Updates on personal life #7

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Points i'll be covering:
:pointr: Working in a hospital
:pointr: New beginnings
:pointr: Postponed wedding
:pointr: Old lady cat and new cat
:pointr: My dA activity
:pointr: dA anniversary


I. Working in a hospital

    I work as an Infectionist on a Pediatrics ward (my specialty is Infectious Diseases). I was afraid because i was scared of this totally new thing, new people, responsibility and most of all, KIDS and their parents! But it turned out to be ok, i settled in and now i'm learning stuff, especially when i'm on call. I've seen some interesting cases but i try not to get settled in too much because in a few months i have to change modules and go work in another hospital with another people for a while, then repeat the process for 1,5 years until i get to be back on this ward again.

    I now get excited when i see books and gadgets that i could use - bad thing is my salary is (and will still be in a few years) shit and i cannot afford most of them (for ex the holy grail of Infectious diseases is around 300$ and my salary is about the same and in some months it will be even less than this...). I'm still considering emigrating after i become a specialist and this is why i'd like to start working on my Doctorate and Masters degree this year so i can have a strong CV by the time i finish residency. I know this can be an overkill and it will be very stressful to have so many things going on simultaneously, especially if say maybe i have a kid in the next 2-3 years, but if it can boost my chances of being accepted into a good hospital in Australia (i have a big crush on that country), i'll have to do it.


II. New beginnings

    I'll be moving in with Vlad in just a few weeks, 4 at most. My parents bought a new apartment for us and now we need to meet with a guy so he can furnish it - at least the kitchen and our bedroom so we can move in. I'm very excited about this, i love the new apartment! It's pretty spacious and has awesome natural lighting :love: The only downside of it is the really small kitchen, but it's not like i'm going to spend a lot of time in there anyways. Maybe if you guys want it, i will show some pictures next time i post a personal journal.


III. Postponed wedding

    We kinda had the wedding planned for this year but due to a series of events - some of them that were out of our control, most of them related to Vlad not being into planning and me getting upset about his lack of involvement, we had to postpone it. I'm still mad about this to be honest but everyone's been telling me that guys are this way and i should do most of the planning, which in the end i guess i will if i want a wedding after all. But man, am i pissed! Pissed enough to punch a wall - which i won't because i will only hurt myself, or a person - which again, i won't, because it's a living being. Maybe i'll just punch the air? Yeah, that is good, the air is at fault for all of this :rage:


IV. Old lady cat and new cat

    I wanted to get another cat for many years now and i guess that with all the moving and new beginnings this might be the right moment to do it - so my other cat wouldn't feel as territorial, herself being on a new territory. I'm still not sure though, i'm afraid my old lady will reject it completely and no matter how much i try she will always beat the new one and i'll have to give the new kitten away, a thing i'm not too keen on because i do not abandon my pets. I'm still split on this one, but i have to make up my mind pretty soon. I'd really love to have 2 cats that get along and keep each other company when we're not home - which can be from 8 hours in my case to 30+ in Vlad's (cause you know, Surgery!). I feel he's not happy with this idea, but screw that, if you're not keeping me busy and excited with the prospect of an impending wedding, at least i can get the cat i've wanted for so long! Plus, i hope that after my old lady will accept her, she will not suffer from separation anxiety as much.

    Her tummy and inner back thighs are still bald, even balder now, and she vigorously licks herself in the area several times a day to the point where she hurts herself sometimes. I gave her antihistamines and i tried to give her antimycotic pills but she fought me so much when i was forcing her to take them that 1) she either spat them right away or 2) if i got her to swallow them she would throw them up. I can't give her a bath unless she's sedated, and i definitely won't do that because of the age, so i had to stop giving her those pills. It's the first time i don't stick up with a treatment and i feel bad because i feel i betray her best interests, but what can i do? Really, what is there to be done, does anyone know? Is there some kind of topic lotion that is not toxic if she licks it?


V. My dA activity

    I'm starting to believe those weeks/months i had before were not crazy, they're just the new normal now for me. I feel so bad, i don't have time to do proper features or do anything else that doesn't involve posting just Happy Bday or congratulatory comments. I've had a note from an old friend back from almost two weeks ago and only today i had the time to properly reply to it, not just a few words and that's it. I've been here for more than 9 years and i don't want my activity here to be HB messages and notes or comments from old friends i can't reply to in time... Or any other kind of comments i can't reply to. This morning i had well over 800 comments i needed to go through, some older than three weeks. I won't ever tell you not to comment on my profile or thank me or engage me in any way, it's just... when you do this don't expect me to get to it right away. Better send me a note, those at least i check daily and i do reply to them if it's urgent.

    I feel the dA part of my life is slowly but surely slipping away and i don't know how or what i can do to stop it from happening. And things will just get worse, i'll only get busier from now on with all the work and studying and most likely starting my Masters and/or Doctorate this fall... Oh god, i am honestly scared. And to top it off, i didn't even had the time to make a proper personal journal, up until this point, this is mostly put together out of replies and notes i sent friends to keep them updated. I do my best to be as active and as involved as i can, but there are days/periods when i just won't be able to. This is also why i do the BM in advance, i never know when i'm going to work overtime and get home really late and be tired as all hell and not even power up the laptop. I promote events and projects, i do features every now and then, i will keep commenting and i will give llamas, but i can't say if i'll do more because i don't know if i can. It hurts to admit it, but it's the truth.

    And about that CV thing i kept saying? That i truly and for no selfish reason i wanted to be one for so many years? That's not ever going to happen. I wasn't chosen when i was so involved and happy with the whole experience and i really had free time for it because, and now i'm pretty sure this is the reason, i wasn't good enough of a photographer. As if that meant i can't recognize and appreciate great art. As if that meant i couldn't do amazing features and keep running the projects and the groups. As if i couldn't blend in and be friends with the other CVs (which, by the way, i already was with some of them). Nope, if that's the case, let me say it as it is, since i don't care about it anymore: that's a shit reason. Really. And this way you throw away a bunch of amazing and dedicated people from the beginning in favor of some better artists that sometimes are really not that good managing this whole stuff. I won't say names, but i've been watching all (or at least most of the) CVs for a very long time and some of them were not fit for it - as a result some of them ended their term earlier than they were supposed to, or didn't and kept doing a "meh" job until the time for a replacement came. It's the truth that maybe other people didn't say in hopes they still have a chance for the next CV opening (myself included up until last year), but be sure i'm not the only one that thinks this way. Since I was never a kiss-ass, here it it. I hope i didn't offend anyone, i'm sure everyone did their best, but man, it felt so good to finally let it all out in the open.


VI. dA anniversary

    On 1st this month i celebrated 3 years since i received the Deviousness Award. I still am humbled by it because i know it's really you, the community, that gave it to me, not Moonbeam13 (i respect you Danie just as much, you're doing a great job and had always done so!). Once again, thank you for supporting me and standing by my side through thick and thin. I hope you'll keep doing it because i really need it. I don't say it often, but i really do.


    As i said in the last journals, "i cannot emphasize enough the importance of routine checkups and doctor visits when something unusual comes up, regardless of how unimportant it might seem to you at the moment. Please don't ignore your health, it's the most precious thing you were born with and you have to protect it". I mean every word of it. And take care of your pets too, either it's a budgie or a cat, a hamster or a dog, they all feel pain and we, as their friends and caretakers, need to treat them as part of the family. Do not ever abandon your pet in their time of need!
    Lastly, don't wait for special occasions to express your feelings to those you love, life is unpredictable and you never know how much time you have left to spend with your loved ones, so make every moment of it count.
    I will be back with personal updates when i will have other news for you. I appreciate every message from you, your support means a lot to me. Meanwhile, take care of yourselves and enjoy life! :hug:


Don't let the fact that you can say a lot of things on the internet without consequences take away your decency.
Stay safe! ♥

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Fyrrea's avatar
Good luck with your residency :) 
"I now get excited when i see books and gadgets that i could use - bad thing is my salary is (and will still be in a few years) shit and i cannot afford most of them" - same here :3 I want to learn ultrasonography so much, but the courses cost 500-600$ and... well... ^^' Maybe some day :D