHING airborne (just before that bronchitis in fact), so I figured that clearing that from the scene might help, with this seasonal allergy crap and whatnot. And it did help. My throat finally had a chance to get rid of all that swelling (I guess?) and let go of the harmful bacteria that had lodged itself near my vocal chords. It had also lodged itself on my tongue (E-EW!!) and some providential tool I had bought at the dentist office a few years ago helped get rid of that. I still have some residual fits, but two-three times a day without almost throwing up is HEAPS better than the living hell I was in.

Man, am I pissed ಠ_ಠ. </Whining>

That aside, well, as you could guess, that got me terribly tired. Most of the bronchitis fell into a month vacation, when I didn't have much obligations, but as I had to start working again in my day job while still sick, my energy dropped to the ground and I have no reserves left.

<Whining>I also got diagnosed some anemia. Delightful, isn't it? Sure helped in this whole mess.</Whining>

Good news is, I have iron supplements I have to take everyday for fives months. Started it yesterday, and it should help me feel less tired in a month or so. This weekend I finally feel back on track, whereas the last journal was me trying to force-positive my well being. Didn't work as well as I'd thought *shrug*

So, I'm really sorry for all this. All this away-without-news and omg-I'm-so-sick-pity-me stuff. Like I said, I felt I owed some of you guys a little explanation, and I still hope to kick that sickness's butt so hard it's never ever coming back, with just the sheer power of my will ಠ_ಠ

Grr ಠ_ಠ
  • Listening to: VAST
  • Reading: Nothing! I must be sick! :O
  • Watching: Kooooorrrraaaaa! And MLP:FiM
  • Playing: LoZ : Skyward Sword
  • Eating: Candies! 8D
  • Drinking: Water, eau, mizu, aqua, all the time!
Finally, I'm settled in my new apartment. I had to wait a bit before I could unpack and place my stuff, and my poor computer has been one of the last things put in order, as I really really didn't feel like crawling under my desk to plug all those nasty cables XD

You see, I started getting sick on July 7th, coughing so hard that I kinda hurt my ribs, and my diaphragm felt like I had tried to use it to move furniture. It really ruined my groove, and I went weaker by the day, until a few days ago I have been diagnosed a bronchitis and given some antibiotics that will hopefully kick its ass into oblivion. My voice does already sound a little better and I'm coughing a lot less, and I'm only two days into the treatment, so I'm hopeful this will finally be resolved very soon. It's kinda hard to breathe and I'm so tired of coughing I feel like whining like a little kid until the sickness gets so tired of my wailing it runs away from my body, which is kinda NOT likely to happen, I guess XD

So sorry guys for being away so long, but I really didn't have the strength to do much these past days. I'm finally getting some good night sleep with some kickass codeine cough syrup, on top of falling asleep randomly because of the antibiotics, so I'm getting back on tracks and ready for action!

On that note, I've got a few days off work ahead of me, and I really feel like drawing, so please, if you feel like commissioning, go ahead and please yourself! My usual sketch commissions are still available (details over here : fav.me/d4zf5wo) and I'll look into a price grid for more types of commissions when I feel a little bit better this week.

Stay healthy, people, it really is the most precious thing on earth! XD



EDIT #1 : Well, seems like a bronchitis wasn't enough for me. Seems like I thought getting a pharyngitis, too, would be an awesome idea. The antibiotics really helped and I felt somewhat better right away, but as I finished the 10 day treatment and still had coughing fits that would almost make me throw up, I figured something else was wrong. The mucus was so thick when coughing, I almost couldn't breathe back in afterwards. Tried self treatment for a few days with syrup that helps you dilute and cough bad mucus, but to no avail, and a quick trip back to the doc today had me informed that my throat was red and swollen and that I had a pharyngitis.

Fortunately, the green mako-y throat liquid they gave me really kicked in right away (it's so numbing I have to avoid eating for half an hour after each treatment lol) and I FINALLY almost feel normal. I can suffer, I can weep, but breathing problems... *shivers* I think I'll go make a donation to the cystic fibrosis when I'm all healed up... I got a slight idea of that drowning-while breathing feeling they try to convey in their ads, and by god, nobody deserves this ._.

So, after a DAMN WHOLE MONTH sick, I'm finally getting back on track... for real, this time! ಠ_ಠ
  • Listening to: VAST
  • Reading: Nothing! I must be sick! :O
  • Watching: Kooooorrrraaaaa! And MLP:FiM
  • Playing: LoZ : Skyward Sword
  • Eating: Candies! 8D
  • Drinking: Water, eau, mizu, aqua, all the time!
And for reaaaaal this time! I have been living with my good friend :iconhinoraito: for quite a while now, but planned on moving back to Montreal somewhere after July 1st. That would have depended on what luck I would have finding a job.

Life then jumped at me and offered me a new job in Montreal like, NOW! XD So right now I'm in the process of packing, panicking, taking care of all the boring yet very essential papers to take care of, all the while still working at my old job and trying to get commissions rollin'. I'm failing a bit miserably at most of it, all but panicking, which I have been doing well XD

So I humbly apologize to everyone in the queue right now, and if some of you guys were thinking of grabbin' one tasty commission in the near future, well I suggest you wait a bit till I get my stuff organized in my new flat. I'll be half functional at most until July 1st, after which I'll be able to move in entirely and place all my stuff.

Sorry for the inconveniences, and I'll keep you guys posted as to what happens next in my always-so-crazy life! XD
  • Listening to: VAST
  • Reading: Nothing! I must be sick! :O
  • Watching: Kooooorrrraaaaa! And MLP:FiM
  • Playing: LoZ : Skyward Sword
  • Eating: Candies! 8D
  • Drinking: Water, eau, mizu, aqua, all the time!
Sketching is taking up most of my drawing time nowadays, therefore I decided to go ahead and offer up some cheap and fast sketch commissions.

What I offer you guys is a colorful sketch commission drawn with either erasable colored pencils or erasable/non erasable pens. You pick the style you like most, you pick your colors, subject, and your commission is served just like some popular subs I won't name. ;) Drawings will be made in a 4x6 format, portrait or landscape, and will be sent in a format easy for you to put on a USB stick and get printed at your local photo shop. That way, you can put it on your wall for your very own personal enjoyment if you so desire.

Price is 10$CAN and payment can be sent via Paypal. I will draw people, beasts, cute, epic, dark, funny, name it and I'll tell you if I'll do it. Don't bother if you're into hardcore gory or triple X stuff, I won't even consider it. I ask for payment upfront, since it's quite a small amount, but don't let it bother you. I will put love and care in each and every sketch given. I like to take the time a piece needs and love to work with details. Be warned though that I will work at this price with reasonable requests; you can't cram that many characters in a 4x6, so multi-characters sketches or detailed backgrounds might justify a raise in rates.

Details for the colors and styles can be found here : 10$ Comissions Colors by lirale

Examples of the three sketch styles :

A : Green dragon - Sketch commission example A by lirale Red lady - Sketch commission example A by lirale

B : Blue bard - Sketch commission example B by lirale

C : King - Sketch commission example C by lirale

Just send me a not with the following informations : What you would like to have drawn, any description or reference that might be relevant, and what style and colors you would like. I'll then answer you to confirm if everything is good, any questions I might have and the payment information. I'll put you in the queue as soon as I receive payment, and notify you when I start working on the sketch.

Any other question you might have, don't hesitate to ask in the comments or in a note!

Right now, I could really use both the fun of working for other people and some extra money to get through my move and it's costs, so even just sharing this journal to encourage me will help a lot! :saddummy:
  • Listening to: VAST
  • Reading: Nothing! I must be sick! :O
  • Watching: Kooooorrrraaaaa! And MLP:FiM
  • Playing: LoZ : Skyward Sword
  • Eating: Candies! 8D
  • Drinking: Water, eau, mizu, aqua, all the time!
Friends, watchers, aliens, let's make a deal. You ask for stuff, I draw stuff. I'm sick of this damned art block and since my muse is still on strike, I'll let you guys do her job meanwhile.

I can't promise free sketches/drawings/cookies to each and everyone of you, and I reserve myself the right to choose what will inspire me and to what point. All you have to do is share some ideas you had lurking around, and you might get a free drawing for it! :) I'll draw humans, ponies, monsters, dragons, streets, buildings, indoor scenes (must practice perspective!). epic, action, cute, romantic, etc. Propose, and I just might take the challenge! Detailed descriptions and references will give you extra brownie points.

Also feel free to share with your friends! Let's get some traffic rolling back to this gallery!

Also, I'm open for commission, and tip is always appreciated *wink wink*

Let's get these pencils burning!




Alors les copains, oui, c'est à vous que je parle! :P Vous, amis, collègues, connaissances de convention, gens que je connais depuis des années ou moins, j'aimerais vous faire plaisir en priorité, alors si vous avez des demandes spéciales, ne vous gênez surtout pas!
  • Listening to: VAST
  • Reading: Nothing! I must be sick! :O
  • Watching: Kooooorrrraaaaa! And MLP:FiM
  • Playing: LoZ : Skyward Sword
  • Eating: Candies! 8D
  • Drinking: Water, eau, mizu, aqua, all the time!
OMG, that had to be, like, the surprise of the month! First episode leaked, and the second one officially 'leaked' by Nick! So much win! I love the animation, I love Korra and I LOVE the new soundtrack, even more awesome than ATLA!

Have you seen them yet? Opinions, likes, dislikes? XD
  • Listening to: Kokia and hard rock... yes very fitting XD
  • Reading: Reference books of all sorts
  • Watching: Nothin' much!
  • Playing: Nope, no time for that right now.
  • Eating: Minimum I need to live in between stuff I do lol
  • Drinking: H2O concentrate :D