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About Varied / Hobbyist Jorma KoivistoinenMale/Finland Recent Activity
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Just happened to be me working with diaries... by lioncat Just happened to be me working with diaries... :iconlioncat:lioncat 1 0 Pekka and Oona by lioncat Pekka and Oona :iconlioncat:lioncat 0 0 Birch Leave by lioncat Birch Leave :iconlioncat:lioncat 1 0 Sun is rising by lioncat Sun is rising :iconlioncat:lioncat 1 0 drinkware by lioncat drinkware :iconlioncat:lioncat 0 0 Kivisilta by lioncat Kivisilta :iconlioncat:lioncat 0 0 listopad by lioncat listopad :iconlioncat:lioncat 0 0 somewhere by lioncat somewhere :iconlioncat:lioncat 0 0 dryness by lioncat dryness :iconlioncat:lioncat 0 0 watering by lioncat watering :iconlioncat:lioncat 0 0 Additional freedom gates by lioncat Additional freedom gates :iconlioncat:lioncat 1 0 cup of coffee by lioncat cup of coffee :iconlioncat:lioncat 0 0 Water tu bing by lioncat Water tu bing :iconlioncat:lioncat 0 0 Fins and go by lioncat Fins and go :iconlioncat:lioncat 2 0 coffee is break by lioncat coffee is break :iconlioncat:lioncat 0 0 also ice cream by lioncat also ice cream :iconlioncat:lioncat 0 0


Dolce by nepeta70 Dolce :iconnepeta70:nepeta70 2 0 In Search Of Love by kyokosphotos In Search Of Love :iconkyokosphotos:kyokosphotos 616 81 Lion Portrait by SuliannH Lion Portrait :iconsuliannh:SuliannH 231 103 Blue and Urple Lion by tessy-chan Blue and Urple Lion :icontessy-chan:tessy-chan 16 34 giant oil pastel by Madirakshi giant oil pastel :iconmadirakshi:Madirakshi 2 5 Graves by herv Graves :iconherv:herv 1 2 Oh those Tiger Eyes by Justaminute Oh those Tiger Eyes :iconjustaminute:Justaminute 233 119 Curious by vertigoelectric Curious :iconvertigoelectric:vertigoelectric 3 11 Downcast by CactusRose333 Downcast :iconcactusrose333:CactusRose333 1 2 owl by Satyu owl :iconsatyu:Satyu 9 8 An apple by Zauron An apple :iconzauron:Zauron 1 8


I noticed my usage of word balance. Today and last days I have used it and now I can think new meanings for it. At least for me. Sorry I am tired already. Thinker got tired. I like odd numbers. I mean it gives me balance. Oddness makes me to look both sides or to count with both hands. HEI hoo hei HOO hei hoo and the loud part or breathing for crawl goes alternatively to the rigth and to the left. I am righthanded but I like to practice ocassionally also my left hand. This week I have spoken very little with people face to face. I have written my journal in finnish and reading some texts of others. Getting and putting some thoughts. Trying to make balance in my mind. Trying to be not trying. Strange balances. To want to not get and to not want to get.  Once I got clear description in my mind about this: "You don't get what you want". Wanting makes you miss realism and you lose. And as balance goes the clear is not clear. Impossible is possible.

Swimming and computer nerdiness are seemingly my only hobbies now. Maybe I can add journaling. And a lot of dreaming or sittiing and lying without definitely knowing what is going around in my head. Today I was lying and find out for me new thing. I was very afraid of everything. Earlier. But now I am not so afraid. I even like small dangers. Or not dangers but something foreign or something I do not know how I can handle it. Repeating not big challenges yet for me. I was biking to the swimming pool yesterday. I noticed that my heart rate was going up. I was afraid. I had decided to try next steps in my butterfly swimming. I did not know how I can manage. I did it. I swam overall 900 meters of butterfly and between after every 75m some other style for 25m to get some rest. This was one thing really impossible for me before but now it is possible. Yes I have practiced for this. Wanting is not to get but it is to complete steps to get where you want. I was thinking about my paddling challenge last summer. I was really afraid that I am going to be lost. There is balance because I was really stupid to do something I had not ability and experience to do. I was able to see rapidly changing winds. Kayak is really a toy there. I have since then only dreamed to write description of my experiment. I forgot to say. I noticet that I like light feeling of being afraid. Only small. When I have to think if I can do something. This is new thing for me. I think I also like to be afraid to go to talk to girl when I get attracted. To be too attracted brings unability to speak. Balance there balance here. Not to get what you want.

Sometimes if you don't think about something you can do it. And when you begin to think you are already lost.

My confession. Somehow I feel that my greatest sorrows came when romantic relationships that were so clearly developing were accidentially sweeped or crushed to nonexistence. Now I can see some reazons in my own nonunderstanding of relationships and their complexity and not knowing anything or knowing only theoretically about psychology. It is very unvice to leave problems behind because they follow. Openness and honesty have great value. And for balance they bring dangers. As quite newborn artist I have already noticed it. Things that for some time made me feeling extremely unbalanced.

I almost missed love. The very strange thing because what it is. I find myself recalling one day of last summer. I was sitting and then current of my ideas closened me to thinking and understanding love at new level for me. Balanced way. There is no difference for ones to love themselves or others. The others you love want that you love yourself and you want that they love themselves. Because all is connected all must be balanced. And it is. Honesty makes all people same. Friendly and unfriendly things ciculate and come allways back. No thing is really nothing. And for the strange balance you have the very nearest with ones you behave not as with the others. Or you dream only as I many times do. I must stop editing before I break all what I said. But also traditions can be changed. I think that I have done something like that. Is it dream?

But is sometimes the last word to be heard. Thing are absolutely so but... Now I heard the sound of crossing stream. It is not long time ago when I found this strange phenomenon. If I was more clear and open maybe I could see it earlier. Love goes to hatred. Balance. When I say anything I can get very soon idea about opposite. I have also opposite thoughts. I think it would be creative to remember that there is allways the opposite and different possibilities. Body and mind. Changes everywhere.


Jorma Koivistoinen
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
Current Residence: here
Operating System: linux mainly from knoppix
MP3 player of choice: mplayer
Shell of choice: bash 3.2


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SuliannH Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2009  Professional General Artist
Thanx a lot for the :+fav: on "Lion Portrait" :hug:
freerad Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2007
Still waiting for more of your beautiful photos... :?
tessy-chan Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2006   Filmographer
thank you for the favorite on my pink and blue lion :D

And, you look so much like my dad it scares me XD!!

lioncat Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2006  Hobbyist General Artist
my age is 46
amispelle Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2006
Terve. Mäkin olen Jorma. Hyviä kuvia sulla :D
Madirakshi Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2005  Professional Traditional Artist
thanks for the fave!
unreasonable Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2005
thank u for your comments!
mandinema Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2005
thanks for looking at my gallery!! its not much to look at and i really appreciate the comment!!!
myuh Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2005
thank you for your visit to my gallery.
salgada Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2005
Thank you for your visit and comment. :)
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